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Runaway

Hood.Mantra.

Hood.Mantra. (feat. Chris Chrome)

Wrote this song 3 years ago after a series of unfortunate events including a bad break up led to me ending up in the hospital. This song is about battling suicidal ideation and self deprecation 

Lyrics:

I’m falling out of love with myself 
I fucked up 
Nothing can fix the mistakes that I’ve done 
I’m tired of living 
All I do is feel like shit 
I wish this awful life 
I could just quit 
But I can’t 
Because that would be giving up
I gotta prove to myself that I am enough 
But it’s exhausting 
Cause everyone wants me but nobody wants all the problems that haunt me 

I’m tired 
Of having to explain myself 
What’s the point in trying 
When no one wants to help 
It’s not my fucking fault that I got bad mental health 
I do try my best 
But I don’t feel like myself 

I wish someone would see me for me
And not for the demon that haunts my every dream
I just lay in bed, I don’t even sleep
Cause with my eyes closed I’m still not at peace 


Everywhere I go I feel like I’m 
Falling out of love 
Falling out of love 

Everyone I see I feel like I’m 
Falling out of love 
Falling out of love 

Everywhere  I turn I feel like I’m
Falling out of love 
Falling out of love 

Even in the mirror I feel like I’m 
Falling out of love
Falling out of love 

I’m falling out of love with this world 
There’s no use
The best kinds of people get lives filled w abuse 
It isn’t fair
But there’s nothing I can do
I might as well buy the rope n tie off the noose 
I’m sorry that I wasn’t enough for you
No matter what I did, It always fell through 
You said you’d stay forever but that wasn’t true 
Now I’m screaming you name but there’s nothing you can do

blue

ISOLATION - Obzidion

I wrote this song back in August when I started to cut out a lot of people in my life. I realized that most of them were just using me and didn’t have my best interest. This song is my first drop after taking a year long hiatus from music. I hope yall enjoy 💜

Verse-
Solitude is my best friend 
I rather deal with loneliness 
Than deal with any of these imposters 
Too many syndromes and disorders 
Sorry my empathy is out of order 
For the moment 
I’m depleted 
out of patience 
Fuck your feelings 
(Fuck ur feelings) 

Don’t try to guilt me I ain’t guilty 
Ive been down this road already 
need a bottle of pills and a big ol bottle of henny 
Just to ease the anxiety 
Help me cope w society 
They say im out of my mind
I say these evils are eyeing me

Pre chorus- 

Spend my time alone
X2

Chorus- 
I spend all my time alone 
Dnd mode on my phone
I been Dodging all these calls
Just so I have some control 
Yk, I don’t trust a soul
Trust me I’m good all on my own 
200 hundred unread texts 
No exaggeration tho 
X2

Verse-
People took advantage 
Turned me savage 
I’ve been stranded 
Need a bandage for the damage 
Of always being abandoned 
By the ones I love most 
All my friends became ghosts 
The good ones die young 
So to them let’s have a toast 

Anybody I’ve let close has always hurt me
And I know that doesn’t mean that how it’s always gonna be 
But I need to keep my peace 
keep ppl distanced 6 feet
So give me a little space 
Cause I need to fucking breathe 

Pre chorus- 

Spend my time alone 
X2

Chorus- 
I spend all my time alone 
Dnd mode on my phone
I been Dodging all these calls
Just so I have some control 
Yk, I don’t trust a soul
Trust me I’m good all on my own 
200 hundred unread texts 
No exaggeration tho 
X2

ISOLATION

Lyrics -

Sick of my love being taken advantage of
Guess I’m Addicted to the heartache 
can’t get enough 
Im the one who falls deep 
I’m the one who falls first 
Im the one who always seems to be the one that gets hurt 
I know im the problem 
Full of self sabotage 
I know what ur gonna say 
I’m the one who’s in the wrong 
I’m the one who fucked it up 
Yet somehow 
I’m the only one who seems to be the one to give a fuck 

Only one who gave a fuck 

I wish you would have left me alone The night we met 
But it’s too late now can’t get you out my head 


Can’t get you out my head 


I don’t know why I question why I feel so goddamn lonely all the time, when I’ve ran away from everybody who has ever wanted me to stay

POISON

Indigo (Prod. Toucon)

Mood Swings :/ (Prod. Kuboi)

anotherheartbrokenlovesong

Hit Em With The Nuke

Making music that speaks to the soul. If you’re someone looking to connect thru music, my lyrical content comes from pain and experience. I seek to bring people a sense of understanding. You’re not alone, despite how crazy or catastrophic your life may seem. I enjoy experimenting and genre blending. Making music that is authentic to me and what I want to create 💜
IG @obzidixn

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