I got no feelings left for you my lil dear 
Was wrapped in ideas that I had since we kids 
Ion gotta chase what you left for you secrets you kept 
Ima just do what I said 
And stay by myself 

I know my purpose
I know how hoes work
I know my time spent wisely ain’t on this homework 
Feel like i’m gon burst, if they don’t tell da truth 
Stay in ya own lane, don’t care what’s healin you 
I dropped up outta school, really on my own shit 
I can't een call home now, feel they disappointment 
This world my own and, ima do what I’m called to do 
Still thought that you called for me, I guess that wasn’t true 
Waited here for better days hatred fanned a bigger flame 
Now we both ablaze 
On the paper wrote your name, threw it in the fireplace 
Watch you fade to gray
Stepped up to the plate 
Then you backed away 
Now I’m sittin watchin ash disintegrate
Now you sittin on your ass I’m making plays 
I’m "done livin in the past" you got your way 

All my love is in a drought 
It’s all out 
And it’s been that way for awhile 
Used to kick it on the weekends we can’t feel that feeling now
All those secrets that you holdin never told what that’s about 
When I catch myself thinkin now just learn to shut it out

FADE2GRAY

DO IT MY WAY 🌐

N I been hearin lotta fuck shit
Ïm still thumbin
Keep it pushin even when it got my head thumpin
Blood rushin
Ï could feel it like a storm comin 
Still ïm lookin for my hustle , lookin Lauren London 
This time Ï ain’t stopping for a heartbreak 
Do it my way 
2 steppin to da charts
U can’t get in MY WAY 
Keep dat nina on my lap n if Ï up it Ï bang 
N a pendant w her heart n her name on my chain 
N Ï was ridin round with my Gina , w da strings attached 
Told her if she ever leave me she won’t need me back
Cause where she go she gon see me all over da map 
Neck on aquafina w da heater strapped 
That’s omm give a fuck bout if u feelin dat 
In that Martin 2 seater prolly see us pass 
Ï was downbad
DAMN Ï really Ï needed dat 
Pour out my cup n smoke this blunt until it burn to ash

Me n my dawgs we all da same page 
Dat fuck all of these hoes man go n get paid 
Me n my dawgs we all on da same page
Dat fuck all of these hoes man go n get paid

ORIGINAL MUSIC BY DEATHOFFEB. PRODUCED BY EEMTRIPLIN UNDER FAIR USE/ CREATIVE COMMONS.

BLOODRUSH

OUTDAWINDOW (IONWANT)

ARE U JUS LISTENIN OR U HEARIN ME

I know I needa take my own advice 
Outta sight ain't outta spite
The fools the one who's bitten twice 
But I help all my people eat 
They seent my hand n took a bite 
U see em askin where I be 
I got em out here flyin kites 
I think they tryn clip my wings like throwin shade gon help them shine 
Only my shadow walk wit me 
I wipe my eyes, say I'll be fine 
In this Undercover fleece n my jeans from Number (N)ine 
But rlly all I need a bag of green n place to hide 
Are u jus listening or u hearing me??
Ask God da same question, all He do instill da fear in me 
So fuck it
This might be jus where I call it quits 
Know jus save my breath cause im my mind it all make perfect sense
Watchin time tick behind these curtains, paint da ceiling red
Let the owner come n find why I ain't pay da rent 
Losin all my patience, couldn't change the way my time is spent 
Think this is meant to be n now Im glad I couldn't find a friend 
Fire in me goin dim
If this my final gust a wind Im makin sure my message send 

- goldenchild

CALLITQUITS (rough mix 2020) prod. me

Old feelings that weren't ever meant to be heard

(deathoffeb)

