In a World of my Own 🖤💭

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Made Up Minds

House On Fire

LYRICS:

Fluorescent lights are shining yeah down from above
Thinking it's heaven but that's just a joke
Knowing I'm in hell already it helps
If suicide happens I'll come back to tell

Cigarette ashes are inside my veins
Watch the skin just boil and now break
I would have tried to fix myself 
But I know I deserve all the pain

Clouded up and I push down the hate
I don't remember what did I say
Just consumed by the emptiness
That boils and just lives inside my brain

It's like when did we decide just not to get better
Toxic traits start to breed into the ones you deceive
If she was outside your house would you save her   
I miss the old you, yeah your face I can't see

Lose a friend grab my hand, won't you tag along
The person in the TV's telling me I need to go
Just let it end, let me mend, yeah I don't belong
Your voice is like the sea, it's dragging, pulling at my feet

Lose a friend grab my hand, won't you tag along
The person in the TV's telling me I need to go
The floor it breaks, starts to shake, you're not in control
I fall asleep all day without these meds you know I'll break

A liar and disgust and all that is free
Comparing your rings with the ones who can't eat
Jealousy brews in your gut till you're weak
Stealing and hiding while they get to sleep

I hear you screaming out from the edge of the wall
You see red and your family distorts
I tried to come between you two 
But you know that, that wasn't a choice

You didn't care even though I was ten
I guess ever since then I pretend
That everything will fix itself
But you know I can't handle the noise

Lose a friend grab my hand, won't you tag along
The person in the TV's telling me I need to go
Just let it end, let me mend, yeah I don't belong
Your voice is like the sea, it's dragging, pulling at my feet

Lose a friend grab my hand, won't you tag along
The person in the TV's telling me I need to go
The floor it breaks, starts to shake, you're not in control
I fall asleep all day without these meds you know I'll break

Wishing

LYRICS:

Didn't wanna get it, didn't wanna face it, yeah, a family’s torn apart
Two kids in the middle I was only 13  when I knew that I was stuck
Swear I was hearing voices coming from the walls, my father freaked out and just stopped
Forced to talk to a psychiatrist who medicated me till I was cut

Tried to understand but I couldn't, Zyprexa just made me fall asleep
What did you expect from a kid who didn't have a stomach just to eat
So I made friends with the stars, they said that I wouldn't get far
But I found comfort in always being alone and trapped in my own

So don't tell me that you’re sorry for what you did
Because you're not, yeah you're not yeah I know that you are not
Cus I don't care, what's done is done I can't forget
Because I'm stuck yeah im stuck in a place with my own thoughts

Am I not real, I realized that I don't fit in
You can't accept, can't accept me for who I wanna be
Im overwhelmed, I'm not comfortable in my skin
This isn't me, isn't me, when will my mind find some sleep

A few years later nothing changes just a kid stuck in a rut
Putting on a facade for family just so they won't bother me a lot
Been twelve years since I was diagnosed with depression thought there was a cure
But the SSRIs numbed me out until I felt like I was worse

I want to explain it but I've realized no one cares for who you care
No one is special, no one is gifted, mental trauma that makes a star 
When there's nothing left I'll probably kill myself to let go of this pain
Cus I'm always tormented by myself when I forget my own name.

So don't tell me that you’re sorry for what you did
Because you're not, yeah you're not yeah I know that you are not
Cus I don't care, what's done is done I can't forget
Because I'm stuck yeah im stuck in a place with my own thoughts

Am I not real, I realized that I don't fit in
You can't accept, can't accept me for who I wanna be
Im overwhelmed, I'm not comfortable in my skin
This isn't me, isn't me, when will my mind find some sleep

