DOA demo

featuring @luvwillow

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

didn't mean to push you away
since we stopped talking i've decayed
i'm about five years too late
i gotta move on for god's sake
i'm sorry for ghosting you
didn't know what i was supposed to do
this was all so new
think i had a chance but i ruined it
made you feel like shit
i always miss

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

i never thought i'd be this way without you now
i'm sorry that i messed it up
i know that it's all of my fault
and nothing ever seems to go right
i lost you and now i lost myself
just know that i'm trying to make amends
just know that i mean it when i say...

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

im sry i fcked up ft. luvwillow

Nevada

LDAR demo

Lyrics:

They told me I could be anything
So I became nothing
But this won't do, this will never do
This will never do

When options are infinite
You're stuck in a limbo
Of stagnation and inaction
I won't forget

The times when I was
More than just another adult 

They told me I could be anything
So I became nothing
But this won't do, this will never do
This will never do
Guess it's my fault 
I'm a broken adult
Still don't know what's good for me 

Stagnation 
Kills me deep inside
It's all on me 
It's all on me 

They told me I could be anything
So I became nothing
But this won't do, this will never do
This will never do
Guess it's my fault 
I'm a broken adult
Still don't know what's good for me

They Told Me I Could Be Anything So I Became Nothing

i never planned for this and now my head's a mess
gotta run away to relive my stress
grinding my teethe til i wore them down
no point in obsessing now
you drove me to the brink of insanity
i couldn't see what was real or a fantasy

some things are better left unsaid
cause you already want me dead
knew i wasn't ready to take the fall
still i tried, like it mattered at all
oh i'm the cause of my downfall

every part of me and every part of you
has been beaten bloody and bruised
the thought of it makes me fucking sick
had enough of your fucked up tricks
let me stitch the cuts i left on you
to keep you from tearing yourself in two

some things are better left unsaid
cause you already want me dead
knew i wasn't ready to take the fall
still i tried, like it mattered at all
oh i'm the cause of my downfall

i trusted you, til i hit the ground

the fall wont kill u but the pavement will

(lyrics below) Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3ExGB125JobAjvf5QPLSYo?si=knpZYBv5R6Ox5CdL5nZMAQ

If they all hurt me
Why shouldn't I do the same? 
I keep it all in a bottle 
As I sit around, twirl and waddle

Into walls, smash my body on the concrete 
Put a brick on the gas and leave me in the backseat
I guess you were right all along

It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along
It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along

And I wanted you to suffer 
Just as much as I did 
But now I just want you to watch me,
Yeah, I just want you to watch me

Pour my guts out on your shirt
Self myself ablaze, for you it wouldn't hurt 
But to me, this means everything 
This means everything to me 

It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along
It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along

Your eyes, my pain
Your eyes, my pain

Watch Me Hurt Myself (And I'll Be Yours)

my back feels like a cutting board
too many problems i ignored
i prayed they'd fade away
if i gave it all, until the day
but with friends like these
it's kinda hard to breathe
mind the tape around the scene
sorry i left such a bloody mess

lie after lie after lie after lie
and i ate it up every single damn time
now i'm trapped down here
still wondering why, oh why
going out my fucking mind

i can't forgive a broken oath
as my blood still stains my clothes
and after all the years
did i really mean so little to you?
no goodbyes, no nothing
looking ahead you kept on running
you're being hunted by the memories
of you standing there watching me bleed

whether you like it or not
you're gonna end up just like me
you'll be sorry

lie after lie after lie after lie
and i ate it up every single damn time
now i'm trapped down here
still wondering why, oh why
going out my fucking mind

backing out of a suicide pact at the last second

idk how to mix lol

the verdicts out on you
you liked the things that you put me through
cant even look at you
already gone before its due
u live a lie
play dead for me tonight

you play pretend cause its all you got
lie to my face baby make it stop
losing myself for another shot
it goes (it goes)
youre fucked (youre fucked)
no one believes you now

distracted by your eyes
its hard to even see through ur lies
skins torn from flesh and bone
hours with you just makes me groan
ur fucked up bliss
always faking a kiss
with death on ur lips

your face in the dark
dead from the start
my ears keep ringing
with all ur remarks
just make it stop
this is the 3rd time
youve staged ur death
i'll make it ur last

Pseudocide

i'm breaking down all the way to the bone
so little left for me to sacrifice
the burden's out of my hands
these scars serve as reminders
of all i'm made to withstand
GOD DAMN

they laid my body out on the ice
praying one day the rot will subside
never the easy way, i'm counting every day
still i'm waiting for you to arrive

buried under six feet of concrete
cut me off from the heat
anything to help me sleep easy
this fucked disease is eating me
festering, eating me, festering

how long can you keep up this disguise?
i'll cut out your tongue to end your lies
they laid my body out on the ice
praying one day the rot will subside
never the easy way, i'm counting every day
still i'm waiting for you to arrive

DethTech - nothing ever happens (until it does)

i'm not sure that i exist
never took any shots, so i never missed
this vacant feeling persists
i can't take living like this
staring at my screen is my only routine
i don't know where i've been since i turned sixteen

no friends to who i can confide
i'm not dead, but i don't feel alive
i never seem to have the time
spending all of my days online
wishing i had someone here to talk to
i've been forgotten by everybody i knew

i'm falling away, further everyday
i got lost trying to find my way
losing my grip on reality
another victim of a self induced tragedy

feel like i'm gonna black out
stuck in this game, i wanna back out
i can't continue without someone to lessen my doubt