i hope this song feels like a lifetimes worth of bad psychadelic experiences.

(dejection) BITCH I HATE YOUR FUCKING GUTS IT
BOTHER ME SO MUCH ILL ROCK YOUR SHIT LIKE MOSHPITS
FUCKIN WIT ME ILL TAKE YOU FUCKIN HOSTAGE
TAKIN YOUR LAST BREATH OFF FUCKIN HOSPICE
IM THE TYPE TO SAY I REALLY HATE ALL PEOPLE
DONT MATTER WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE BITCH YOU FUCKIN EVIL
HATE MY FUCKING FRIENDS CAUSE LOVE IS ALL PLACEBO 
I FUCKING HATE YOUR GUTS SHIT
RIP MY HAIR OUT OF MY HEAD BITCH
RIP MY EYES OUT OF THEIR SOCKETS
IM DEJECTED IMMA SLIT BOTH MY WRISTS
I HATE EVERYBODY ON THIS PLANET
FUCK THIS ALL WITH ART IM GOING MANIC
STAY THE FUCK AWAY IM GOING TOXIC

GUT(ft.YAUX)(prod.triplesixdelete)

ill love you til the end---
ill love you til the end----
ill love you til the end---------
------& then more..
the way you make me feel i cant pretend
inside of my heart you can't comprehend, it,
everyday, feels the same, and im to blame, 
stuck in my head, laying in bed, making these songs until the day  that i lay dead.
ill love you til im dead
ill love you til im dead
ill love you til im dead
In the morgue..
ill love you til im dead
ill love you til the end
ill love you til the dead
ill love you til the end
& then more

tiltheend.mp3(prod.fonywallace)

fist fuck in the moshpit
think you hot shit?
put a hole in his noggin, he aint talkin..
bitch fucked up wanna box it, talk shit,
we can take this shit outside aint another option.

i dont fuck with anyone cause yall fuckin suck dick
i cant stoop to be that low you would fuckin jock it
talk shit talk shit bitch i wish youd fuckin talk it to me yeah
put this fuckin fist right through your teeth 
fist fuck
imma run a sickle through your fuckin head bruh
put your head up on the curb like there aint no gettin up
fucked up your face look like u hit a damn dump truck

bitch fuck it
i dont want shit 
i just wanna bite your head off no need for discussion
real punk shit
slumped bitch 
misfit dumb shit
i dont even have no friends cause i be on fuck shit
tellin yall to leave me be but you fuckin stalkin
everybody on my neck think i need to rock it
catch me outside of the function im jus fuckin mobbin
robbin bitches of they heart
plz dont make me start talking 
about my fucking art
i just want to go sleep 
and smoke up on my fucking cart
cause yall make me fucking weak
i just wanna fuckin die, i wont make it to next week
cause my brain is feelin fried 
i hope to sleep
i rest in peace

fist fuck in the moshpit
think you hot shit?
put a hole in his noggin, he aint talkin..
bitch fucked up wanna box it, talk shit,
we can take this shit outside aint another option..

FISTFUCK.MP3(PROD.TRIPLESIXDELETE)

BACK ON MY BULLSHIT AGAIN
FUCK ON YOUR GIRLFRIEND N FUCK ON HER FRIENDS
AINT GOT NO TIME FOR AMENDS
JUS WANNA GIVE EM ALL HEAD
ON MY BULLSHIT AGAIN CAUSE
I FEEL LIKE SHIT. SCREAMIN OUT NOBODY WANNA ADMIT
THAT I BEEN ON THE UP
AND YOU BITCHES IS STUCK
HATE ALL OF THIS SHIT.
FUCK AROUND N GET BIT
SCREAMING CAUSE IM FEELIN SAD NOW
I JUST BEEN BUSY MAKING DUMBASS TRACKS
WHY YOU BE MAD?
THESE BITCHES GOT PROBLEMS WIT DAT
SHE BUILT LIKE SHE A FUCKIN BRAT
FINNA BUSS IT OPEN N I GO SPLAT
NEVER WILL LET EM KNOW WHERE I BE AT
BITCH GOT CUM ON ASS
 SMOKIN OUTTA GLASS
KILL MYSELF WITH CLASS
ON YO GRAVE I  SCAT

SCREAMING CAUSE I AM INSANE NOW
BLADE ON MY WRIST CAUSE IM SLITTING MY VIEN DOWN
BITCH U DONT KNOW NUN BOUT PAIN DOWN
BAD AS FUCK
 CAUSE YOU A BITCH AND YOU LAID OUT
SMOKIN THAT FENTANYL
I FEEL MY RETINALS
ROLLIN BACK
LOVIN THIS CHEMICAL
FEEL EVANGELICAL
ITS SO UNETHICAL
BITCH ON MY DICK AND SHE SUCKIN MY SEMINAL