Stuck

westmont

crows

decay (feat. Vaeo)

produced by nate2timez, Eric Godlow, & Boyfifty

-lyrics-

lxst boy:
i want the time back that you took from me 
i got blindsighted by your personality 
i tried it all, sent a text and called
with no response cause baby in reality
i been tryna move on
put it in the past and don’t look back 
put you in a song cause im petty like that
pouring out my heart and you don’t text back 

i see you on the other side 
baby don’t you cry
on the dark side
i can’t save your life
oh, baby i tried
i see you on the other side 
baby don’t you cry
on the dark side
i can’t save your life
oh, baby i tried

eric godlow:
i tried
oh, i tried
bully me, its over 
but you haven’t seen the other side
i cant hold you back no more
heart feeling like a flatline
text me back a little more
i’ll put you in the past life
(ldo me wrong)
that’s fine
(or do me dirty)
yeah that’s fine
if you really hated me
you talking back like punchline
you been putting weight on me 
like feeling on my waistline
bitch just save the silly talk
i’m busy in the daytime

lxst boy:
i want the time back that you took from me 
i got blindsighted by your personality 
i tried it all, sent a text and called
with no response cause baby in reality
i been tryna move on
put it in the past and don’t look back 
put you in a song cause im petty like that
pouring out my heart and you don’t text back 

yeah, uh
i wanna have everything that we had that we left in the past
uh, yeah
you wanna throw away everything, girl there’s no taking that back
uh, yeah
you try to pull away, try to say that you got way too attached 
yeah, yeah
you put me on blast cause you think you can take it all back
back to the times when the talks we had never escalated, feel the saturations
i tried to be civil, you’re talking in riddles, your tears are like precipitation, right?
it’s raining, it’s pouring, your lies are distorted, i’m thinking i’m hoping it rains today
pen to the paper, i’ll get to that later, but i’m thinking i’m hoping these chains will break

otherside (feat. Eric Godlow)

Willow Creek

The Machine

Instagram - @dempseyrollboy 🚬

produced by: SoundMindBeats
mixed & mastered: SoundMindBeats

in a world of my own... 🖤💭

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lyrics
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remember when they said we wouldn’t strive
but we wrote it out and cracked the fucking code
remember when we lost our fucking minds
so sedated shit but now we on the road

the flowers out back if you wanna catch a glimpse
come thru to the crib you can see just how i grow
seltzer habit i’m a caffeine addict
two matches strike the pack so you can see the ember glow
full screen this one you gon wanna see the wrist
cause i’ve been icy in this bitch and it’s just me and all my bros
flow so clean i’ve been rolling in the deep
with a dell and a yeti maybe i should take it slow

wait
this the part that i haven’t yet made
ugh i hate when i’m alone in this place
my mind isn’t made up about today
but so far this weeks looking fucking great

monday we was in a gorgeous place
yeah tuesday we hit traffic in LA
uhh wednesday took another trip to the bay
yeah thursday drove for like 12 hours straight
ugh friday we was up in rose city
saturday just passed yeah it’s 1:43
now it’s sunday praying for another way
all i’m thinking bout in the van is your god damn face

i can’t hold back
you should know that
i shoulda never really hit you with that call back
i shoulda really thought about it before all that
now im alone in my room and it’s pitch black
pitch black
where my bitch at
i just got another on the way that shit is kick ass
i just made another dumb mistake and i cant list that
i’ll just kick it solo in my home let’s skip the chit chat

fuck this party
i ain’t leaving sorry
things aren’t looking great
and i
wish that i wasn’t 2,000 miles away
but let’s be honest
this is what you wanted
what can i say
lately i’ve been numbing all the pain when i step up on the stage

ember ft. eric godlow (prod. sorrow bringer)

somewhere before

Animal & Centuries

Lyrics:

Scorpio:
I messed up bad
I made you sad
If I could take it back
I would do it fast

Changed the way you look at me
I know I'm a little too late
I made this ugly
But this is what I've got to say

My apologies
I know I fucked it up this time
It's hard for me
To get past insecurities in my mind

I'm sorry
I hate the way I made you cry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry

Want you to hold me
Was hoping it would be just fine
But you would've called me 
I wonder if I still cross your mind

I'm lonely
I don't feel like me inside
I'm sorry
I'm sorry

Devin's World:
What you don't know is that I love you, but it's hard for me to trust
I been through the wringer cause trauma from my past is piling up

Sorry for what I do to you
I'm sorry for how I act
Sorry that I put you through this
But everything I forgot's coming back

No you don't deserve it 
No you don't deserve it at all
I know that I'm not perfect
But I'm tryna brush it off

It's a miracle that you gave me the time of day
Feel so spiritual cause you must be an angel from far away

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