(sic)

i let go of what made me whole
and dug myself a deeper hole
i fucking hate being alone
but it's all i've ever known
there's nobody left to care
so why the fuck am i still scared?
i don't think there's any coming back from this

i can't find any bliss

can't take living in this skin
did my life ever really begin?
sink into my cold sheets
don't wanna wake up this week

i'd ask you to stay
but you're too far away
i don't know if i can take another day
i wanna find a way
to not be so afraid
maybe then i could fix this mess i've made

i'm the worst of lovers
we'll never find each other
i'm a jerk, i'll suffer
and you'll just find another

Bliss

featuring @luvwillow

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

didn't mean to push you away
since we stopped talking i've decayed
i'm about five years too late
i gotta move on for god's sake
i'm sorry for ghosting you
didn't know what i was supposed to do
this was all so new
think i had a chance but i ruined it
made you feel like shit
i always miss

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

i never thought i'd be this way without you now
i'm sorry that i messed it up
i know that it's all of my fault
and nothing ever seems to go right
i lost you and now i lost myself
just know that i'm trying to make amends
just know that i mean it when i say...

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

im sry i fcked up ft. luvwillow

Lessthanthree

Lyrics:

They told me I could be anything
So I became nothing
But this won't do, this will never do
This will never do

When options are infinite
You're stuck in a limbo
Of stagnation and inaction
I won't forget

The times when I was
More than just another adult 

They told me I could be anything
So I became nothing
But this won't do, this will never do
This will never do
Guess it's my fault 
I'm a broken adult
Still don't know what's good for me 

Stagnation 
Kills me deep inside
It's all on me 
It's all on me 

They told me I could be anything
So I became nothing
But this won't do, this will never do
This will never do
Guess it's my fault 
I'm a broken adult
Still don't know what's good for me

They Told Me I Could Be Anything So I Became Nothing

cant look at you
rotting dead body tissue
can you feel anything?
stupid cant even talk right
making a fool of myself one more time
i want to kill my mind
try to end my life not the first time

so useless i might aswell be dead
never gonna leave my fucking bed
i'm worthless feeling so jaded 
waiting for my pain to come to an end

were falling in
skeleton bodies
sitting here just bleeding out slowly
giving in to the pain i suffer
would rather die than find another

so useless i might aswell be dead
never gonna leave my fucking bed
i'm worthless feeling so jaded 
waiting for my pain to come to an end

carve out my fucking flesh
you make me feel like death
you did this to me
its all your fault

so useless i might aswell be dead
never gonna leave my fucking bed
i'm worthless feeling so jaded 
waiting for my pain to come to an end

might aswell be dead

Listen on spotify :3 https://open.spotify.com/album/7i9IAqXbv2Nk9wbFg5lhmj?si=-yyl_pZfS5eKNVjNEz3dlA

Lyrics: 

Stupid fucking manwhore
Don't you forget it
Where's your mommy, bitch?
Can't get satiated 
No better than any piece of meat
A depraved hedonistic freak

Oh I bet you feel like a big player
It's all fucked so you make yourself a slayer 
It's not punk rock, nor is it really cool
To be a kid in an ice cream shop
A goddamn fucking fool

Stupid fucking manwhore
Don't you forget it 
Where's your mommy, bitch?
Can't get satiated 
No better than any piece of meat
A depraved hedonistic freak

Oh repent, oh repent 
Oh, repent your sins
Oh repent, oh repent 
Oh, repent your sins
You've got nothing else to offer me

Fuck!
Repent your sins now
Repent, repent, repent, repent 

You can call me trad I think it's pretty rad 
Porn sickness got you mad? Oh so very sad
Collecting coochie like they're medals not gonna do you any good 
I bet it's real fun to finally be understood 
Oh honey, I think that you've got it all wrong 
If it was your sister or your mom you wouldn't be acting so strong...


Stupid fucking manwhore
Don't you forget that 
Where's your mommy, bitch?
Can't get satiated 
No better than any piece of meat
A depraved hedonistic freak

Oh repent, oh repent 
Oh, repent your sins
Oh repent, oh repent 
Oh, repent your sins
You've got nothing else to offer me

$tup1d M4nwh0r3

featuring @dethtech

i won't see angels when i die
let it happen, let me lie here
i'm done trying to be like you
keep pretending like you didn't steal my heart
you'll take all i have and take all my memories

these blood stained eyes can't see your face
i can't stop the blood

when i'm dead ill write to you in dreams
roses dying, light the cigarette, i'm a bloody mess
i should've known our love would end in tragedy
i watch the tears fall from your eyes, i'm so heartless

buried deep beneath your skin
lies the hurt that broke you
clawing from within
god knows the height i've left to fall
all i can see is you've gone cold

when i'm dead ill write to you in dreams
roses dying, light the cigarette, i'm a bloody mess
i should've known our love would end in tragedy
i watch the tears fall from your eyes, i'm so heartless

i can't sleep when im with you
she had the wings of an angel
but that girl was a devil in disguise
i saw her wings were broken
so she just stood there as i died

i wont see angels when i die, they'll laugh as i fall

i wont see angels when i die, they'll laugh as i fall ft. DethTech

luvwillow cover

suicide on my mind
she smiles at me
ye shes so kind
her pale skin
and her green eyes
her black hair
and her small thighs

angelgirl living online
i wish that she was mine
but my life is boring
and im too scared to go outside

im too scared to meet with u
im too scared to go outside
im nothing but a waste of time
im too scared to go outside
u broke my heart u broke my mind
im too scared to go outside
but my life is boring
im too scared to go outside

my cold heart reaches out for you
im so sick im turning blue
i hope you know how you make me feel
drawing blood to know im real
my cold heart reaches out for you
im so sick im turning blue
i hope u know that i am through
with all the shitty things u love to do

lmfao im sorry

This is not just a poetry album.
It’s a song-heart, a cry of life refusing to die in the silence of collective indifference.

Each piece here is not art for art’s sake,
but an act of survival, a fight to remain oneself
in a world that constantly demands compromise.

Every line is a breath.
Every word — a reaching out for something truly alive,
without bargaining away its truth.

This is the birth of a new style.

A style where genre doesn’t matter —
metal, electronica, jazz, lo-fi, acoustic —
the music is just a container.
A vessel for meaning, built to reach another human
as real and raw as the one who created it.

This style is called:

Extremely High Sense Capacity
(E.H.S.C.)

It’s not about form — it’s about depth.
Music that carries.
Poetry that must be heard.

And it’s also an act of dismantling borders.

Borders between people. Between cultures. Between traditions and fears.
It’s a gesture of unification.
An attempt to bring back the feeling of being human.
To restore humanness as the center of the universe —
as the thing that binds it all together.

The iron bell resounds

i lay awake at night
'cause i don't feel alright
i'm not gonna get any better
not now, not fucking ever
so i curl up into a ball
try to forget who i am at all
then i'll just stare at my bedroom wall

3 am and i'm sad again
i just want this pain to come to an end

tears start to fill my eyes
no one is here to see me cry
oh why do i deserve this?
i feel so fucking worthless
nobody lies by my side
can't see the hell i try to hide
as i sleep inside my cell i dream of suicide