IM
BACK ON MY BULLSHIT AGAIN
TOLD U SAY FUCK IT N FLAKE ON YOUR FRIENDS
FUCK THE RULES WE BEND
NO RECOLLECTION WHEN IM POPPIN A XAN, LIKE
DAMN
MAKE ME FEEL LESS OF A MAN
FOR ALL THAT YOU CAN
YOU STILL AINT GONE BE SHIT MY FRIEND
DONT GIVE A FUCK IF IT IS THE END

BACK ON MY BULLSHIT AGAIN
SAID FUCK ALL THIS SHIT BITCH I DONT NEED NO FRIENDS
ID RATHER BE DEAD
I BEEN FEELIN PENNED
FILL MY BRAIN WITH LEAD
IM BOUTTA SNAP N PAINT MY FUCKING ROOM RED
LOOKIN FOR MERCY? BITCH IM ON THE EDGE
PUTTIN MY DICK IN THE BACK OF YA NECK
 WANNA FUCK YOUR HEAD N DIE IN YOUR BED



BACK ON MY BULLSHIT AGAIN
SAID FUCK ON YOUR GIRLFRIEND N FUCK ON HER FRIENDS
AINT GOT NO TIME FOR AMENDS
CUZ I JUS WANNA GIVE EM ALL HEAD

BACK ON MY BULLSHIT AGAIN
 ILL FUCK ON YOUR GIRLFRIEND N FUCK ON HER FRIENDS
AINT GOT NO TIME FOR AMENDS
JUS WANNA GIVE HEAD
ID DO THIS SHIT UNTIL IM DEAD..

BACKONMYBULLSHIT.MP3(PROD.TRIPLESIXDELETE)

I  HATE EVERYTHING UP IN THIS MOTHERFUCKING LIFE
IF I SAID I LOVED THIS SHIT IM SORRY THATS FUCKIN A LIE
I JUST DWELL ON ALL MY PROBLEMS ALWAYS MAKE ME WANNA DIE
STAY AWAY I DONT NEED FRIENDS I MAKE EM ALL SAY THEIR GOODBYES
KEEP PUSHIN MY MENTAL BITCH I GOT SO MUCH PENT UP INSIDE
YOU SAID YOU BOUT THAT FUCKIN ACTION BUT I THINK YOU FUCKIN HIGH
BITCH QUIT SPAZZIN OVERACTING MAKE ME WANNA RIP MY EYES 
OUT MY HEAD AND BLEED OUT ON THE FLOOR TO MY POINTLESS DEMISE

said im over it
over and over again
everything folds in the end
im lost and broken

FUCK
LIFE
FUCK
LIES
HATE
FUCK
MY
EYES

HANGING MYSELF FROM THE ROPE THAT YOU LEFT BURNING MY NECK MY BLOOD DRIP ON MY CHEST
DONT WANT NO MORE STRESS WANT to BE LAID TO REST NO MORE PAIN IN MY HEAD WE ALL END UP DEAD
and its day after day of the same fuckin shit 
 im a dumb pessimist 
pain from slits on my wrists
apathy in my mind i stay on sad shit
i dont care bout you bitch drink all my piss 

art by tipsy_mortician

LOST&BROKEN(PROD.TRIPLESIXDELETE)

everything hurts
MAKE ME FEEL PAIN I DESERVE IT ALL

MAKE ME FEEL PAIN, I DESERVE IT ALL. MAKE ME FEEL PAIN, i DESERVE IT ALL.
I DESERVE IT ALL.

BEEN IN PAIN ALL MY LIFE
ITS THE SAME EVERYDAY
IN THE RAIN
IN DANGER
PLAY DUMB FUCKING GAMES
ALL DAY ITS MY LIFESTYLE
MY LIFE BEEN DECLINE FOR A DAMN WHILE
EVERYBODY ACTIN SO FUCKING HOSTILE
IM BOUTTA GHOST & DELETE ALL MY FUCKING PROFILES
FUCK YOU ALL IMMA MOVE HUNDREDS OF MILES
FROM ALL THESE BAD MEMORIES THAT IVE COMPILED

hangin my life on the line, a sad time
everyone hurts on earth, its a long sigh
every day every night i hear us all cry
why does god let us hurt? why cant we just die?

