featuring @luvwillow

i know that you never really liked me
it's okay i only wanted your body
there's no way i'm gonna make it now
'cause i'm too burnt out and feel too let down
i hate myself and the way i think
somebody like you could ever be in sync
with my fucked up thoughts and bad ideas
for the first time i can see things clear

an acquired taste
so out of place
i could never look you in the face
maybe that's why you went mia
never knew the right words to say
thinking about you is pretty sad
how can i miss something i never had?
give me a chance and i'd run right back
i already know it's too late for that

i'm such a big loser
i can't find my words anymore
haven't been happy since age four
i'm lonely stuck here being poor
it's not my fault that you just suck
kill myself i'm a bastard who lost his luck
if i could take your pain away
i think i'd do it another day

even now i'm still hoping
at this point i'm just coping
never gonna get far
complaining with my guitar

an acquired taste ft. luvwillow

just a cover band doing cover band beacuse we cover abnds!!!

Bliss but like.... real

still workin on the album

i was feeling so tired
slept through the entire
party, i'm partly awake and asleep
still tasting the vomit
i felt so fucking nauseous
passed out in the toilet
just for a couple seconds

picking up the broken glass
on the kitchen floor
looking at a photograph
of myself that i've never seen before

the door's cracked open 
feel the draft coming in
the wind blows me away
into some place i've never been
but i think it's gonna shut
as im sat here remembering
my hands under the kitchen sink
i feel the blood spilling in

picking up the broken glass
on the kitchen floor
looking at a photograph
of myself that i've never seen before

culling myself into somebody now
and the face on the back 
of my head's turning round
these days are just fading away
and i want them to stay right here

i want them to stay

Kitchen

https://open.spotify.com/album/7jsLbJhaBDuL6nJIO47x4j#login%3Fflow_id=a6de5c8a-3b42-4e66-baf8-ed0e31fe3850%3A1680259362 where i got from

Collapsing

NEET and DethTech - Collapsing

coming second place in a one v one
logging off, i'm fucking done
you're all better than me
and i can't believe it goes on and on
nothing ever seems to go my way
still forever i'm forced to play
fucking failure

i feel like a loser without any future
cut open my head and rip out the tumour
you make me wanna fucking end it sooner
let me respawn like a first person shooter

this everlasting dread
engraved into my head
you don't get it, you never will get it
i'm so fucking dead
fuck this
you don't get it, you never will get it
i'm so fucking dead

death by screen time
another wasted life
keep your head in a vice

i feel like a loser without any future
cut open my head and rip out the tumour
you make me wanna fucking end it sooner
let me respawn like a first person shooter

how it feels to be a complete loser

i think there's something wrong with me
nobody seems to disagree
the less i say the more i bleed
it gets worse than you'd believe
with every little mistake i make
it builds and builds until i break

cause i'm sick of waking up
every day's the fucking same
so sick i've given up
only got myself to blame

now it's nearly been three years
i'm still holding back the tears
i've been gone for so long
i've been gone for so long
burning bridges all the time
can't bear to look in your eyes
how can i right my wrongs?
how can i right my wrongs?

cause i'm sick of waking up
every day's the fucking same
so sick i've given up
only got myself to blame
and worst of all, it's all my fault
no one left to take the fall
right from the start it all fell apart
no one has any fucking heart

STILL SICK!

Lyrics:

i hope you blow your head off
i hope you fucking die
i really hope you suicide
i hope you hate your life
i dont really care if you cry
just please fucking die
i really hate your fucking guts
why do you fucking try

please die

I Hope You Fucking Die

luvwillow cover

suicide on my mind
she smiles at me
ye shes so kind
her pale skin
and her green eyes
her black hair
and her small thighs

angelgirl living online
i wish that she was mine
but my life is boring
and im too scared to go outside

im too scared to meet with u
im too scared to go outside
im nothing but a waste of time
im too scared to go outside
u broke my heart u broke my mind
im too scared to go outside
but my life is boring
im too scared to go outside

my cold heart reaches out for you
im so sick im turning blue
i hope you know how you make me feel
drawing blood to know im real
my cold heart reaches out for you
im so sick im turning blue
i hope u know that i am through
with all the shitty things u love to do

lmfao im sorry

i'm breaking down all the way to the bone
so little left for me to sacrifice
the burden's out of my hands
these scars serve as reminders
of all i'm made to withstand
GOD DAMN

they laid my body out on the ice
praying one day the rot will subside
never the easy way, i'm counting every day
still i'm waiting for you to arrive

buried under six feet of concrete
cut me off from the heat
anything to help me sleep easy
this fucked disease is eating me
festering, eating me, festering

how long can you keep up this disguise?
i'll cut out your tongue to end your lies
they laid my body out on the ice
praying one day the rot will subside
never the easy way, i'm counting every day
still i'm waiting for you to arrive

DethTech - nothing ever happens (until it does)

DURAN DURAN - INVISIBLE (metalcore cover)

INVISIBLE (duran duran cover by THE DEONISOS)

I don’t mean to be a weird guy
But it’s my blood it’s in my mind 
I don’t know how to read social cues
I’m scared to make eye contact when talking to you 

I’m an autism haver
Awkward Forever
I’m so stressed when we’re talking 
I’m a social disaster 

I feel like a fish up on land 
Im out of control, I don’t understand 
Why you’re laughing, was it something I said?
I’m just gonna shut up, never talking again

I’m an autism haver
Awkward Forever
I’m so stressed when we’re talking 
I’m a social disaster 

I’m an autism haver
Im fucked forever 
I can never talk to you 
Cuz I can’t take the pressure