I remember listening this like a year ago. Never gets old <#

intro game too strong for yall smh
one of my fav songs i've made in awhile, hope yall enjoy it as much as i do <3 
prod. tag but yungster yools herself ofc 
melody from white album
---
[verse 1]
the tightness on my chest 
makes it hard for me breath
cuz you're the air thatd fill my lungs 
and all the things that i would need 
and i've grown to just accept that
it should be easier for me
locked up my heart 
and ur the one that wields the key but

[chorus]
ik ill never be the one
thats running around your mind
the coldness fills the air 
with thoughts of you and i 
but as long as you're still smiling
i won't care the reason why
but the coldness fills the air
with thoughts of you and i 

[verse 2]
i try to find a way
to escape what im feeling
but i stay in bed 
and just stare at the ceiling 
cuz if i fall asleep
you'll visit me in my dreams
inside a house that i can never leave
so i'll try to find a way 
to escape 
this sense of hopelessness i feel
this sense of loneliness 
is why i wish i couldn't feel

[chorus]

with thoughts of you and i (x4)

[chorus]

[chorus 2]
ik ill never be the one
thats running around your mind
and the coldness fills the air 
with thoughts of you and i 
but promise me you'll smile
cuz you look cuter when you do
although the coldness fills the air
i'll still think of you

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with thoughts of you and i

April

thank you for 6K. glad to finally work with one of my best friends in the scene @ihateshinigami

i never asked 
for the cards 
i been dealt with
and i still
don't know
where my mind is
feel like
my happiness and i
have part ways
feel my eyes
growin heavy
on my pale face

and all i ever
wanna be is enough for you
but i never get close
no matter what i do, and
everybody is sayin
i should relax
but the stress is 
piling up as time elapse

and i swear it never gets better
i been sleepin less and less
this shit is lasting forever
but i try my fucking best
i got too much on my plate
i'm sorry i'm far away
i promise i don't mean to be
but this ain't easy to say

so don't go away from me
i just need a little bit more time
don't go away from sme
i just need a little bit more time

when it's said and done 
i hope that i'm enough
for the ones i love
but it's getting tough
so just bear with me
you're the one i need
i've been losing sight
got no room to breath


[shinigami]

w/ my eyes wide open
i see clearly now
stretch my hands
let fate fall into place

up and down i been falling
cold wind calling my name
i'm not the same as i once was

i'll take you away
to a world that is glistening
where everything's fine
have you even been listening?
i'm falling apart
you knew this from the start
lay your head in my arms
we'll never be apart

losing sight w/ shinigami

merch: https://demxntia.bigcartel.com/product/alive-again-tee

astari: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5srEHn2jjmM
produced by @skress
guitar by me
art by digitalyams

yeah it's getting late 
oh god my mind is wandering off again
baby i'm afraid
of all the pictures painted in my head
tryna find a way
wipe the canvas clean and make amends
baby i'm not okay
i just wanna feel alive again

tell me when i can start my life again
cuz the anchor at the bottom
keeps my ankle in the sand

ion think it's somethin u would understand
i wanna get my shit together
but it never go as planned

i just wanna be enough for you
yeah i just wanna be enough for you
when i'm barely enough for myself

yeah it's getting late 
oh god my mind is wandering off again
baby i'm afraid
of all the pictures painted in my head
tryna find a way
wipe the canvas clean and make amends
baby i'm not okay
i just wanna feel alive again

i just wanna be enough for you
yeah i just wanna be enough for you
when i'm barely enough for myself

alive again

alive again [prod. skress]

girl i know i’m far away
and a little out of reach
but i’ll find a way to keep
you close to me

and ik its been so hard
everything kept inside the dark
it was never easy from the start
we’ve come so far

i’ll never stop trying
can’t stomach to see u crying
ik it’s been rough
but baby i’m so in love 
with you, oh

i’ll keep you at the 
bottom of my heart
so we never ever
have to be apart
just listen to the 
sound of my guitar
when you’re looking
at the moon and the stars

girl i know i’m far away
and a little out of reach
but i’ll find a way to keep
you close to me

and ik its been so hard
everything kept inside the dark
it was never easy from the start
we’ve come so far

i’ll keep you at the 
bottom of my heart
so we never ever
have to be apart
just listen to the 
sound of my guitar
when you’re looking
at the moon and the stars