WHY DOES GOD LET US HURT WHY CANT WE FEEL FINE?
EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE JUST TAKING UP TIME.
SAME SHIT DIFFERENT DAY BUT I ALWAYS FEEL TIRED.
WRONG PLACE WRONG TIME THIS SHIT OUT OF LINE.
LIKE “OH MY GOD AM I A BURDEN” OR HAVE I BEEN FINE
WHY DOES GOD CAUSE THIS HURT WHY CANT I JUST CRY
WHY DOES GOD LET US HURT WHY CANT WE JUST DIE?
FUCK

PAIN(PROD.SHABAFLABYA)

WHAT THE FUCK
WHO GIVES A  FUCK  
ABOUT ANY OF THIS SHIT
LIFES A BITCH  
THEN YOU DIE 
WE ALL EAT THE SAME SHIT
IT FUCKING SUCKS 
WORST OF LUCK
 IM BOUTTA THROW A FUCKIN FIT 
I WANNA CUT OFF MY HEAD RIP THAT SHIT  OFF MY NECK
BITCH YOU GET BIT 
IMM OFF THE SHITS
WHEN I SEE YOU YOULL BE DEAD
GAVE A FUCK ABOUT MY MEDS
 ALWAYS STUCK IN MY HEAD
ALL THIS SHIT DONT MEAN SHIT
BEEN SO TIRED DONT NEED REST
I JUST WANNA DISRESPECT
BITCH I HATE THAT I EXIST

 FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK

BITCH IM FUCKED
FUCKED
BITCH IM FUCKED
FUCKED
BITCH IM FUCKED
FUCKED
BITCH IM FUCKED
FUCKED
FUCKED
FUCKED

EVERYTHING HURTS

FUCK(PROD.TRIPLESIXDELETE)

Everysingle days the same shit
Nothing ever fucking changes
All these fuckers are so brainless
Never fear death cause it painless 

How you gone act like you fuckin with me 
Then the next day you gone say that youre not?
Heard you sayin you wanna fuck me up well i just been thinkin thats all some talk 
No, bitch i can never be stopped 
Give a fuck if you could like it or not
I cannot wait til the day that you rot
All of you same man 
i hate all my thoughts
Fuck all this shit bitch ill make bodies drop

Stop all this shit bitch i want it to stop
You a dumb bitch you bootlickin the cops
Blues lives dont matter that shit just a job
You just a dumb ass pig turned to an opp
Bitch got me screaming
Fuck 
You
All
End
Your
Lives
Die
Get the fuck back before i make u submit
All of my life bitch i been the misfit
Never gave a fuck bout any of this shit
Motherfucker stay back cause your ass can get bit
You can get bit
You can get hit
You can get slit
Aaaaaagh
Fuck it im pissed
Run away from all the sirens
Hope the worst will bring more violence
Chop the head off so it wont come back
Everybody hates you
It wont matter 
in the end 



i tell myself i never cared to ease my anxieties. i never cared of how anyone else perceives me when i realized i exist for now, and thats good enough for me.  these feelings i describe are far too real than id ever like them to be sometimes. the best way i can describe this project is the small yet painful range of emotions i have been constantly struggling with, love and hate, anger and sadness. living for the inbetween. im trying my best every day but i feel like i am still falling apart. i always feel an urge to make more. ive been continuously seeking the help i need that i had convinced myself over and over that i didnt (because i already been through it.) im trying my best and i know you can too. relapse is okay. dont struggle in silence. through all of this hell i tell myself its alright. i love you all, ill still keep trying, ill still keep doing this art until i die. 
dedicated to meeks. rip meek meek 2023. i love you forever.

FUCKYOUALL (prod.shabafablya)

based on when i was incarcerated
THEY DONE FUCKED UP
WAITIN TIL THEY LET MY CELL &
IMMA START SHIT
Im about to bring the fuckin hell
i am retarded
I just wanna pop another pill and feel my heart beat
Through my fucking chest until it pops
ill never stop
Breaking out this shit rly gone be my resurrection
On my chest and body forever it says dejection
I will fuck you up 
If you step foot in my section
I have had enough of this stupid fucking detention 
Infection

Everytime i hear you speak I want to die i cant pretend motherfucker
 be the last thing that you said
Who the fuck are you to step on all these other peoples heads
If you hadnt said that shit then maybe you wouldnt be dead



i tell myself i never cared to ease my anxieties. i never cared of how anyone else perceives me when i realized i exist for now, and thats good enough for me.  these feelings i describe are far too real than id ever like them to be sometimes. the best way i can describe this project is the small yet painful range of emotions i have been constantly struggling with, love and hate, anger and sadness. living for the inbetween. im trying my best every day but i feel like i am still falling apart. i always feel an urge to make more. ive been continuously seeking the help i need that i had convinced myself over and over that i didnt (because i already been through it.) im trying my best and i know you can too. relapse is okay. dont struggle in silence. through all of this hell i tell myself its alright. i love you all, ill still keep trying, ill still keep doing this art until i die. 
dedicated to meeks. rip meek meek 2023. i love you forever.