And if this don't break your heart
Ima know I should've felt stupid from the start 
Ima know I'm never gonna be the thing you want 
Cause you're claiming that you lost, yet you livin in the dark 
But it's okay, bitch I grew up there too
Back when I figured I had nothing left to lose 
Nah
Back when you didn't pick and choose over me and other dudes 
They don't see you like I do
Nah
I won't trust another soul like you 
But I've been at my lowest since before I met you 
Won't ever forget everything you put me through
But All this shit is nothing new 
Got my ego back today right where you threw my fucking heart away 
Was livin in the dark for like a year, ain't pictured darker days 
Fighting for my happiness like that was my King Arthur phase 
Mordred with a sharpened blade 
No wonder I can't walk away 
But maybe I wasn't lyin
When I said that I'd be fine 
But I'm hopin that you feelin real alone tonight 
Im hoping that you gettin real cold tonight..

to be low

rough mix

i'm leaving soon

Love you
I hate that you don’t, feel the same way as me
We don’t know where you going, or what happened between us
But we, know it’s time to go

Look who it is, colorless 'fit
She left again, I came back with a pen
We saw the end, she back with her friends 
Actin unphased actin unbothered 
Admit I've been feelin strange 
Unsettled feelings keep getting the best of me 
Know that somethings never change 
Livin in moments and proceeding carefully 
Something to give, thrown in a bin 
Periods before the stories begin 
Know what we've been, it got lost in a whim
So lonely she gets at a flip of a switch 
Now I’m questionin, guessin on myself 
I’m slippin and watchin the time melt 
Got me questionin, guessin on myself 
I’m slippin and watchin the time melt 
But I bite my tongue, swallow my pride 
Unload the gun, I just dropped the knives 
Know it’s better if I keep myself quiet
Like why cut the leaves off a plant that’s dyin? 
She a rose from that beer garden 
And I'm emotionless and steel-hearted
Wears emotions like clear garments
Right up on the arm big signs, be cautious 
Hearts on the sleeves boutta break, don’t drop em 
Runnin in circles gonna get you so nauseous 
And if it’s too heavy, better weigh your options 
Under my skin doing shit on purpose 
And it’s workin 
Years of being so worthless, guess I just never knew what my worth is

Now who am I and who are you?
I really wanna tell the truth 
But I can't 
So instead I pick sleepless nights and watch my hands pile up with the xans 
It was like a few months I should’ve ended up dead 
Dealin with the stomach pains, ain’t nothin to my head 
Cause I’d been thinking about the shit I’ve said 
Thinking bout the tears you shed 
If you didn’t know what you knew back then 
Prolly wouldn’t get cold when the months passed ten 
Wouldn’t go so ghost when we livin past tense 
Still time passin, what I don’t expect 
Is no differences
So diffident, and everything happened again 
And in the end it’s no innocence, nah 
No innocence 
And she goes out to parties more than she go out to churches
And man, she just wanna have fun and she can’t see how hard I’m working 
Got my back against the wall and left me hanging like the curtains 
So now every time we talk, it ends with "this shit isn’t working" 
Man I said this shit before, we livin two planets apart
Said I’d get no feelings involved, now we got here in all out war 
And man I said this shit before, we livin two planets apart 
She said she scared lose it all, I shoulda seen it from the start

But fuck, I Love you
I hate that you don’t, feel the same way as me
We don’t know where you going, or what happened between us
But we, know it’s time to go

no innocence (2PLANETSAPART)

they're not listening to me. last of few.

And I know this feelin way too often 
Sulk in defeat, through my ways, broke hearted
Soul in a rage, pact treaties with my conscience 
Losing my place, disarray and I’m cautious
He comes to play yeah he comes to play 
He comes to play he’s been coming for me 
He comes to play yeah he comes to play 
He comes to stay he’s been running for me
Catch a clip, stray bullet in a crowd I am not in 
Loneliest abyss, bashed into the bottoms
Abandonment from my God I’ve been callin 
I can’t fit in, so myself I’m offin
He comes to play yeah he comes to play 
He comes to play lucy’s coming for me 
He comes to play yeah he comes to play 
He comes to stay lucy’s running for me

on my way out

sulk - single

sulk

sulk.

