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I’m alone with my thoughts
Don’t know if I should give up or go on
Again, this fear that I won’t
Stand up against myself to hold on.

Fuck this depression!
Get me out
This recurring pattern
No escape
My mind is a prison.
Locked in a mental cage
In a regression
I’m gonna break
Hatefully mental
Turns to rage
Full of aggression
The darkness that is in me, voices that never leave.

Won’t let them see, this pain this agony
Always feeling down, hiding it behind a smile
Master of disguise, never a tear in my eyes
It never sleeps, internal beast unleashed

Sometimes I stand there with a blade,
Force myself to not cut my veins
Like demons take control of my brain
If I lose this battle I hope it won’t be in vain

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Dutch Metal band DemembratioN, consists of former members of Ominous (RIP), Currish (RIP) and Turbulence (RIP).
After more than 2 decades of playing music, several band member changes and musical directions Drummer Eric, Guitarist Wouter and Vocal / Guitarist Ruud rejoined with Turbulence bassist Danny.
With a focus on a more mature sound with every band member participating in the creative process of writing music and lyrics.
All recording, Mixing and Mastering by Ruud

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DemembratioN (NL)