BREAKOUT

Im so sick and tired every night its the same shit
Dont Put needles in my veins cause id rather feel the pain bitch
When i go to sleep i see people get mutilated
Cant tell if its real or not i think ive gone insane 
its all
Up inside my head bitch
Aaaaaaah
I snitchin to no feds 
I keep seein the shit the government pull wit my own eyes
All the rich going underground the future aint lookin bright
Im just doing what i want to at this point before i expire
If it means to piss you off then bitch i hope you fucking die
RIP MY BRAIN 
RIP MY BRAIN OUT
RIP MY BRAIN
RIP MY BRAIN OUT



i tell myself i never cared to ease my anxieties. i never cared of how anyone else perceives me when i realized i exist for now, and thats good enough for me.  these feelings i describe are far too real than id ever like them to be sometimes. the best way i can describe this project is the small yet painful range of emotions i have been constantly struggling with, love and hate, anger and sadness. living for the inbetween. im trying my best every day but i feel like i am still falling apart. i always feel an urge to make more. ive been continuously seeking the help i need that i had convinced myself over and over that i didnt (because i already been through it.) im trying my best and i know you can too. relapse is okay. dont struggle in silence. through all of this hell i tell myself its alright. i love you all, ill still keep trying, ill still keep doing this art until i die. 
dedicated to meeks. rip meek meek 2023. i love you forever.

RIPMYBRAIN

Ever played the vidya game rust by facepunch? 

Lyrics: dont know what has rot my brain but i can not get past that
You talkin all that shit actin like i could never snap back
Boutta blow your house up do it all just for that gas pack
I might take yo shit and grub it all up in a hazmat
I might take yo shit im comin to kill your ass naked
I dont give a fuck if you keep thinkin that im strange bitch
All this shit in my life is why i always do the same shit

[silly] i dont give a fuck about your feelings blow your brains out


pull up to ya base and find ya stash just for the payout and im headin out
got three stacks on my back now im targeted
makes me feel like im not wanted i dont want this shit


All you motherfuckers are so god damn overrated
(You can hit my line if you tryna blow your brains out
I dont give a fuck about your family all yall bitches can get laid out
Never gave a fuck about this life cause ill just kill myself
 Get a fucking clue just listen to words out my damn mouth)

I want all your shit
I might take all of it i wont give it back
I might smash that head in with a big ass rock said fuck a bat
Blow this all to the ground i promise you that you aint comin back


Im tryna take like all the shit that you have got
Imma get ontop of your head smash your brains in with a rock

dedicated to meeks. rip meek meek 2023. i love you forever.

NOTCOMINGBACK

Dont know why i cant find out why i want to take my life
I cant help all the rage inside im feelin late at night
Deep inside of my fragile mind i know i am so blind
To all of the stupid fucking ways you been wasting my time
I dont want to see anymore imma stare in the sun
I dont want to breathe, not at all rip out both of my lungs
I could care less if imma bleed just please get this shit done
I dont want to be, all of this shit that i have become
I cant forget you
Lost more than i won
All that we been thru
All that i become
Im now the issue
Shouldve been the one
Wish id commit to
Suicide im done 



i tell myself i never cared to ease my anxieties. i never cared of how anyone else perceives me when i realized i exist for now, and thats good enough for me.  these feelings i describe are far too real than id ever like them to be sometimes. the best way i can describe this project is the small yet painful range of emotions i have been constantly struggling with, love and hate, anger and sadness. living for the inbetween. im trying my best every day but i feel like i am still falling apart. i always feel an urge to make more. ive been continuously seeking the help i need that i had convinced myself over and over that i didnt (because i already been through it.) im trying my best and i know you can too. relapse is okay. dont struggle in silence. through all of this hell i tell myself its alright. i love you all, ill still keep trying, ill still keep doing this art until i die. 
dedicated to meeks. rip meek meek 2023. i love you forever.

AllThatIBecome

Little yellow vanilla flavored pill,
Dry my mouth out & make me feel ill.
Little yellow vanilla flavored pill,
Dry my mouth out & make me feel ill. 





i tell myself i never cared to ease my anxieties. i never cared of how anyone else perceives me when i realized i exist for now, and thats good enough for me.  these feelings i describe are far too real than id ever like them to be sometimes. the best way i can describe this project is the small yet painful range of emotions i have been constantly struggling with, love and hate, anger and sadness. living for the inbetween. im trying my best every day but i feel like i am still falling apart. i always feel an urge to make more. ive been continuously seeking the help i need that i had convinced myself over and over that i didnt (because i already been through it.) im trying my best and i know you can too. relapse is okay. dont struggle in silence. through all of this hell i tell myself its alright. i love you all, ill still keep trying, ill still keep doing this art until i die. 
dedicated to meeks. rip meek meek 2023. i love you forever.