N if I have to tell the truth, it’s that these feelins I’m expressing run way deeper than my music 
See my flowers weren’t blooming like these views that I’m accruing 
Added up, still insufficient 
Got used to stop my bitchin 
And now the fact that I’m alone just ain’t so comforting 
It’s been a couple months, I miss my idol 
Still I’m itchin for a bone to pick And distant from survival 
Catch em slipping where he dormin, had his bitch just hittin high notes
Only I know, that I’ve been livin life caught up in cycles 
Puttin quarters for some time alone when laundry starts to pile 
Meanwhile they’ll up rifle with they eyes closed 
And will point it at your fucking peace of mind though
And have everybody screamin while reaching to squeeze the piece 
And that Region hold all the rejects, ain’t reachin to keep the peace 
Decency isn’t seen when you sick of seein defeat
Stay Refusing to play for keeps keep my vision off of the screens 
But come correct, might snap at the next one callin me unstable 
Can’t waste my breath, trippin off what they say underneath the table 
I’m Invested in something greater than vests protecting the angles 
They cover up with they ego when showin off getting faded 
all the same like askin parents who they favorite is
Kids play the game, act like they happiness ain’t faking them 
I got too much up on my plate to keep on shaking hands 
With people not givin fucks about half the shit I’m saying
But I pop culture through this pop filter
How many I times I gotta say it to these people, I can’t rock wit ya

dorms

Happy New Year, I don’t know how I made it. More coming soon but enjoy this story for now. 

Verse 1//
Anger stay locked in my memory bank
Remnants covenants all look the same 
Astral project look right in my face 
Astral projection my revenant plane 
Where are your angels when you kickin game?
Keys with no lock you can not get away 
Terrorist threats in your mind, chuckin’ ‘nades 
You can get knocked, that John wick with the K 
Kid on the block, I’m not your everyday
Neighbors were locked momma wouldn’t let me play 
Needed escape so we picked up the skate
All fun and games till my shoes rip away
$1.95 poppa filled up the plates
Ramen noodle the pot, every night look the same 
It’s 2am, Red and blue on my pane 
Domestic disputes, CPS on the way 
I go to school school, act like ain’t nothin change 
Not knowin where ima be the next day 
Temper as short as my height at that age
Don’t let nobody get up in my face 
$1000 a month but the rent barely made 
Needed some shoes, hit the swap meet that day 
Thought I was cool, that shit wasn’t a phase
No pick and choosing shit ain’t ever change
First saw a tech, my cousins in LA
Uncle Hugo drank himself to the grave 
Mando smoke blunts, he ain’t knew they was laced
Now he just spends all his time twitching and stray 
My brother hold grudges don’t come to our place
Been like 10 years since I last seen his face 
Shit burned flames and got no one to blame 
So I picked up my words and I learned how to aim 

Chorus//
My absence of trust really turned to a virtue 
Bottle shit up and nobody can hurt you

Verse 2//

Right on ya block in that hoopty, I ain’t fuckin beefin unless you is shootin 
Known round the city, my family was movin 
So sit the fuck down if you ain’t know I been through it 
Fuck it lets do it, like really let’s do it 
Say I ain’t bout it don’t want me to prove it 
Look back at my old shit, this ain’t just for music 
I’ll check all you motherfuckers actin stupid 
I been through abuses, depression and trauma 
Got this suicidal shit straight from my momma 
I seen my own father drown right in his bottles 
I got bigger problems than the money callin
Fuck countin commas and peace like the lama 
I’ll up a rocket right in your apartment

memory bank

MEMORY BANK

Something very different, I'll be on soon. Love you all, keep running shit up.

