Prod. @estepaxbeats

I find it hard to believe that tracks with a description get any more plays than the one's that don't. Maybe if Rihanna was like 'hey Soundcloud it's me, RiRi, THERE ARE 18 SYMBOLS HIDDEN IN THE DOLLAR BILL THAT  WILL REVEAL THE TRUTH TO MY ASCENSION, QUICK THERE'S NO TIME, TRIANGLESSS, TRIIIIIIIANGLES!!!'

Then MAYBE... but – admittedly – RIhanna does have more pep in her step than I do. I do think I have some pep though. Otherwise I wouldn't be here.

Anyway, I'm deluded, I chose the name because I get the impression people think pursuing music in any remotely serious way is delusional. It's  basic batman shit really, calling yourself the thing that you worse fear in order to somehow, not fight it, but embody it. Hey I'm a rapper, not actually Batman. Batman is so goofy. When the dark knight came out, it was really a revelation and then I watched it as a 37 year old rapper with my new girlfriend and the minute the batmobile burst through the car park with all those fake batman guys, I was like 'ohhh this is bad'. In truth it was my girlfriend who was like 'oh I don't think I'm going to like this...' Anyway, we turned it off after 45 mins and then as soon as she left to go back to her house, I watched the whole thing and I was like 'yeeeeah this sick'. Don't get me wrong, I think my girlfriend was correct – the movie is bad.

Anyway, enjoy the song, it took me much longer than any other one I have created thus far. I  wrote and recorded the first verse very quickly, but I also happened to think it was one of my best yet, so I  sort of struggled through writing the rest if it for 7 months. It's just rap bars about how good I am at rapping.

Yeah I'm so sick of spitting this slick shit
Magnificent indifference, I'm kidding because I couldn't be smitten with
This over-complicated lyricism's a prism
I look at the rainbows and fuck up the same flows
Go for broke, why do the questions know 
The answers before they're even getting spoke
I wanna let them choke and float away
In the river, I'd let em soak all day

Yeah I wanna go back to the bluebell field 
to when I felt so real, I'd melt and keel
Over, I know I'm a loner and the moment's past
With a sober crash, until noxious gas
Pours out the cracks in my skin
I begin to spin around now, I'm falling faster down OW!
Is the bottom of all that's possible?
Or is it just the cost when I  turn into fossil fuel?

Yeah I'm so sick of spitting in general
I'm wishing that I wasn't
But wishing's for when when you can afford to pretend to
get absorbed and attempt to start sorting through penned truths
There ain't a letter that I sent through
That's not me, or I. or who what where
Have you got the pear shaped plan that goes nowhere?
I show no care to your gullible stare, I'm full of myself like I'm a chocolate eclair

Yeah on top of the air
I'm not stoppin' for their
Full frontal lobotomy 
They gotta be scared
But it's not for me to say that I can see
Some conceited state that they can't leave
I keep infrequent friends, I sense the best of them
Is in a tense that's past and when
I send myself down the path of memory lane
I catch myself sitting alone with no-one to complain to

Fossil Fuel (prod. Estepax)

heyyy

I make EVERY kind of music. The albums I've posted are:

Deluded:
Mixtape with all kinds of songwriting, rap, lofi. Recorded over the course of – maybe – four years. Jumping all over the shop.

Worldy:
Acoustic singer songwriter type tunes. I made this over the course of a year, my plan was to write and record a song a day – so I should have had 365 songs, but I ended up with 17. Yep. They are all recorded in one take, with some subtle overdubs.

Constant Nonsense:
Mixtape of really old stuff, some of my earliest efforts that – I think – still hold up. It's mostly indie, lofi, some beats and synthy experiments.

Little Raps:
I made the beats and I rapped the raps too. 

UFOs:
Some songs that I made over the course of a week, more indie, some experimentals and beats.