zoloft

Cant get out of bed
Youre always inside my head
Another night that ill try to forget
so upset
dont want to respond to texts
just want me more cigarettes 
im hoping for an early death
I dont want no more stress 
No one tried to make it all feel right
Our love dies and so do i inside
home
i miss my home
Home
I miss my home 




i tell myself i never cared to ease my anxieties. i never cared of how anyone else perceives me when i realized i exist for now, and thats good enough for me.  these feelings i describe are far too real than id ever like them to be sometimes. the best way i can describe this project is the small yet painful range of emotions i have been constantly struggling with, love and hate, anger and sadness. living for the inbetween. im trying my best every day but i feel like i am still falling apart. i always feel an urge to make more. ive been continuously seeking the help i need that i had convinced myself over and over that i didnt (because i already been through it.) im trying my best and i know you can too. relapse is okay. dont struggle in silence. through all of this hell i tell myself its alright. i love you all, ill still keep trying, ill still keep doing this art until i die. 
dedicated to meeks. rip meek meek 2023. i love you forever.

imissmyhome (prod.fonywallace)

I need my space
I cant find a single thing that i could change
To make all of this go away 
Want to escape
Locked inside the memories that i cant erase
It always ends up the same
Let it go
Why cant i ever just 
let it go 

I wish i could find the words to say 
to make it all feel okay
I wish that we werent in so much 
of all this fucking pain
Its unfair the way we feel inside 
everysingle damn day
If theres something that could save us 
then why then why do we have to wait



i tell myself i never cared to ease my anxieties. i never cared of how anyone else perceives me when i realized i exist for now, and thats good enough for me.  these feelings i describe are far too real than id ever like them to be sometimes. the best way i can describe this project is the small yet painful range of emotions i have been constantly struggling with, love and hate, anger and sadness. living for the inbetween. im trying my best every day but i feel like i am still falling apart. i always feel an urge to make more. ive been continuously seeking the help i need that i had convinced myself over and over that i didnt (because i already been through it.) im trying my best and i know you can too. relapse is okay. dont struggle in silence. through all of this hell i tell myself its alright. i love you all, ill still keep trying, ill still keep doing this art until i die. 
dedicated to meeks. rip meek meek 2023. i love you forever.

letgo

Im gonna black out
I cant handle this pain
Its all in my head i know its all in my brain
I don’t want to die… without a name
Ill take another pill…. just so i feel okay

I cant tell whats real.
I don’t know how to feel.
no longer can conceal.
pain inside, cant be healed

I just
Suffer in silence
Keep getting reminded
Of all the of love that you once had provided

I cant help but feel like
My hearts being peeled
My eyes hate whats revealed
Behind all that has been shield

Dont even know what it is i have to go dont want to
do it alone passed out on the bathroom floor hope i dont show how im feelin when youre around i dont wanna bring you down i guess ill get blacked out



I cant tell whats real
I don’t know how to feel
no longer can conceal
pain inside, cant be healed.(x2)

i tell myself i never cared to ease my anxieties. i never cared of how anyone else perceives me when i realized i exist for now, and thats good enough for me.  these feelings i describe are far too real than id ever like them to be sometimes. the best way i can describe this project is the small yet painful range of emotions i have been constantly struggling with, love and hate, anger and sadness. living for the inbetween. im trying my best every day but i feel like i am still falling apart. i always feel an urge to make more. ive been continuously seeking the help i need that i had convinced myself over and over that i didnt (because i already been through it.) im trying my best and i know you can too. relapse is okay. dont struggle in silence. through all of this hell i tell myself its alright. i love you all, ill still keep trying, ill still keep doing this art until i die. 
dedicated to meeks. rip meek meek 2023. i love you forever.

blackout (prod.milord)

Everything you do it comes back to you
Everyone you know everything you knew
What was really real what was really true
Have i lost myself since i you lost you?

My heart is breaking down
don’t know where my soul is supposed to go now.
My head is always racing around
I hope i don’t make a mess whenever i go out.

Im hoping that its over now
I hope that its over now

Ive got noone to call
You know I’m looking for
A warm way out the cold
Now i don’t know if i could feel  how i did before 
Whats the point if we don’t matter i don’t care anymore

Everything you do it comes back to you
Everyone you know everything you knew
What was really real what was really true
Have i lost myself since i you lost you?

Since i lost you
I really lost myself
& I don’t know what to do
Nobody to call
Nothing here is new
Ill just stay alone i miss when 1 was 2 
So I’ll Make a stupid song about how i miss you
Yeah Ill just make a stupid song bout how i miss you
Yeah i miss you
I don’t think you’ll ever know how bad i miss you


I love you

i tell myself i never cared to ease my anxieties. i never cared of how anyone else perceives me when i realized i exist for now, and thats good enough for me.  these feelings i describe are far too real than id ever like them to be sometimes. the best way i can describe this project is the small yet painful range of emotions i have been constantly struggling with, love and hate, anger and sadness. living for the inbetween. im trying my best every day but i feel like i am still falling apart. i always feel an urge to make more. ive been continuously seeking the help i need that i had convinced myself over and over that i didnt (because i already been through it.) im trying my best and i know you can too. relapse is okay. dont struggle in silence. through all of this hell i tell myself its alright. i love you all, ill still keep trying, ill still keep doing this art until i die. 
dedicated to meeks. rip meek meek 2023. i love you forever.