DEATHOFFEB
My looks ain't matchin my feelins,
My pockets ain't matchin my motives hoe
I got problems stacked up to the ceiling 
Try airin shit out, but the window keeps closed 
If the kid touch a wave he gon turn it to gold
I'm floodin water right into the boat
Keep it afloat, stay on ya toes, once shit gets sparking theres no letting go 
Samuel Jackson I Pulp, that mean got juice, ya know
OJ's on me like Nicole, I'm never trustin a soul
I don't like hoes, I don't like sluts, I need a loyal one to show me love, yuh
I needa fill up my cup, none of that liquor shit fucking ya'll up, yuh
I am, not ya average, they burnin bridges, there's no comin back again
I took his missy, he ask how this happenin, crossin my path, put the fucker on track again
The homies that said they won't change over women were the ones who ended up being who did it
Houdini they bitches then make em go missin like money they spent on clothes that never fitted em (BLEX)
But show me the racks, Ima double it, posted up, juggin kids out in public
Gosha my fleece and my kicks on some other shit
Treat me like frats, all these pussies be rushin it

IONKNOWNOBODY w/ TAFOYA

ANYTHING U COULD DO I COULD DO BETTER 

Rock w a youngin till my guap in abundance 
N Im movin through yo spot, lately been like fuck it 
Ain’t no tellin what I’m tuckin but I keep dat shit on me 
Dirty $$$ in my pockets I ain’t neva lookin dusty 
Tell me why u still talkin if u see me and u ducking 
If u see me when u walking then ya chain u better tuck it 
N I run shit up on my own, 
Member back in high school all em faggots was my clones 
Revenge on my clothes, air forces w da bones
Skeletons in my closet bitch I always been alone
So I ride solo keep my eyes so closed I ain’t checkin ona stupid shit they doin on da low 
Got da reaper on da phone, been sayin that it’s time 2 go 
Put dat boy on hold a couple kids want smoke 
Ride wit yo slime
Got me seein like red rose in 09
Got my young bulls that ride when it’s time 
N my knees don’t buckle kid, ima be fine 
Ima get mine 
Pussy boy talk down I ain’t lettin shit slide
Blue face $$$ clips every time I drop dimes
So I’m up for 4 nights makin sure dis shit tight


Money Makin Vic:

Fallin victim to this game baby fore play
Hunnids fallin on the dash on the highway
Green lights lil nigga yea its pay day 
Strapped up throw it up like im tay kay 
4 rings on the grill while im cruzin
Lights off cant see me when im movin
Windows tinted cant tell what im doin
Diamonds dance all u see when im zoomin
Uh lil kid betta fall back in line 
Talk to me when yo drip to starta shine gotta rondo on me and that bitch holdin dimes gotta lot on my mind and its just money signs bitch im back
Bitch im back and its real all these clown ass niggas wanna talk wheres yo steel whats yo deal
 you play around with the shit 
I aint playin when it comes to these chips , blue face like its stich, foreigns in lot which one im Gon pick one day when im rich and im shinin on top, bust down on the wrist man this shit holdin rocks while i drown u just drip first pick while u last im the lotto i when i hit, cuz its M’s comin soon double up cuz im Vic and im well known round the city where they all crips

DEAD OR DROPOUT

DEAD OR DROPOUT w/ MMV

Devil on Your Shoulder w/ TAFOYA (Prod. deathoffeb & Bermani)

February 4, 2019

deathoffeb:
Hold on for a second, yeah soon it’ll be all over
Made it through the summer, we can make it when it’s colder 
Ion know, I got the notion that your hearts been playin poker
Couple things that I could never understand till I got older 
Hold on for a second, yeah soon it’ll all be over 
Made it through the summer just like drowning in the ocean 
Ion know I got the notion that the devils on your shoulder
Taking over your emotions, tellin you what to be hopin for

Are you hopin for forever? I don’t things just to do it 
If I’m making all this music, then I’m really going through it 
Wouldn’t you,
Know the truth if you weren’t outchea acting stupid 
No one's makin my feel foolish while I’m outchea playin Cupid 
And she only love me when she need me 
Baby I could rule the world, I’d bring the bottle out the genie 
Still ain’t fuckin with these girls, thousands of em out to see me 
While I’m movin round these shows cause my heart ain't in my city 
But while I’m home, yeah 

