Stage 2 - 02 - Lightning Bleeds

я обожаю милые фанфики, о да. 

@deathgod1 DEATHGOD ALBUM 'This Fire Burns Inside Of Me' is out NOW on: Apple Music, YouTube Music, Spotify, and Amazon Music. Also on VK, Napster, Deezer and Yandex. Released: Friday 7th November 2025 .

I left Avenged Sevenfold behind after Waking the Fallen returned for Nightmare and left again after Hail. It's a common myth that I'm American but I'm English, and proud to be so. This war will not be the end of everything and everything good. This war will be final. This war will be mine, because we're going to win this war. Where butterflies make hurricanes moments fall away like waterfalls. I like to go by the name of Matt, but I'm Gareth Navin Shanker, Prince Mathew Adison, Justin Parker, Kris Redfield, Em, Sinister, Orpheus, Valentine and... God. Yeah. Fck, yeah. 

​I'm a writer, musician and film maker, metaphysicist, cosmologist, philosopher, ontologist and an armed forces commander, and not in that order, and I have done this all myself on negative zero. This is a massive noise project from a small room of a return to music I used to do from some small rooms. I am lyrics, composure, vocals, guitars, keys, arrangements, mixing, production and engineering. I am also a composer, writer, star of S.T.A.R.S. CCTV, coder and video artist. I mean, are the mental voices of whose telling me which fret too hit and saying "wrong" when they don't like my key changes all just a mental simulation or am I more important than I see myself? And if it is all imaginary, it's pretty fracking realistic, what the hell. It's all in my head? I imagined my entire life? What the fuck....

​​Everything on here I did myself over the past 5 or 6 months whilst locked in a room and forced to take 2 grams of Lithium a night and lethal injections, so. You can hear my noise and see my journey through portal 666. It took me 19 years but being sectioned to an acute psychiatric ward was a strange kind of hell. I was so gone. 
Thanks and respect to King Charles and Queen Camilla for doing what they do for all of us. Would be nice for this country to hear from Prince Will and Prince Harry, aswell. Think we're all going to die before our enemy factions? Nah. Where butterflies make hurricanes moments fall away like waterfalls. Where dreams are realities and realities are dreams, the answer is only a question of you.
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​​I don't believe in humanity. What is human? Humanity is only about being humane. Human's just a word that Tupac Shakur made up that everyone fell for. We're either angels or animals? We are angels fallen from the stars and they are animals? Being human isn't as simple as that. Everyone has feelings and emotions and impulses and senses that make them do what they don't want to. God save us all? God, save us all. Go watch HBO LOST. Explains it all if you're smart enough to follow that plot.

A name is a name. I can't help the name I was forced into when it wasn't my name but they still live under a false pretense that it is. Only God can know, judge or tell whom someone is by three null words they call a name. What is law but a three letter word? They put biotechnology into my body so that they can clock my every move by neurological computation and basically when you find me dead it's murder by infliction of suicide. I'm not a robot. 

Don't blindly believe something or anything you're told let alone everything you're told about anything everything, always think for yourself with everything in information because you never know until it's too late, as if I don't kill. I'm DEATHGOD.

If I die tomorrow, the only thing I'll regret is... everything. I'll regret that just as I'm getting good at this again it just suddenly fucking ends, and I have to start again, or it never starts again like the miracle of April 1990, bad. So go on and celebrate, because there is a Heaven and a Hell, and I'd like to believe when I die I'll ascend to Heaven and cause transcenscion, but I don't think I'm going to Heaven this time. This is for all of you that fight for me, everyone that I love, and for everyone who likes getting lost in the sound. Drown it out. I won't see you tonight. To those that like to treat me like I’m nothing at all, just because I never figured out how to get my name legally changed because I never thought of that. 