imissyou (prod.chibi)

Im so fucking tired of how i feel everynight
I feel like im wasting my life 
i fucking hate how i write.
Just know that i tried,
To make it all feel alright.
Justt know that i tried, 
To make it all feel alright.
Tell myself i have to let go..
I cant do this..
My hearts so low..
You cut through me..
I cant feel none now..
That im without you now
That im without you now 
(How do i forget you now?
How do i stay alone now?
Ill never let go im so down
Now that i stay alone now)

I cant pretend
Im so damn tired,
Fed up with this shit ive dealt with..
Never  feel im relevant i dont care.
Let me rest ill end it.
Let me rest ill end it.
I dont give a fuck if i am relevant.
Bitch i fucking hate this planet,
I never asked to be on this planet..
I dont need help 
but im lying
i hate myself 
Wont stop crying
Feel i want to go back in time
Please stop asking if im fine…
All of this dont mean shit 
Because one day we’ll just die…
Through all this hell, i tell myself its alright..
Through all this hell, i tell myself its alright..
Through all this hell i tell myself that im fine..
Through all this hell im still alive,
Through all this hell ill be alright…

i tell myself i never cared to ease my anxieties. i never cared of how anyone else perceives me when i realized i exist for now, and thats good enough for me.  these feelings i describe are far too real than id ever like them to be sometimes. the best way i can describe this project is the small yet painful range of emotions i have been constantly struggling with, love and hate, anger and sadness. living for the inbetween. im trying my best every day but i feel like i am still falling apart. i always feel an urge to make more. ive been continuously seeking the help i need that i had convinced myself over and over that i didnt (because i already been through it.) im trying my best and i know you can too. relapse is okay. dont struggle in silence. through all of this hell i tell myself its alright. i love you all, ill still keep trying, ill still keep doing this art until i die. 
dedicated to meeks. rip meek meek 2023. i love you forever.

alright

BITCH IM RUNNIN ROUND TOWN WIT SCISSORS IN MY HANDS
IM JUS TRYNA TAKE A PISS I BEEN SMOKIN TOO MUCH CRACK
HEALTH PIPE MY ASS YEA MY LUNGS TURNIN BLACK 
TRENCH COAT FULLA CLIPS NOW THERES NO TURNIN BACK
This shit cant be good for me but im feelin great
Smokin out the ounce take that shit to my face
If you thought that you was goin home lil bitch it aint today
Youll b layin on the ground while im diggin up a grave
WALKIN TO THE MALL SHOVEL IN MY HAND ANYBODY WANNA FUCK WIT ME IM CHOPPIN OFF YA HEAD GOT MY DAWG HES A CHAMP HE GON RIP OFF BOTH YA LEGZ
Muhfucka think he big BUT HE GARY COLEMAN
BITCH IM OFF THE SHITS SMOKIN TOO MUCH HEARIN VOICES  I CANT GET A GRIP
FUCKIN ASK ME BOUT MY MONEY BC ITS ALREADY SPENT
BITCH YOU CANNOT GET YOUR MAIL CAUSE I JUST KILLED THE POST MAN
NOW IM AIRIN OUT THE PIGGIE STATION 
STOLE ONE OF THEIR UNIFORMS 
NOW ALL THEIR WEAPONS I AM TAKIN
HEART IS BEATIN THRU MY CHEST
I FEEL LIKE EVIL HAS AWAKENED
GOT SOME TRAUMA I CANT SHAKE BUT
LIFES A GAME MIGHTASWELL PLAY IT
NOW IM DRESSED IN ALL BLACK
LEATHER SPIKES LIKE A GIMP
NO IM NOT CRAZY
 bitch ITS JUST YOU THAT HAS BEEN
Its The drugs i abuse why i walk with this limp
IM TRYNA SMOKE UP BITCH WHO GOT THE CATNIP
& I GUNNED THE PARADE DOWN CAUSE I FELT LIKE IT I RIPPED UP ALL THE JUNKYARD DOGS INTO BITS I CANNOT STOP THIS SHIT I KNOW IM A DICK, DONT GIVE A FUCK LOOKING FOR MY NEXT HIT

BITCH IM JUST RUNNIN ROUND TOWN WIT THESE SCISSORS IN MY HANDS
IM JUS TRYNA TAKE A PISS CAUSE I BEEN SMOKIN TOO MUCH CRACK
HEALTH PIPE MY ASS YEA MY LUNGS TURNIN BLACK 
TRENCH COAT FULLA CLIPS NOW THERES NO TURNIN BACK
WALKIN TO THE MALL SHOVEL IN MY HAND ANYBODY WANNA FUCK WIT ME IM CHOPPIN OFF YA HEAD GOT MY DAWG HES A CHAMP HE GON RIP OFF BOTH YA LEGZ
Muhfucka think he big BUT HE GARY COLEMAN







