(sic)

credit to https://twitter.com/sh1nd3 for the cover art

fucked up
my life
and theres no going back

burning
all my time
and i feel so trapped

everyone hates me
feel like im going crazy
i feel stupid i fucked up theres not much else that i can do

i just dont want to feel this way
its getting worse everyday
these feelings i just cant contain 
i think that i am going insane

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

fucked up
my chances
and now theres no one left for me 

i just want
to end it
then i can finally be free

my friends and family think there is no saving me
nowhere left for me to go be better off six feet below

i just want to redeem myself
but cant admit that i need help
from everything that ive been through
i just dont know what to do

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

dejected

21 demo

feels like i'm wasting time
always rotting online
looking for what i can't find
i'm not too bright
don't wanna die a slow death
don't wanna leave you bereft
seems like i'm dead
dreams are all i have left

am i the only one to never make it out?
i wanna see the sun before i hit the ground

with every breath i take
don't know why i wake
grown numb to the taste
a disappointing fate
misery breeds apathy
i don't wanna bleed anymore
anymore

am i the only one to never make it out?
i wanna see the sun before i hit the ground

ngmi
i never tried
ngmi
lay down and cry

am i the only one?

ngmi

lyrics:

i need therapy
i dont wanna
rot no longer
dont care what
they think of me
tendencies are getting stronger

what in the fuck do i say?
what in the fuck's wrong with me?

crawling in my hair
digging into itself
altering my brain
killing my mental health
dancing in my prayers
feigning the screams for help
drowning in my pain
making me kill myself

(no one likes you !!!!!)

its not the right thing
to say
its not the right way
to be
but i can show you
the way
look very close and you'll see

crawling in my hair
digging into itself
altering my brain
killing my mental health
dancing in my prayers
feigning the screams for help
drowning in my pain
making me kill myself

i dont have much space left
to keep you in my head
in times of twisted gloria
with all that has been said
im so glad that we met
in times of my euphoria
patched up all the bugs
but you can still find them

crawling in my hair
digging into themselves
altering my brain
killing my mental health
dancing in my prayers
feigning their screams for help
drowning in my pain
making me kill myself

Beta Test

and i cant take this shit no more
my blood spills out all on the floor
you promised everything to me
but all you did was ruin me

you have lips like razor blades
your words cut through my fucking veins
kiss my neck and bring me pain
my love was always in vain

darling take me back to before
i cant even look at your face anymore
darling i'm losing my mind
you make me want to fucking die

i've had enough of you
nothing you said was true
ran off to some fucking guy
the moment we were through
and i cant take this shit
hope you find someone who loves it

don't go don't go
darling youre all i know
please go please go
you make me feel so alone
don't go don't go
darling youre all i know
please go please go
better off with no home

darling take me back to before
i cant even look at your face anymore
darling i'm losing my mind
you make me want to fucking die

im just ur problem

killing floor

rest in peace lil watermark

The very first thing I said to you was hey 
I get a feeling that just won't go away
My stomach's turning over when I'm thinking about the things you say
The thought of you keeps me occupied all day
Yeah, it's so bad my friends say I'm vacant in my brain
All I wanna do is call you up and make you feel okay

And when you're sober
Will you think it over?
The thing I told you
Will you think it over?
Yeah when you're sober
Will you think it over?
The thing I told you

I woke up early this morning in a state of fright
Can't figure out what I said to you last night
Was it just a dream, or did I really try to kiss you twice?
Oh could you promise that you'd tell me if you liked it
'Cause I'd rather end it now than keep putting my heart out on the line
Oh darling, if I don't take your breath away
Can you please stop taking mine?

And when you're sober
Will you think it over?
The thing I told you
Will you think it over?
Yeah when you're sober
Will you think it over?
The thing I told you
Will you think it?

The thought of you keeps me occupied all day
The thought of you keeps me occupied all day
The thought of you keeps me occupied all day
The thought of you keeps me occupied all day

And when you're sober
Will you think it over?
The thing I told you
Will you think it over?
Yeah when you're sober
Will you think it over?
The thing I told you
Will you think it 
Over
Will you think it over
The thing that I told you
Will you think it over
Will you think it over
Will you think it over
Will you think it over
Will you think it over

Think It Over

Question Abuse (Tree Cover)

@crustsox cover

i don't know how to sing

Kind Stranger

i'm not sure that i exist
never took any shots, so i never missed
this vacant feeling persists
i can't take living like this
staring at my screen is my only routine
i don't know where i've been since i turned sixteen

no friends to who i can confide
i'm not dead, but i don't feel alive
i never seem to have the time
spending all of my days online
wishing i had someone here to talk to
i've been forgotten by everybody i knew

i'm falling away, further everyday
i got lost trying to find my way
losing my grip on reality
another victim of a self induced tragedy

feel like i'm gonna black out
stuck in this game, i wanna back out
i can't continue without someone to lessen my doubt

Falling

DethTech