Please don’t eat up the lies about me, that crazy people make up trying to understand my theories from Vesper Way and Stage. I think that they can continually harass me about 'mental health problems', detain me illegally, rape me and then have the nerve to ask more of me. Fuxed up.​Three weeks ago or longer now they said xsayrahx killed herself 15 years ago by slitting her wrists, when the whole time I thought she was just ignoring me. In a memory lost to time I committed no crime and it hurts to lose someone but I'm not falling. I don't know if she killed herself or if she was murdered, or if she's just somewhere else but I already got revenge. I killed them all. It still haunts me. So there you go. I don't ever show my tears. Do you remember everything that happened? Where the fck are you now? I'm listening to 'ichor' by 'retz' thinking it's the best song ever, right now, and I remember everything in a flicker in my head. Fck. There are 46 territories in the United Kingdom (Great Britain) now. Colonial civil war ravages the social structure of the world as we speak. We all started human but that has changed because of HL and RE. There's no way in and no way out. I still stand for the Campaign for Nuclear Disarmament but let's be realistic. I was in bomb disposal in the armed forces having to cut wires to disarm detonators, it's why my hands just start shaking randomly. Go to war to make peace? That's not the answer. This is a cold and lonely place to die, and I'm okay. "Suicide is where my head's at".

​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​Shout out to my friends at Retz, Arrdee, Ivri, Stand Atlantic, Paramore, Evanescence, Avenged Sevenfold, Trivium, Slipknot, Stone Sour, Machine Head, Killswitch Engage and Linkin Park. Sorry to those of you I forget to mention yet.​ I've been through a lot of hell and it made me look to the light. I pour my rage, hate, love, sorrow, faith, hopelessness and hope into my sounds. I'm okay I guess, going through a lot of things idiots in managerial will never understand. I am an English prince that is second in line to the throne and they're still calling me a half cast? Nah.















Thank you to everyone that helps me through this. It's not easy "being 'the one', understand". Trust me. Raise your hand and taste the courage. Thanks so much for taking the time to listen and thanks for the support, it means a lot. Thanks so much for every hit, every moment, all the love and all the nightmares that make me know the difference between Heaven and Hell and the difference between right and wrong. Let me tell you, it's taken me 25 years to get to this point since I first got into making music and I look forwards to putting a band together again to take it live and just think I just don't really care, I don't create music for fame and glory. I don't worship myself. 35 years has been an incredible journey of amazing moments and fckdep up hell and consequences. Music isn't a gift. I never dreamed of being an idol. If you want to do it. Just do it. You have to work at it every day and night and push yourself to your limits and tear up the outside of the box and climb out of it aandd put everyone else back in. Don't see yourself as a person. See yourself as a Heaven sent instrument with the power to change what happens by changing yourself to change the ending. Of everything. That's what I did when it all went to hell. They said, "what would you do if you were God?". I thought about it and did it. Yeah.
​"I know you're right here. Why do you seem worlds away?". Check out:  www.soundcloud.com/deathgod1 for all the demos from May 2025 to now @ @deathgod1. Please comment and subscribe. It's free. My first single in 5 years is out now on Apple Music and iTunes and Spotify as Artist: DEATHGOD Song: Keep Me In A Memory. The first album should drop tomorrow under Artist: DEATHGOD Title: This Fire Burns Inside Of Me.

Thanks to everyone that does the right thing and fights back against the oppression reigning down. We have one chance to save everything. This doesn’t happen twice, probably. I'm the real M. Shadows. Why do I say that? It's what Matthew Sanders told me. Just ask me to scream at you and you might believe that too. I'm not sorry that everyone lost their minds as I perfectly solved how to use 'the butterfly effect' known as 'chaos theory' to kill myself because I always die but it always continues anyway, it rewinds all the way and then I get stuck somewhere for millions of years. Some bastard told everyone that I were Ian from LOSTPROPHETS and I got annihilated because whomever told whomever they told believed them because they didn't question what they were told. It's fucked up. There's another Ian Watkins, Ian 'H' Watkins who was the one whom actually committed the crimes Ian from LOSTPROPHETS wasn't guilty. Calling me Ian, my friends is not just slander but liable of defamation and conspiracy to commit too. Dreams have reality. Dreams have laws too, doesn't mean police can't act like they are above the laws they are paid to uphold. Just remember that you never know until it's too late. ~ Gareth Navin Shanker.