dylan i love you so fucking much and i never thought that i'd find someone like you  i am so grateful to have you. in fact even last night i dreampt of you what a relief from dreaming of jessies house and smashing glass to cut myself with i probably shouldnt put something like that somewhere public like this but i mean shit its not like i have alot of followers so yea and you think that someone'd be worried about your mental health. imagine how they feel about mine. damn.i cant beleive this. i mean i can . i dowhen i read that  i had to hide my smiile behind my sleeve so staff wouldnt question me god im a mess. a mess for you because of you with you. holdon -man man  thats a good song sorry if this is alll mixed up im sneak typing in a google window  while working on "math" . i'd do anything for you. for us. . i mailed you friday and monday (yesterday ) so be expecting that. im patientlly waiting (yea right) (like im patient) im sorry fro all the bss im sure that youve been told god i hate myself for the past events.  i rally hope that you are being truthful with me in all aspects because i am with you. god i cant wait to wake up next to u every morning. respond back in ur bio i love you more than you may know. your smile makes me feel whole. your laugh  made me feel  you may know.  you m me so happy.. collect calls cost ALOT of money so i do apologize about that i really hope that we can text through our bios every day. would u be down for that?btw i dont care if u smoke. i just care that you are honest (thought u quit)  whashed out- flatsoun <3 i hope that we dont end up as one of those couples who just change and decide to go down different paths. i'd hate not having you in my life. shmmake sure to go through the music  under my likes and stuff ahh itss so good. i miss the smeell of you. i miss the way your teeth feel on my neck. i miss your eyes they hold such beauty is is unfathomable. i'm doing really good and im really doing everything i can to get the fuck out of here and into yor armsi  i have finally learned that self destruct alt j -breezeblocks that is amazing. should i expect mail soon? i love you so much and cant wait to see ur reply to this i love you so much dylan <3


 I dont have any glasses at all. but ill return a kiss

you'll probably get it today but you'll definitely get it tomorrow (well assuming staff give you your mail automatically) i'll send more the next letter i send
update3: i just called the nurse's station because i legitimately want to know if you'll be able to call me with those quarters and it seems to be true - the package i  sent with 1.50 in quarters should be coming soon. they also told me i can just send regular money and you have a change machine there but i'll confirm that with you if/when you call - worst case scenario i have to wait until that stupid personalized card comes but then ill be able to call
i hope you can actually read this :/
update: i think staff might be catching on to me calling the unit bc this time they said "i don't know thats a question you'll have to take up with the nurse's station" either that or that guy is just a total ass. i feel so bad for you:( ugh i hate that you're in there- 5:50pm april 24th - i have a feeling you're managing to read this because you called around 5 like i asked you to and i DIDN'T GET TO ANSWER (what the HECK) i hope so. anyways, today i went out and bought a pre-paid card for visa and put 20 bucks on it. you called several times and i tried to accept it every time. it kept saying "card invalid! card invalid!" and it really pissed me off. so i called the legacy inmate communications, and asked them what was going on and they said my card wouldn't "release information"  and that i need to call my credit card company, so i called greendot and they said "you have ta wait till de 3rd to get personalized card" and i basically cussed them out (probably shouldn't have) and i tried to get my room-mate to let me use his card but he's useless. 
So I WILL be able to answer your calls, i seriously scratched up all of my change in order to put that money on there and im so disappointed because if you did read this i know you feel lied to. i'm so SORRY. i feel absolutely horrible i should have known before making that statement. please don't be upset with me, i'm very upset with myself right about now. please know i'm trying,  at the very least, i'll be able to talk to you on the 3rd -Desiree, I love you so much. I really hope you're reading  update: just talked to my room-mate and he will help me get something going tomorrow for the 20 bucks that i have on this card. so hopefully I should be able to talk to you! i don't want to be so quick to be sure because then i'll feel like im lying to you but ill figure something out. in the mean time i'll write you letters and send them out with a stamp. please don't think i've given up on trying to contact you because there's nothing further from the truth than that. i love you with all of my damaged heart and want nothing more than to hear your voice. also sent ur parents a letter so maybe that will change things? i thought i worded it pretty good. im ok with words that's kinda my strong suit also: if you think i'm lying i took a picture of the card and the packaging and stuff ( i know this probably wasn't neccessary but if i were in your shoes, i would feel like i was being bullshitted: https://postimg.cc/image/l4rm1ywlj/ ) i just really want you to know im trying so hard des. i really am, i'm trying to water the heck out of this tree and one day it will be SATURATED but right now it's pretty dry and it's not because im forgetting to water it it's like the sun just keeps drying up all of the water for no REASON - i hope you can call me with those quarters
i'm going to start mailing you atleast every other day since I can't accept a lot of your calls - i did send that letter to your parents and i think i worded it nicely i gave them my number and basically explained why i'd really like to be on your contact list i have a good feeling about it but then again im always overly optimistic
i made us a website so you can contact me in other facilties 
https://friendlysunshine24.wixsite.com/website-8 - i love you!

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