is my shit tough?
do u like me?
do u hate me?
do u think im tough?

id do anything for u
id do anything for u
id love to learn more about u

when we part our ways
do u miss me?
do u think of me?
do u think its just a phase?

is it bad i think its probably gonna end too soon?
if u go 
im not gonna be okay

girl i love u 
boy i love u
i just wanna feel loved
one more time

one more time
one more time
i just wanna feel loved
one more time

like me (prod. xtasane)

i dont think ill make it
your loves like sandpaper
its tearing me apart
i cant- i cant- i cant fake it

ive tried too hard
dont know if youll ever love me
im sorry for trying
i already know u hate me

hate me
i already know u hate-
hate me
hate- hate- hate me

all the things i used to say
they dont matter anymore
i just- i just- i just hope
ill be forgiven

i dont think ill make it
your loves like sandpaper
its tearing me apart
i cant- i cant- i cant fake it

ive tried too hard
dont know if u will ever love me
im sorry for trying
i already know u hate me

hate me (prod. runawway + ‪kirani)

@xtasane + @rxnawway

"til death do us part"
take a look at me now
do u think that id try?
i cant- i cant wait to die

even when im by ur side
everything feels so gray
i cant go a day without thinking of suicide

maybe im not the one for u
since most of the time i dont know what to do

i feel so alone in my battles
but at least i still try?
if ur still there
please show me the light

"til death do us part"
take a look at me now
do u think that id try?
i- i- i cant wait to die

even when im by ur side
everything feels so gray
i cant go a day without thinking of suicide

maybe im not the one for u
since most of the time i dont know what to do

i feel so alone in my battles
but at least i still try?
if ur still there
please show me the light

(pls dont forget that i luv all of u <3)



"til death do us part" (prod. xtasane + runawway)

@xtasane

ive been going thru life
like im going thru mud
i love my knives
love when i shed blood

i dont feel love
cant feel anything
u hate it when i say
i wont amount to anything

hate me
love me
hate me
love me

hate me
love me
hate me
love me

mud (prod. xtasane)

@xtasane

always looked for love, and it always made me sad
i shouldve known, i would never have that
havent died yet, i know it makes u mad
dont worry, ill be something u can laugh at

cut myself too bad, now im hurt
i got blood all over my white tshirt
im glad i dont go outside
i hope this leads to suicide

always looked for love, and it always made me sad
i shouldve known, i would never have that
havent died yet, i know it makes u mad
dont worry, ill be something u can laugh at

hurt (prod. xtasane)

shoutout asarii !

remember when i fell down?
i thought u was the 1!
evry night i break down
yea, wishin i was gone

ik its pathetic
but im always stressin
cuz i thought u was my blessin
ur words were so oppressive

even tho u meant love
that is not what i felt!
what do u go thru 
when i say ill kill myself?

i dont want to make u sad
i dont want u to hurt
i dont want u to cry
i js wish ud let me die!

remember when i fell down?
i thought u was the 1!
evry night i break down
yea, wishin i was gone

ik its pathetic
but im always stressin
cuz i thought u was my blessin
ur words were so oppressive

pathetic (prod. asarii)

@tmelks

i can still hear ur voice
even tho u left me
if i had another choice
i wouldnt be like this

i end up cryin evry day
cuz i miss u
wish u had stayed
i hate not seeing u

hate not seeing uuu
i rlly fckin miss u
im so fckin stupid
wish i could redo

hate not seeing uuu
i rlly fckin miss u
im so fckin stupid
wish i could redo

i dont have u by my side
u dont know how much ive tried
u js think abt urself
i dont wanna be alive

the things i do, they make no sense
how am i this fckin dense?
want a bullet thru my head
just wishing i was fckin dead

hate not seeing uuu
i rlly fckin miss u
im so fckin stupid
wish i could redo

hate not seeing uuu
i rlly fckin miss u
im so fckin stupid
wish i could redo

dense (prod. tmelks)

