Scars

ryley, would you let me take you for a spin? i could show you the world or i could just make you a new one.

POST $2 BILL EDIT: real ones know about this one

RYLEY (demo)

original demo I sent to @yukithedogman for verse ideas etc.

lyrics:

cause you’ve been on my mind for a minute now

crying in the shower got me feeling down 

i used to catch the bus now I run the town 

but it aint been the same 

and i’m the one to blame

i used to catch the fucking 955 to your house on a Sunday

with the sun out 

and i’d lie lie lie to your face 

about where i been 

where my head 

cause i’m losing it

like i’m losing you

but i gotta calm down 

do i have to kill this shit to make you fucking proud

and we’ll ride til we die on this suicide tide

on the carpet in my car or my stained glass eye

and i’m driving really fast i don’t really know why 

imma shut my fucking my fucking cause i’m boutta tell a lie

oh my god *solo* (2018)

this is jimi somewhere's unreleased track juicy fruit that he refused to upload... this is uploaded by 'da farm'

JUICY FRUIT by jimi somewhere

old demo from september 2018

(october 30, 3034
tomorrow is my 1035th birthday
talk about a midlife crisis, huh?
i don’t know how i ended up here
but my name is harry teardrop
and i come from planet earth)

last i can remember, it’s a new york city september
another sleepless night, rolling on my side
tossing and turning, itch the skin that’s burning
in the morning i’ll rise and shower
in the mirror, i’ll see the power
of my stupid fucking fingernails drawing blood from my neck again
another reminder of this fleeting life...
i need to take better care of the days i wear!
wouldn’t want to worry mom and dad more than they probably already are
in the corner of my restless eyes i see the stars
and at least find comfort that they’re looking at the same ones
i miss them more than you could ever know
i miss the way plants used to grow,
basking in that summer sun
i miss its golden light when the time is right
6pm i’ll walk with you back to the dorms in winterstorms
i guess home is where the heart is but perhaps the saddest part is
i can’t quite seem to place where either are anymore
i come from inside out shirts and sunflower seeds
mismatched socks and soccer knees
i come from lucy’s at 3am stumbling home with my friends
i can’t help but wonder if i’m already long forgotten in their young, impressionable minds
you’d think i’d be much smarter given the circumstance
but i’m still awful at piano, haven’t learned to dance either
it’s hard to dance with yourself but i’ve gotten pretty good at playing with time
contemplating this funny life of mine.
starbound, i was always striving to be starbound
now i try to bite my tongue, but i can’t take back my words
i guess this is a lesson from the universe
next time i’ll be more careful what i wish for i promise
i miss spring afternoons in between classes,
open-windowed swaying to days by the drums
with the love of my life as far as i knew
didn’t mean to make you blue
still haven’t given up on coming home
counting down the nights in this astrodome.

i can’t make you wait for me
so don’t stop for me
this time i mean it
i know i can’t make you wait for me
life won’t stop for me
think i can feel it
feel it in my bones
i feel it crawling through my veins

A Lesson From The Universe

pitchy demo blah of a new song that's about quarantine and animal crossing lol

maybe the proper version will see light of day? who knows

tummy ache a hundred times a morning
and since yesterday i’ve felt so unimportant 
if time will tell then won’t it tell me now
this headache i’ve had since the weekend
won’t it decimate and fly away in pieces
so if time will tell then won’t it tell me now
can it tell me now


if i chase this ghost will it cheer me up 
if i get stung twice will i realise it’s true 
that i do 
will i scare it off and make it run away
will it come again or is time running too
like you



















does anybody ever read the bio anyway? especially this far down. 

new song this month I'm scared people won't like but I'm scared about that every time I release which is stupid, it's very pop-punky lol 


idk I've been doing pretty ok recently, just moved into a new house with tom, Maxwell and Charlie that I'm really enjoying, short walk into town and I get to make music and live with my friends. I haven't seen much of my mother recently which kinda gets me down a bit and I haven't seen anything of my dad but I think that's ok (more or less used to it) 

 been a shit year so far tho with the pandemic and then the ongoing injustice in America. I hope there'll be a day, sooner rather than later where I come back and read this and the idea of systemic racism and racism in all forms is extinct. I owe so much to black communities and would not know what to do myself if it wasn't for them. 

I wish I released more music under stupid rich kid and I apologise for not putting enough out, I make so much music all the time but I just constantly think "no not this one, try again" until I get a song I like, which I think Is a healthy unhealthy way to write - you guys that listen to this account here ideas that could've been, and might still be. 

anyway idk why I'm rambling in the bio of this song, I love making music and I love everyone who's streamed my music, whether this account or stupid rich kid, I don't really know why some people have stayed around to see what I'm doing next but I'm forever grateful that they have, like everyone says about their own stuff lol but the new stuff is rly good and I hope that everyone enjoys it 

thank you, lucian x

dear diary 019: time will tell (pitchy demo)

haven't released something in over a year but im back!
you can purchase the track here if you'd like to support me: https://jeancantskate.bandcamp.com/track/cowboy-blues

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cowboy blues

this is a reference for when I play it live :)

the most bullshit cover of teenage dirtbag

don’t look back
wasting nights over half of a drag 
in my hometown 
is this where i belong now
all these other kids with nothing to do 
so much to say with nothing to lose
kinda like that 
the best part of the weeks such a nightmare 
hope everything burns downs
pray that i can pick my cards 
hope this shitty town is ours

i felt like making shoegaze today so here's 50 seconds of shoegaze

gonna start posting demos on here just for funsies. here's a new one I'm working on. slow dance with ur s/o to this <3

happi song (demo) *listen w headphones lol*

living hell

@stupidrichkid

demo burner account
unfinished or throwaway ideas

soundshifter on the master sometimes
or i ran out of storage on main sc lol hi

i felt like making shoegaze today so here's 50 seconds of shoegaze

uhh ok