TAFOYA:
And if you knew I gave only the best of me
I hope he gave you everything you always asked me for
Always held you down so why you testing me?
Keep myself guarded 'case he acting hard
 
Now I can’t commit 
I can never be the same so why you always in my shit?
No roses only pricks 
Keep my name out your mouth I can never wife a bitch 
Now I hope I’m next up 
I hate these internet pussies they be acting like they flexed up 
Air forces in my dresser 
Ion play no games, lil pussy I’ll address you 
She feeling me but I can never cuff 
I can never trust these women, 
Keep my heart between the clutch
I heard it all before, 
Man this shit'll fuck you up 
Only lunacy when you and me 
Is looking for the lust 

And if you knew I gave only the best of me
I hope he gave you everything you always asked me for
Always held you down so why you testing me?
Keep myself guarded 'case he acting hard

RGB w/ TAFOYA & Bermani

Devil on Your Shoulder w/ TAFOYA (Prod. deathoffeb & Bermani)

this one is for me

death of February 11, 2019

And I've been on the go, for a long time 
And 
I just needa know, is you still down
Is you with me?
Lately got some shit that got me empty
So it's late nights in front of screens up with M.T
Way back when all this shit was still NME's and curses comin at me like the Kennedys 
And she don't love me she just lonely, cause deep inside she wish she never got to know me
Me either 
But everybody's fallin spring fever 
Holdin hands I miss a game to sit with her up in the bleachers 
I watched the sun tumble down
Behind a ocean of her feelings 
Then I watched her wave goodbye before the currents turned rivers
Damn
But then I traded in my goals for some happiness 
And then I lost them both and I ain't had em since 
(Tragic)
Couldnt tell if it's reflections but you deep blue 
I've been walkin with my skeletons they see through 
(Wine glass) 
Got a mountain full of problems I can't hike past
And I just keep droppin the ball when she hike that 
Send a text up to God, get no reply back
But on Sundays know you know where you can find me at 
Come to Thursdays, poppin downers in the culdesac 
Middle of the night gun point where they hold us at 
(BLAST IT)
Cause I be really feelin like there's really nothing left 
Stayin up for 4 days and still feelin like I overslept
Probably got a couple boundaries that they've overstepped
But I just say Im solvin problems that's within myself
Like 
I hate my voice, I hate my skin, I hate this breath 
I hate my verbs, my choice of words, I haven't slept
Still hate my dreams, I hate these feelings in my chest
I hate all these opinions in my head 
I hate my hate my eyes, I hate my lies, hate  when you walk away 
I hate that goals end up like paper in that ash tray 
I hate when i gotta hide you see me 
Hate knowing that I feel that you dont need me
Hate that everything I care about will end up leavin 
A lot of times I hate the fact I'm even breathing (Exhale)
Stomach full of pain that I was having trouble swallowing
Cause God filled up my plate then gave some shit for me to wallow in 
Pepto for depression till it's flowin like the casualties
From wars inside my head and all the martyrs that be after me 
Cause I've been on the go, for a long time 
And 
I just needa know, is you still mine 
Is you you with me?

on go (birthday party)

WHAT A DAY WHAT A YEAR WHAT A LIFE MAN
I hate summer I swear

I wonder where you went
I wonder how you been 
I wonder all this shit 
I wanted all that shit 
Way too cautious wit it, like it what it cost ya kid? 
I was joggin then, now I’m walkin wit it 
Split the coffin wit cha, like it’s the dinner check 
Said you sick of arguin, well we could get some rest 
Come die with 6 rings, I’m just like Belichick 
Girl you are my home, and I’m a patriot

