(sic)

i let go of what made me whole
and dug myself a deeper hole
i fucking hate being alone
but it's all i've ever known
there's nobody left to care
so why the fuck am i still scared?
i don't think there's any coming back from this

i can't find any bliss

can't take living in this skin
did my life ever really begin?
sink into my cold sheets
don't wanna wake up this week

i'd ask you to stay
but you're too far away
i don't know if i can take another day
i wanna find a way
to not be so afraid
maybe then i could fix this mess i've made

i'm the worst of lovers
we'll never find each other
i'm a jerk, i'll suffer
and you'll just find another

Bliss

dumb song i wrote yesterday

just woke up, already in the ground
i'm so fucked, never made a sound
everything keeps getting worse and worse
keep this up and i'm gonna need a hearse
wanna buy a gun
kill myself for fun
i'm not the only one
we're all so done
it feels like hell inside of me

you're making me another casualty
you're killing me, fatality

fatality
let's go

i fucked up and it's got me down
have no luck and i'm gonna drown
spinning round and round i go
where i'll end up i don't wanna know
wanna run away
need to leave today
but i've got no way
i'm not okay
this fight can never be won

i don't wanna play this game anymore

FATALITY!

my parents always called me kind of slow                              
there’s a lot of things I should that I just 
don’t know 
I can hear you say the words 
I can see you move your mouth 
I still don’t know anything ur talking about

i’m a fucking dumbass 
can’t think too fast  
its too hard for me 
can’t understand anything 

I didn’t know points could fly that high over my head 
keeping up with basic concepts always leaves me exhausted  
I wish I knew how to be smart but I guess I can’t  
ill bootstrap my intelligence with a total brain transplant  

i’m a fucking dumbass
can’t think too fast  
its too hard for me 
can’t understand anything

slow brain

featuring @luvwillow

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

didn't mean to push you away
since we stopped talking i've decayed
i'm about five years too late
i gotta move on for god's sake
i'm sorry for ghosting you
didn't know what i was supposed to do
this was all so new
think i had a chance but i ruined it
made you feel like shit
i always miss

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

i never thought i'd be this way without you now
i'm sorry that i messed it up
i know that it's all of my fault
and nothing ever seems to go right
i lost you and now i lost myself
just know that i'm trying to make amends
just know that i mean it when i say...

i'm sorry i fucked up
i'm dying to make up
yeah i know that i suck
i'm sorry, i'll shut up

im sry i fcked up ft. luvwillow

Nevada

You have problems
I got problems too
But i guess it’s not
As bad as you

You don’t try to change it
Or think about your way
It’s over it’s over
Is all that you say

I don’t wanna be your friend
I don’t wanna know your thoughts 
Complain if you want but you
Really need to stop
I don’t care if your fine
I don’t care if your well
Bitch you say you wanna die you might as well

Must be so hard being you
Having nothing to do 

It’s pretty hard doing nothing all day
On top of that I have nothing to say
So sad this feeling won’t go away

You might as well

thx 4 listening! Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/77UZv7gSOVWAlh4Tzm6iIx?si=ckRj9kJ1T0WyH3YBwhsGUg&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A1suklOvvNvZoSn5Nk3XtnN

Lyrics: 

Tell me, does everyone 
Get to pass a part of themselves on?
And on and on and on and on

No, I don't have much to give
Don't I deserve a future? 
All my life spent on the computer

Might as well be gone 
If all I get is

F in natural selection 
It was never my intention 
To rot away and die alone 
I can't do this on my own

I deserve nothing
I deserve nothing 

Spill my blood on the ground 
Six feet in the dirt, I won't make a sound 
If no one sees a future in me
What's the point of going on?

F in natural selection 
It was never my intention 
To rot away and die alone 
I can't do this on my own

F In Natural Selection (feat. Hatsune Miku)

ifbirdswerereal cover

i think id rather die
than hav 2 put up w/ u
i c ur schewpid fukin face
in evrythin tht i do
so if u wanna die
i want u 2 die 2
i hope u take ur fukin lyfe
cuz its the least u cud do

an wen u fukin die
ye ill b laughin @ u
thats wat u get 4 all the
schewpid shit u put me thru
an @ ur funeral
ill have dem play dis song 2
an make sure evry fukin soul
knows tht its abt u

id rather die than hav 2 put up with u //_0

izumi is dead - dont like you

i'm breaking down all the way to the bone
so little left for me to sacrifice
the burden's out of my hands
these scars serve as reminders
of all i'm made to withstand
GOD DAMN

they laid my body out on the ice
praying one day the rot will subside
never the easy way, i'm counting every day
still i'm waiting for you to arrive

buried under six feet of concrete
cut me off from the heat
anything to help me sleep easy
this fucked disease is eating me
festering, eating me, festering

how long can you keep up this disguise?
i'll cut out your tongue to end your lies
they laid my body out on the ice
praying one day the rot will subside
never the easy way, i'm counting every day
still i'm waiting for you to arrive

(sic)

DethTech