LDAR demo

Lyrics:

When's the third act in this story? 
The introduction drags on and on 
On and on 
What a letdown... (Letdown!)

Everyone's ahead while I'm stuck in a battle 
That I could never win
Or even make a single dent...

And I will never lay down my arms 
My suicide is staking everything 
So that I could take that future for myself 
Whatever it may take
Even if it kills me 
It's all worth it in the end 

Rest assured that
It's all for the greater good 
Even though I know 
It's never enough 

(Since I have nothing else to give)
(This is my final gamble)
(There is nothing else in me) 
(To satisfy, to culminate)
(In anything of beauty)

This is all that I wanted 
Since I don't have anything else to give 

And I will never lay down my arms 
My suicide is staking everything 
So that I could take that future for myself 
Whatever it may take
Even if it kills me 
It's all worth it in the end

It's Not Suicide If You Call It Sacrifice

i think there's something wrong with me
nobody seems to disagree
the less i say the more i bleed
it gets worse than you'd believe
with every little mistake i make
it builds and builds until i break

cause i'm sick of waking up
every day's the fucking same
so sick i've given up
only got myself to blame

now it's nearly been three years
i'm still holding back the tears
i've been gone for so long
i've been gone for so long
burning bridges all the time
can't bear to look in your eyes
how can i right my wrongs?
how can i right my wrongs?

cause i'm sick of waking up
every day's the fucking same
so sick i've given up
only got myself to blame
and worst of all, it's all my fault
no one left to take the fall
right from the start it all fell apart
no one has any fucking heart

STILL SICK!

i never planned for this and now my head's a mess
gotta run away to relive my stress
grinding my teethe til i wore them down
no point in obsessing now
you drove me to the brink of insanity
i couldn't see what was real or a fantasy

some things are better left unsaid
cause you already want me dead
knew i wasn't ready to take the fall
still i tried, like it mattered at all
oh i'm the cause of my downfall

every part of me and every part of you
has been beaten bloody and bruised
the thought of it makes me fucking sick
had enough of your fucked up tricks
let me stitch the cuts i left on you
to keep you from tearing yourself in two

some things are better left unsaid
cause you already want me dead
knew i wasn't ready to take the fall
still i tried, like it mattered at all
oh i'm the cause of my downfall

i trusted you, til i hit the ground

the fall wont kill u but the pavement will

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If they all hurt me
Why shouldn't I do the same? 
I keep it all in a bottle 
As I sit around, twirl and waddle

Into walls, smash my body on the concrete 
Put a brick on the gas and leave me in the backseat
I guess you were right all along

It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along
It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along

And I wanted you to suffer 
Just as much as I did 
But now I just want you to watch me,
Yeah, I just want you to watch me

Pour my guts out on your shirt
Self myself ablaze, for you it wouldn't hurt 
But to me, this means everything 
This means everything to me 

It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along
It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along

Your eyes, my pain
Your eyes, my pain

Watch Me Hurt Myself (And I'll Be Yours)

my back feels like a cutting board
too many problems i ignored
i prayed they'd fade away
if i gave it all, until the day
but with friends like these
it's kinda hard to breathe
mind the tape around the scene
sorry i left such a bloody mess

lie after lie after lie after lie
and i ate it up every single damn time
now i'm trapped down here
still wondering why, oh why
going out my fucking mind

i can't forgive a broken oath
as my blood still stains my clothes
and after all the years
did i really mean so little to you?
no goodbyes, no nothing
looking ahead you kept on running
you're being hunted by the memories
of you standing there watching me bleed

whether you like it or not
you're gonna end up just like me
you'll be sorry

lie after lie after lie after lie
and i ate it up every single damn time
now i'm trapped down here
still wondering why, oh why
going out my fucking mind

backing out of a suicide pact at the last second

DethTech - better late than never

i'm breaking down all the way to the bone
so little left for me to sacrifice
the burden's out of my hands
these scars serve as reminders
of all i'm made to withstand
GOD DAMN

they laid my body out on the ice
praying one day the rot will subside
never the easy way, i'm counting every day
still i'm waiting for you to arrive

buried under six feet of concrete
cut me off from the heat
anything to help me sleep easy
this fucked disease is eating me
festering, eating me, festering

how long can you keep up this disguise?
i'll cut out your tongue to end your lies
they laid my body out on the ice
praying one day the rot will subside
never the easy way, i'm counting every day
still i'm waiting for you to arrive

DethTech - nothing ever happens (until it does)

Freedom

ETERNAL DOMINATION

i lay awake at night
'cause i don't feel alright
i'm not gonna get any better
not now, not fucking ever
so i curl up into a ball
try to forget who i am at all
then i'll just stare at my bedroom wall

3 am and i'm sad again
i just want this pain to come to an end

tears start to fill my eyes
no one is here to see me cry
oh why do i deserve this?
i feel so fucking worthless
nobody lies by my side
can't see the hell i try to hide
as i sleep inside my cell i dream of suicide