wasting away another shitty week
my future's looking pretty bleak
now all i do is fucking whine
and call kids faggots online
i know i should probably get some help
but i don't really care about myself
my life just seems so damn cruel
'cause i peaked back in middle school

i'm just another screw up that refuses to grow up
i'm stuck in hell and i can't tell which way is up
no luck, i'm so fucked
get fucked you bitch
don't try, just quit
i'm too unfit
i'm fried to shit

i'm going nowhere and i don't care
'cause i'm well aware my life's beyond repair
never worked out where i wanted to go
feels like it's too late
guess i was just too slow

everyone's passing me by
seems too pointless to try
all my friends outgrew me
act like they never even knew me
being me feels so humiliating
that's why i spend all day dissociating

i got no drive
don't feel alive
losing my mind
i'm out of time

Going Nowhere

you called me cute, i said "ok"
i'm sorry i just didn't know what to say
i feel embarrassed all the time
every time i open my mouth i want to die
there's something wrong with me

don't talk to me
i don't know how to speak
i'm on a twenty one year retarded streak
so leave me alone
i never pick up my phone
i hate it here and i want to go home

i know that i'm really awkward
when you talk my fucking head hurts
i can't even look you in the eyes
i really wanna fuck you but i'm too shy
there's something wrong with me

Don't Talk to Me

split my head in two
i like you more than i want to
fallen victim to human error
think i'd be better off dead
make my body glitch
maybe that's 'cause you're a bitch
all these questions never answered
running rampant in my head

i hate everything about you
why are you still on my mind?
i think about you all the time
day and night
i can't lie

you feel closer than you are
i see your face up in the stars
where i watch my mind go
i'm losing all of my hope
it feels so good to die though
i love to lie though
i'm dying inside
oh no
i should just tell you how i feel
but i can't explain
it's so surreal
don't want you to think any less of me
it's kinda sad really
i'm getting mad at myself

you've become an obsession
fuelling depression
i know you're no good for me
but i love to bleed
i want you out of my head
like someone better instead
i'm losing it
i'm going sped
didn't choose this shit
fill me with lead

i like you more than i want to

DOA demo

featuring @luvwillow

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

didn't mean to push you away
since we stopped talking i've decayed
i'm about five years too late
i gotta move on for god's sake
i'm sorry for ghosting you
didn't know what i was supposed to do
this was all so new
think i had a chance but i ruined it
made you feel like shit
i always miss

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

i never thought i'd be this way without you now
i'm sorry that i messed it up
i know that it's all of my fault
and nothing ever seems to go right
i lost you and now i lost myself
just know that i'm trying to make amends
just know that i mean it when i say...

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

im sry i fcked up ft. luvwillow

still workin on the album

i was feeling so tired
slept through the entire
party, i'm partly awake and asleep
still tasting the vomit
i felt so fucking nauseous
passed out in the toilet
just for a couple seconds

picking up the broken glass
on the kitchen floor
looking at a photograph
of myself that i've never seen before

the door's cracked open 
feel the draft coming in
the wind blows me away
into some place i've never been
but i think it's gonna shut
as im sat here remembering
my hands under the kitchen sink
i feel the blood spilling in

picking up the broken glass
on the kitchen floor
looking at a photograph
of myself that i've never seen before

culling myself into somebody now
and the face on the back 
of my head's turning round
these days are just fading away
and i want them to stay right here

i want them to stay

Kitchen

https://open.spotify.com/album/7jsLbJhaBDuL6nJIO47x4j#login%3Fflow_id=a6de5c8a-3b42-4e66-baf8-ed0e31fe3850%3A1680259362 where i got from

Collapsing

NEET and DethTech - Collapsing

Lyrics:

When's the third act in this story? 
The introduction drags on and on 
On and on 
What a letdown... (Letdown!)

Everyone's ahead while I'm stuck in a battle 
That I could never win
Or even make a single dent...

And I will never lay down my arms 
My suicide is staking everything 
So that I could take that future for myself 
Whatever it may take
Even if it kills me 
It's all worth it in the end 

Rest assured that
It's all for the greater good 
Even though I know 
It's never enough 

(Since I have nothing else to give)
(This is my final gamble)
(There is nothing else in me) 
(To satisfy, to culminate)
(In anything of beauty)

This is all that I wanted 
Since I don't have anything else to give 

And I will never lay down my arms 
My suicide is staking everything 
So that I could take that future for myself 
Whatever it may take
Even if it kills me 
It's all worth it in the end

It's Not Suicide If You Call It Sacrifice

idk how to mix lol

the verdicts out on you
you liked the things that you put me through
cant even look at you
already gone before its due
u live a lie
play dead for me tonight

you play pretend cause its all you got
lie to my face baby make it stop
losing myself for another shot
it goes (it goes)
youre fucked (youre fucked)
no one believes you now

distracted by your eyes
its hard to even see through ur lies
skins torn from flesh and bone
hours with you just makes me groan
ur fucked up bliss
always faking a kiss
with death on ur lips

your face in the dark
dead from the start
my ears keep ringing
with all ur remarks
just make it stop
this is the 3rd time
youve staged ur death
i'll make it ur last