SPOTIFY

far away [prod. skress + drakobills]

demxntia
 i said home is where ur heart is
oh i feel so warm in ur energy
and baby if im being honest
it isn’t the same without ur company

girl it’s not the same
without u in my arms
ive broken promises
but it won’t break ur heart 
ik it hurts every time
we fell apart
but we could heal these scars

it’s like a part of me 
is missing when ur gone

broken promises [prod. skress]

windows down in the backseat
ridin round at night
something's missing
i can't find it
i get this feeling all the time
well maybe i'm still homesick

you never understand what you have
until you don't anymore
so count your blessings
it could've been worse than before

summer hasn't been the same
and the people i knew all changed
the plans that we made never came
but i'm guessin i'm the one to blame
i miss staying up and playin games
without a worry in my mind
i miss oversleeping skippin classes
when i couldn't be on time

windows down in the backseat
ridin round at night
something's missing
i can't find it
i get this feeling all the time
well maybe i'm still homesick

you never understand what you have
until you don't anymore
so count your blessings
it could've been worse than before

[kevin kazi]
can i go back? back to july
when you wouldn't leave my mind
now the connection's getting cold
and i'm getting old
i don't wanna waste my time

i'm too homesick i feel hopeless
baby can you understand?
i won't hold you if you're going
cuz i'm focus on these bands

homesick w/ kevin kazi [prod. skress]

how much do i have to give
just to be enough?
tell me am i really living
in this world or not?
i can't stand this feeling
no i cannot sleep it off
i can't stand this feeling
no i can't just give it up

no i can't give it up
too much on the line
i can't fuck it up
shit changed ever since
i got my money up
my old friends who don't
hmu no more but that's okay
ima make it on my own
it'd be easier w/o u fuckers
blowin up my phone

askin "what've you been on
oh you made a couple songs
yeah we need to talk more often
i been worried all along"
i said fuck out my face
i been tryna chase a bag
cuz the effort that i put is
always more than i get back

how much do i have to give
just to be enough?
tell me am i really living
in this world or not?
i can't stand this feeling
no i cannot sleep it off
i can't stand this feeling
no i can't just give it up

conditional love
it's fuck what i want
you don't have to lie
ik you never cared at all
i've seen thru it all
i won't drop the ball on myself
don't be hittin up my cell

give it up [prod. skress]

I won't let, I won't let this break me.
cus I know that I'm better than that,
and she said, everything I hate about me,
it's ok, at least I'm aware.. no no no..
(x2)

staring up at the top of the ceiling,
with my wrists, their cut, I cannot stop the bleeding,
staring up at the top of the ceiling,
with my wrists, their cut, I cannot stop the bleeding,
(x2)

Staring at the Ceiling

i always fall in love
with someone that i can’t have
i never asked for my heart
to be broken in half
i tried my best to stay away
you probably noticed, but
it’s not your fault i hate myself
hope you know this

life that i’m livings a lie
even if you asked
i probably couldn’t
tell you why
taken over by a void
i can’t even fucking cry
every time you ask about me
i’m just feeling tongue tied
it’s the same shit
over and over
ik were both growing
older and older
feeling our hearts
get colder and colder
wish i could feel
your head on my shoulders, but

timing was always an enemy
you were never just a friend to me, i
know what i’m saying doesn’t add up
to how i speak when you askin me wassup
yeah timing was always my enemy
and you were never just a friend to me, i
know what i’m saying doesn’t add up
to how i speak when you askin me wassup

broken promises [prod. skress]

demxntia 🌐🖤

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