@xtasane @may3ke

hate myslf all day , my needs , i neglect
i dont think its just a phase , what do u expect?
ive been tryin to change , but i cant seem to
im srry im so strange , i upset u

i hate myself , i hope its clear
ill kill myself , i have no fear
will u stay here ? will u go with me ?
my relief , so near ,, ill finally break free
(2x)

ive been thinking about it for so long...
i can see myself doing it while i sing this song
maybe then ill have someone to care about me
but now its too late ,, u wont need me :')

hate myslf all day , my needs , i neglect
i dont think its just a phase , what do u expect?
ive been tryin to change , but i cant seem to
im srry im so strange , i upset u

i hate myself , i hope its clear
ill kill myself , i have no fear
will u stay here ? will u go with me ?
my relief , so near ,, ill finally break free

break free (prod. xtasane + may3ke)

w/ @s0lemn
prod @1ppeace
art @demize_pluhh

maybe its all in my head , maybe u dont hate me
its so hard to piece together all those things u said to me
i cant b by ur side cuz i js know id set u back
i can feel ur terrified , all my shit is fckin wack

set u back ,, i dont wanna do dat
im having flashbacks , i cant accept that
please forgive me , i dont want u to cry
u know how much i hate saying goodbye ,,

s0lemn:
n I js Got high , ,
ion Wna tell U how i Feel inside .; .
but im sry I Tried [{
I can Stay the Same if u think Datz Fine .. .
come back2Me I dont Wna sit & Doubt ..;
Its Bad4me I cryY wen Ur not around / /
Pourin Up sum Drank ,, Ion wna Think . .
I should stay Away .. We Are Not tha same [[\

i Was feelin Uu but uU aint Wna say nun ..
I luv Drug abuse . . I js wna Feel numb [ '"
Heard Ur voice n I want it2stop .  ,, ,
Suuicide yaa I think dat Alot ./ ;

set u back w/ s0lemn (prod. ppeace)

prod @xtasane + @1axryy
art @demize_pluhh

i like feeling the cold metal of my blade
i watch the color of my blood slowly fade away
it reminds me of how ill never find anyone
cuz by then ill already be gone

what do u know about me ? that im depressed ?
that i hate myself ? that i cant make songs ?
goddd , im such a fckin mess
want to grab a knife and stab it in my chest

before i go , should i write anythin
wtf am i sayin ?,,. no one rlly gives a fuck
its just hard to accept ,, that ill always be like this
until the day i die </3

blade (prod. xtasane + axry)

prod @kuroimetsuyu
art @demize_pluhh

u dont care that i feel so suicidal
call for help , its a never ending cycle
got ppl but my side but i still feel alone
got ppl i care about , they r on my phone

srry u dont wanna talk , ig its all my fault
u dont want me near u , ig i crossed that line
omg i make no sense , how didnt i realize?
got money on my hands , thought id be satisfied

call for help (prod. kuroime)

can u hear me ?
can u pick up the phone ?
when i dont show up
do u wonder if im gone ?

i wish we could go out
but im shackled to my thoughts
pls dont leave me on read
do u wanna hear my songs ?

do u wanna change ?
do u wanna be free ?
if ur listenin to this
dnt b like me

im not cool or quirky
evrybdy hates me
do somethin else
cuz i promise dis aint worth it

dnt b like me (prod. 16kibo + leslii)

prod @tonerie7

ive grown so apathetic
would love it if i died
selfhatred is all im feelin
yea im on it all the time

yea wish i could be different
all i think of is suicide
got things i want to do
but i dont get to decide

yea i better get goin
cuz i dont know where i am
i regret so many things
wish i was a better friend

dont want to leave u alone
but im tired of this shit
if nothin seems to work
shouldnt i just quit ?

apathetic (prod. tonerie)

prod @audionokia @kibononono

when u look at me
my face turns red
idk where im at
am i better off dead?

idk why im sad
always on the verge of tears
always end up feeling bad
i hate my fears

im afraid u dont care
im afraid its gonna hurt
can u at least make it stop ?
make me feel numb ?

u make me feel dumb
why wont u leave me alone?
i feel so done
its all ive ever known

////////////////////////////////////////////

i changed my mind
forget what i said
u always fall behind
u forget bout what i pled

u dont care abt whats left
u just care abt urself
u make me feel sick
i feel out of breath

and now , ur gonna run away 
but i know we'll find each other another day
until then , ill hate u , will u hate me?
idc anymore

i changed my mind
forget what i said
u always fall behind
u forget bout what i pled

u dont care abt whats left
u just care abt urself
u make me feel sick
i feel out of breath

better off dead (prod. nokia + 16kibo)

4 fun! send me a dm/open if u wanna collab! 🤍 

she/her

demize

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