PATRIOT

see you soon

honestly dgaf anymore

Expect excellence and nothing less 
My sensei sent me a text 
Sesame my seed like sensimilla, she get none of it 
Still seen all this comin, son to you she seem so celibate
Celebrate like Stevie with the keys stuck to my fingertips 
Barrel stuffed between his lips, see if he could stomach this 
Somethin told me he like to discuss just cause he guzzlin 
Stuffed my bag with somethin you would see up at the pharmacist 
And parmesan and qualitest come shop with all this guala 
Since we pull up like cop cars
French imported garments 
We don’t rock no Garçons
No Converse from Nordstrom
V8 with the doors up, I won’t be ignored 
Or no toy just for a girl that try to use me cause she bored 
I pop out and rock hard
No sleepin, I pop bars 
Lookin for my handle while I’m slipping off my high horse 
Said that you would ride for us, what you switchin sides for? 
Hard to take them em serious like I seen em in a size 4 

We pray for tomorrow, hope tomorrow never come 
If I’m honest, I been lookin for closure more than some funds 
Beg your pardon, who you speakin to? Cause I am not the one, I'm 
Chosen by my God and I never learned to run

PRAY 4 TOMORROW (hope tomorrow never come)

PRAY 4 2MRRW (hope 2mrrw never come)

TOO MANY TIMES :/

How many times I fell for you through these past years?
How many times I cast spells on you, had you right here?
I ain’t trynna backtrack we got a whole life ahead of this step
I ain’t trynna hear what they say baby you know all of that shit cap

We could be smooth walkin, hand in hand 
No trippin, we understand 
Know me best but say you don’t know me, thats really just how I am 
I love it 
You and myself both
Just swimming out in ya ocean, I ain’t ridin out on no boat
We was writin out all them notes, we could care less about a bad text 
Soon as I get home and I get the message, I’m pulling up just like steph
You know it, pictures gettin posted
Wit all them lil cheesey captions, we both lookin like we poets 
Only movin forward, we ain’t got time to both slow down 
Unless we slowin down for eachother, baby I like the way that sound 
Cause right now
Look
I’m just trynna make these feelins mutual
Baby you me and the love, we could have a kama sutra 
Everybody break your heart, but you know I keep that tool 
And if we ridin after dark then all them lights shinin at you 

How many times I fell for you through these past years?
How many times I cast spells on you, had you right here?
I ain’t trynna backtrack we got a whole life ahead of this step
I ain’t trynna hear what they say baby you know all of that shit cap

HOWMANYTIMES

HOWMANYTIMES *ig @deathoffeb*

kintsugi

' BANDZ ALL ON ME IMA SAG
AQUA MAN FEB IS BACK '

Basic bitch 
She can’t get my time but she could get the dick 
And that’s it 
Yeah
Put my work in, clockin all her shifts 
She a simp 
I be on her mind
She be on my tip 
You a lic 
I been outta state 
Highest in the whip 
Outer space turn and see me in the backseat sittin stiff Glancin out the glass and the whole world around me spin 
Best believe we got them art supplies 
Ridin w them BLICKS 
N we could paint a picture leave you on a screen print 

Ima hop out wit a black mask 
Let the choppa do da dance 
Bands all on me ima sag
aqua. man 
Feb is back 

Off the gram no pics and chats
Sanny pulled up with the gas 
Dasani in my system you can’t knock me off my pivot 
Ima swivelback 
What that mean 
Keep shit in rotation 
I just I just upped my taste I only fuck her if she asian 
What i’m sayin i’m raised better but I learned to talk my shit 
I can’t be out here stoopin down
I never been a stupid kid 
Left the stoop and I still haven’t turned to look back ever since 
City of angels makin sins
Heard them whispers in the wind
Committing crimes as a kid 
Why you cryin in that benz 
Miley Cyrus how she switch up 
Got me hidin from my fans 
This shit could get dark like limousine tints 
Pullin trump cards I ain’t talkin mike pence

ORIGINAL MUSIC BY DEATHOFFEB. PRODUCED BY LLOUIS UNDER FAIR USE/ CREATIVE COMMONS.

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