you’ve been here before
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yeah i'll admit it guess i lost my composure
composing sonnets and you're spitting out clovers
i'm spinning web with a cerebrum still can't see any closer
know you're leveraging lithium lift the light underwater

now it's Boreal, but i don't care
saying it's all my fault but it wasn't there
I'll sanction what was lost, because it wasn't fair
but nothing can absolve me from you

but nothing can absolve me from you

now it's boreal, but i don't care
saying it's all my fault but it wasn't there
i'll sanction what was lost, because it wasn't fair
but nothing can absolve me from you

boreal

derealization

https://ffm.to/alwayswere

cover art by noah geene https://temberl.in/ 

i think i see it in the distance 
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always were, like you always were
its the rote screen door on your front porch 
where you fell asleep on the tile floor
but you've unstrung all your britching now

bite my tongue 'till it falls right off
its the tailgate on that fane barbwire 
trace the windshield as we drove for miles 
spurn the sauder on the backing line
and i swear i saw you standing at the edge 

and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 

forget it, forget it, the day is done
forget it, forget it, you saved it once
i get it, i get it, you've frayed and rubbed the velvet off your antlers

and it was beautiful 
and it was beautiful 

forget it, forget it, the day is done
forget it, forget it, you saved it once
i get it, i get it, you've frayed and rubbed the velvet off your antlers

always were

Session2

(lyrics)
about a million conversations in a day
i give up, i give up
head screwed on the wrong way 
don't know what I'm supposed to say
another awkward moment sitting here
i guess silents been okay
I wonder what i'm so afraid of 
what i'm so afraid of (so i)

so afraid of

surprised why i would

i didn't mean to follow
just wondering what you were up to
are we friends?
fell sick ever since i moved

i mean, it's, you're the only that can fix me up
cuz you're the one that's breaking off 
that's why you'll fix me

my mean-it's hollow
do i wanna keep on going through
this again, i'm a bitch, selfish solitude

don't look at me as if i'm not even there
don't look at me as if face to face to face

face to face

i 
i want it out 

the sentiment i am without 

you
you do not want me for anything
like this 

i want a mirror 
you just want a mouth 

weird flashing grey leaves
i can’t quite tell the color

you hate all the things 
about the ways i discover

and i couldn’t tell if it was you or someone different 

and i couldn’t quite tell if you were here or you were getting distant 


can i be comfortable?
can i be loved?

Mirror.mp3

Try not to repeat it
For I am closer to the edge

Than/Then I think

About the snake that’s been eating
Its own tail

What is left in its wake?

There doesn’t have to be much meaning
No pinning down a force that’s fleeting

Snake

This song was created from other songs I've created throughout the year. Some, which have yet to be released. But it was fun nonetheless

derealization

derno