2025-11-17-203311939_19112025.m4a

X0STARMADE

curated by pspp

features:
33 "GOD" by Bon Iver
Lights On by Tyler, The Creator ft. Ryan Beatty & Santigold
C U Girl by Steve Lacy
I Knew That by Snoop Dogg
Hope by Blood Orange ft. Puff Daddy & Tei Shi
Lyla by Big Red Machine
Different But the Same by Ben Kweller

additional audio from the christmas 2007 tape

MAMA, I'M COLD DJ SET

original demo I sent to @yukithedogman for verse ideas etc.

lyrics:

cause you’ve been on my mind for a minute now

crying in the shower got me feeling down 

i used to catch the bus now I run the town 

but it aint been the same 

and i’m the one to blame

i used to catch the fucking 955 to your house on a Sunday

with the sun out 

and i’d lie lie lie to your face 

about where i been 

where my head 

cause i’m losing it

like i’m losing you

but i gotta calm down 

do i have to kill this shit to make you fucking proud

and we’ll ride til we die on this suicide tide

on the carpet in my car or my stained glass eye

and i’m driving really fast i don’t really know why 

imma shut my fucking my fucking cause i’m boutta tell a lie

oh my god *solo* (2018)

this shit so rough idk what to do with it 

made it months ago, made my head hurt

don't feel like this anymore and haven't touched it since lol

feels like such a dear diary

lyrics:

just take your shoes off 

cause you’re running through my mind

and i can’t help myself 

i think of you all the time 

and am i wasting my life 

chasing a girl 

who i’ll lose in time 

says she loves me now

hope she’s love me then

i ain’t felt this way 

since 2010 

barely remember back then 

used to see my dad and my mum back then

used to cry over shit i didn’t have back then 

like a group of fucking friends 

but i have you now 

and why would i wanna lose that

the reason i get out of bed 

when i hate everything except you 

yeah you light up my mood 

but just take off your shoes for me 

*undefinable screeching*

dear diary 018: nobody ever talks about twenty ten.

old demo from september 2018

(october 30, 3034
tomorrow is my 1035th birthday
talk about a midlife crisis, huh?
i don’t know how i ended up here
but my name is harry teardrop
and i come from planet earth)

last i can remember, it’s a new york city september
another sleepless night, rolling on my side
tossing and turning, itch the skin that’s burning
in the morning i’ll rise and shower
in the mirror, i’ll see the power
of my stupid fucking fingernails drawing blood from my neck again
another reminder of this fleeting life...
i need to take better care of the days i wear!
wouldn’t want to worry mom and dad more than they probably already are
in the corner of my restless eyes i see the stars
and at least find comfort that they’re looking at the same ones
i miss them more than you could ever know
i miss the way plants used to grow,
basking in that summer sun
i miss its golden light when the time is right
6pm i’ll walk with you back to the dorms in winterstorms
i guess home is where the heart is but perhaps the saddest part is
i can’t quite seem to place where either are anymore
i come from inside out shirts and sunflower seeds
mismatched socks and soccer knees
i come from lucy’s at 3am stumbling home with my friends
i can’t help but wonder if i’m already long forgotten in their young, impressionable minds
you’d think i’d be much smarter given the circumstance
but i’m still awful at piano, haven’t learned to dance either
it’s hard to dance with yourself but i’ve gotten pretty good at playing with time
contemplating this funny life of mine.
starbound, i was always striving to be starbound
now i try to bite my tongue, but i can’t take back my words
i guess this is a lesson from the universe
next time i’ll be more careful what i wish for i promise
i miss spring afternoons in between classes,
open-windowed swaying to days by the drums
with the love of my life as far as i knew
didn’t mean to make you blue
still haven’t given up on coming home
counting down the nights in this astrodome.

i can’t make you wait for me
so don’t stop for me
this time i mean it
i know i can’t make you wait for me
life won’t stop for me
think i can feel it
feel it in my bones
i feel it crawling through my veins

A Lesson From The Universe

this is a reference for when I play it live :)

the most bullshit cover of teenage dirtbag

don’t look back
wasting nights over half of a drag 
in my hometown 
is this where i belong now
all these other kids with nothing to do 
so much to say with nothing to lose
kinda like that 
the best part of the weeks such a nightmare 
hope everything burns downs
pray that i can pick my cards 
hope this shitty town is ours

i felt like making shoegaze today so here's 50 seconds of shoegaze

love to Adele 

prod saw and dub

paf rec center 

iwtfrm

Ramen Rain

Between The Lines- OUT NOW ON SPOTIFY!

@stupidrichkid

demo burner account
unfinished or throwaway ideas

soundshifter on the master sometimes
or i ran out of storage on main sc lol hi

dear diary 018: nobody ever talks about twenty ten.

uhh ok