(TRIGGER WARNING FOR SUICIDAL THEMES)
Suicide and Crisis Lifeline: 988

Right now, I am okay, but this song was written during a dark time!
I won’t be mad if you don’t listen!
This goes to show how real and destructive OCD can be.
It's about what I go through sometimes with this mental disorder in general. It's more than just a stereotype. The mental obsessions are something you don't always see on TV.

The message is to rely on Art & Music to let the pain out through coping and relating instead of acting on those thoughts!

All My Streaming & Social Links: push.fm/fl/denisashton

Lyrics:

Save me, Jesus Christ, please
From this Hell I'm in
A place where I burn alone  

How can I express the pain I'm in
If I can barely function?

Sometimes I almost wish you'd fucking shoot me dead
Take a gun and pierce a bullet right through my fucking head
So I don't have to think
I'm on the fucking brink
Of losing my mind
But I can't give in to suicide, I won't

Ruminating, ruminating
I can feel my mind breaking
Fuck this act
I want to rip off the mask

I'm scared to live
I'm scared to die
I'm already a corpse inside

Now hours and weeks pass
I've become fragile glass
Who can save me?
Will you save me?

Craving reassurance
But the words just aren't coming out
I want to ask you so bad
It's all so fucking sad

But don’t you feed me that bullshit
That you've found my solution
'Cuz it doesn't work
You wouldn't understand at all

Yelling, screaming, breaking down alone
The frustration has its hold
Why don't they understand?
My heart has turned to sand

Ruminating, ruminating
I can feel my mind breaking
Fuck this act
I want to rip off the mask

I'm scared to live
I'm scared to die
I'm already a corpse inside

Now hours and weeks pass
I've become fragile glass
Who can save me?
Will you save me?

I've sweat my bullets, I've shed my tears
I've smelled my rotting dreams
Overtaken by my fears
Suffering for all these years

I've questioned everything
What did it fucking bring?
I've grown to hate living
Feels like I'm always running
 
Ruminating, ruminating
I can feel my mind breaking
Fuck this act
I want to rip off the mask

I'm scared to live
I'm scared to die
I'm already a corpse inside

Now hours and weeks pass
I've become fragile glass
Who can save me?
Will you save me?

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (TRIGGER WARNING FOR SUICIDAL THEMES)

All My Streaming & Social Links:
push.fm/fl/denisashton

EPK:
Denis Ashton is a German-born vocalist, music producer, and composer living in North Carolina.
He is self-signed to his record label “Ashton Records”.

Refusing to be pigeon-holed into any box, his eccentric sound covers an eclectic and diverse collection of genres including Alternative Electronic, Trance, EDM, Rock & Metal, and Rap.

Sent on what he believes to be a God-given mission fueled by his pain and passion, he is determined to express himself by telling his life story through his music & lyrics.

Having a dream of expressing himself to an audience who like and enjoy his music, he has a love and appreciation for his fans, knowing that without them he is nothing, as he would have no audience to express himself to or enjoy & admire his work.

His goal is to create music and lyrics to help people feel happy and alive, cope with life’s pain and suffering through cathartic release, and to help them escape while also being inspired to follow their dreams.

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (TRIGGER WARNING FOR SUICIDAL THEMES)

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