.
LOTS MORE UNRELEASED BEEN HAD THIS RECORDED FOR MONTHS NOW SRY FOR THE SLACK IM BUSY AS FUCK THANKS SILLY FOR THE BEAT

POSTAL2

TURNTHAGASUP Ft.Hank Trill (prod. Fony Wallace)

GETFUCTUPQUICK ft. THE TRAUMSTER (prod. Fony Wallace + Oh.bats)

Calling your voice mail,
Crying wishing that you were down for me, but i know that we can never be. Will you care when im really gone? Or would you move on like the rest love, I swear im not cut out for love so sing this song to keep me strong, rip my bong bout 6 times a day tryna ween off, saving money shit is tight you cant go wrong, just stop playing with my head and my heart girl, we were toxic from the start

anxiety.mp3

voicemail.mp3(prod.røze)

i miss the days when youd hold my head tight to your chest 
i swear i could listen to your heartbeat for hours and hours baby i
miss the days you made me forget about the stress
i care too much, noone can compete, i feel so empty why did you leave me to bleed i should have known fuck my life anyway i
miss the pain in a way i guess i loved you, not  too sure if i can love, since ive never been loved too. been in pain, at a dejected place, my life is slow and boring i used to play the bass and now i feel so lame i feel im falling off, no chance of the pearly gates when i blow my brain, im gonna close my case, decided my own fate, dont look me in my face while you taking off your lace, dont feel nothing anymore, i dont adore the human race, feel im an alien sent from outer space,

imissthosedays.mp3(prod.lederrick)

u know who u are. i almost split my knuckles open, hyperventilated, threw up n near bursted a blood vessel from screaming. its 1:30 and im still dwelling on the fact you literally went out and did my worst nightmare. no amount of punches, screams or pain will ever do justice to how badly you cut me. you twisted the knife in fr. i loved you.
my biggest mistake, was giving you my trust,
my biggest mistake, to believe it love not lust,
my biggest mistake, believing you were the one, serving this as part of the cause but im withdrawlin from love i cant be saved hon. she laughed in my face and said it straight up, i slept with someone else, bitch u aint tha one,
yeah,
punching anyrhing in sight til my knuckles turn a bright red, i wish i was dead my tears and snot blend hyperventilating again, manipulation my friend. wish i could taste you again. but its not the same, and youre to blame, you spread your legs and caused this mess, my hearts fucked im more than depressed, huffin the duster to end all this stress,
screamed both my lungs out, neighboors steady lookin out, dad and brother restraining me to not get out, scream and thrash broke my ring finger knuckle, rollercoaster strapped in been buckled in since i agreed to be hers and only hers
if you werent ready for forever why promise it,
id have held you through the harsh weather & be honored bitch
if you werent ready for forever whyu promise it
id have kept you save when you be causin problems

cheater.mp3(prod.greaf)

you caused this
lol
you werent the one for me , no oh
i shouldhave seen it sooner dont wanna leave you alone, no 
i just didnt wanna believe it no,
youre too pure and sweet to even fuckin know
what you did im wishin death upon myself
i dont get that much out of help, the thrapy so i can get prescriptions refilled, wishin someone would kill, me to relieve this pain and stress i endure daily it aint worth it anymore
it aint worth it anymore
you werent the one for me oh no, 
i should have seen it in your eyes, they never truly glowed
you werent the one for me i know, you dug yourself your grave now lie in it you fuckin useless ho.
it tears me apart to treat you like someone i dont know, youve shattered my reality & i cant see anymore, i cant see anymore
you werent the one for me and i know, should have pulled the plug sooner and let you go, if you truly love something they say let it go, shell never come back clean in my eyes no more.

uwerenttheoneforme.mp3(prod.caviar)

you dont know, 
you dont know what i been going through, 
just keep it to myself and let the terror ensue
it too boring to constantly tell my story on  loop, stuck in a spectator perspective i got nothing i can do, probably make my debut in news from inhalant abuse, just trying to pursue my dreams cause im used to, being met with tragedy for whatever i do, i cant take this any longer but i do it for you, youre my universe i couldnt live without you


way too often taking suboxone, helping curb addiction, withdrawlin feelin itchin, way too often im left with no option but to use again, you know me, theres no stoppin
until i lay underground and rest in peace,
tired of surviving getting hard to breathe, i just want to be able to function like a normal human being, but thats too much to ask for


baby my life has never been so colder, from malnourishment to being sober,

total ego death

udontknowwhatigothrough.mp3(prod.Azrael)

stuck in this loop,
i dont know what to do
the feeling inside my heart, rip it into 2
i feel im in a coop, trapped without no room, and i just want to move, desperation ensues, get anxiety and turn blue, in the face, from the pain, no one cares, this disdain..

switchin up like the lanes, layed on th.      e road yellow tape, in my head i feel a haze, acid makes life feel okay, enlightened to another plane of life were more than human being, but souls with  deeper meanings, im pleading to fucking scream but all my lungs give is gasps i give out & rest in peace and leave, my body, a shell of what i once used to be, a life ill never repeat, finally becoming free, i am one with everything, i was god, its way deeper than you think; were all interconnected fallen into a deeper sleep, dont wake up were dreaming, existence will cease to be, let me stay awake sedate myself & smoke this weed , a hopeless fiend , no coping see

thoughtloop.mp3(prod.kejzi)

fentanyl

insatiable.mp3 (Prod. Yapuzi)

YOU A FUCKIN BASTARD IF YOU TRYNA COME AND PASS US
HITTIN BEAMY FOR THE FEATURE SHIT BE HITTIN SAVAGE SPIDER GANG COME WITH THE BAD SHIT
AND I BE SMOKIN TOO LAVISH
EVERY-SINGLE-DAY-EVERY-SINGLE-SECOND BITCH IM FUCKIN GASSED UP!
THREW THE CAN AWAY ALMOST GAVE MYSELF BRAIN DAMAGE,
HITTIN LICKS ON THE SIDE WHILE IM FUCKIN UP INSIDE A BAD BITCH,
IM GONNA COME WITH THE SAVAGE TOE TAGS WHENEVER IM RAPPIN
BITCH IM FUCKING PISSED OFF,
BOUTTA SIGN OFF THIS SHIT ILL BUST YOUR LIP DAWG
IM FUCKING PISSED OFF!
CALLED INTO WORK TODAY
TOO FUCKIN SICK
BITCH I NEED TO FUCKING SIT BITCH I FEEL LIKE SHIT..

PISSEDOFF!(FEAT.BRUHMANEGOD(PROD.BRUHMANEGOD)

fuck shit 2020

FUCK YOU I WONT LET YOU BEAT ME
BEAT A BLUE SHIRT DOWN TIL IT DARK BLEED
IMMA THRASH AND KICK AND BITE YOUR SHIT OFF FUCKIN CLEAN
WANNA FIGHT BITCH IMMA LIGHT YOU UP LIKE SOME GASOLINE
BITCHES TAKE ME FOR A SWEETHEART BUT IM FUCKIN MEAN
SHOULD HAVE STAYED AT HOME
 IM BOUTTA CAUSE A FUCKIN SCENE
STUPID BITCHES WANNA SUCK MY DICK LIKE NICOTINE
PUNCH BACK
EVERYBODY MOVING SO IM BOUTTA ATTACK
FUCK THAT
STOMPING YOU DOWN IN THE PIT BITCH YOU BETTER FUCKING PUNCH BACK
WISH A MOTHERFUCKERD TRY TO TEST ME
IMMA SWING UNTIL I BLACKOUT I CANT SEE

PUNCHBACK! FT. YAUX (prod.triplesixdelete)

YOU A BITCH
IM A MOTHERFUCKING PARASITE,
BLOOD-SUCK A BITCH
GET TOO CLOSE AND IMMA FUCKIN BITE, 
EVERY SINGLE DAY I HAVE TO DEAL WITH ALL THIS FUCKIN SMITE
I DONT WANNA FUCKING LIVE IF I KNOW THAT IM GONNA DIE.
I DONT WANNA FUCKING LIVE IF I KNOW THAT IM GONNA DIE.
I DONT WANNA FUCKING LIVE IF I KNOW THAT IM GONNA DIE.
I DONT WANNA FUCKING LIVE IF I KNOW THAT IM GONNA DIE.
I DONT WANNA FUCKING LIVE IF I KNOW THAT IM GONNA DIE.
I DONT WANNA FUCKING LIVE IF I KNOW THAT IM GONNA DIE.
I DONT WANNA FUCKING LIVE IF I KNOW THAT IM GONNA DIE.
I DONT WANNA FUCKING LIVE IF I KNOW THAT IM GONNA DIE.
I DONT WANNA FUCKING LIVE IF I KNOW IMMA FUCKIN DIE.

DEATH ft.YAUX(prod.TRIPLESIXDELETE)

you never cared.
1 day ill just be gone forever. 
this is only to cope through art.
mental health matters.
im always going through something.
i love you all.
i dont wanna die as much as i want to be happy again.
i write all my lyrics and edit my songs, beats are made by various producers tagged in each track. hope you enjoy and can find something to relate to or be entertained by.
my mental state is decaying.
 [dejection i.n.c]
no ones gonna read this anyways haha

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