you called me cute, i said "ok"
i'm sorry i just didn't know what to say
i feel embarrassed all the time
every time i open my mouth i want to die
there's something wrong with me

don't talk to me
i don't know how to speak
i'm on a twenty one year retarded streak
so leave me alone
i never pick up my phone
i hate it here and i want to go home

i know that i'm really awkward
when you talk my fucking head hurts
i can't even look you in the eyes
i really wanna fuck you but i'm too shy
there's something wrong with me

Don't Talk to Me

split my head in two
i like you more than i want to
fallen victim to human error
think i'd be better off dead
make my body glitch
maybe that's 'cause you're a bitch
all these questions never answered
running rampant in my head

i hate everything about you
why are you still on my mind?
i think about you all the time
day and night
i can't lie

you feel closer than you are
i see your face up in the stars
where i watch my mind go
i'm losing all of my hope
it feels so good to die though
i love to lie though
i'm dying inside
oh no
i should just tell you how i feel
but i can't explain
it's so surreal
don't want you to think any less of me
it's kinda sad really
i'm getting mad at myself

you've become an obsession
fuelling depression
i know you're no good for me
but i love to bleed
i want you out of my head
like someone better instead
i'm losing it
i'm going sped
didn't choose this shit
fill me with lead

i like you more than i want to

YEAH!
waking up everyday to a kick in the face
all your dreams are gone
you'll never leave this place
made a habit of falling into holes
this joke is getting kinda old

i've heard it a thousand times before
and it's just not that funny anymore
now that everything's falling apart
i'd dive over the edge for a new start

i'll carve myself a chelsea smile
like sad clowns are going out of style
i'm so tired of getting pushed around
can't wait to be six feet underground
it gets harder to breathe the longer i stay here
under the weight of it all
i'm better off alone
i feel safe in my home
oh it's all my fault

i've heard it a thousand times before
and it's just not that funny anymore
now that everything's falling apart
i'd dive over the edge for a new start

the joke isnt funny when ur the punchline

Lyrics:

When's the third act in this story? 
The introduction drags on and on 
On and on 
What a letdown... (Letdown!)

Everyone's ahead while I'm stuck in a battle 
That I could never win
Or even make a single dent...

And I will never lay down my arms 
My suicide is staking everything 
So that I could take that future for myself 
Whatever it may take
Even if it kills me 
It's all worth it in the end 

Rest assured that
It's all for the greater good 
Even though I know 
It's never enough 

(Since I have nothing else to give)
(This is my final gamble)
(There is nothing else in me) 
(To satisfy, to culminate)
(In anything of beauty)

This is all that I wanted 
Since I don't have anything else to give 

And I will never lay down my arms 
My suicide is staking everything 
So that I could take that future for myself 
Whatever it may take
Even if it kills me 
It's all worth it in the end

It's Not Suicide If You Call It Sacrifice

i never planned for this and now my head's a mess
gotta run away to relive my stress
grinding my teethe til i wore them down
no point in obsessing now
you drove me to the brink of insanity
i couldn't see what was real or a fantasy

some things are better left unsaid
cause you already want me dead
knew i wasn't ready to take the fall
still i tried, like it mattered at all
oh i'm the cause of my downfall

every part of me and every part of you
has been beaten bloody and bruised
the thought of it makes me fucking sick
had enough of your fucked up tricks
let me stitch the cuts i left on you
to keep you from tearing yourself in two

some things are better left unsaid
cause you already want me dead
knew i wasn't ready to take the fall
still i tried, like it mattered at all
oh i'm the cause of my downfall

i trusted you, til i hit the ground

the fall wont kill u but the pavement will

(he is cloaked to me
the voices give me nothing)

losing myself for you was my one mistake
delusions dragging me down, can't bury my fate
leaving everything behind 
you'll never see my face again

this is the fucking end 

take my hand and run away we'll end our lives tonight
death in each others arms sounds like bliss by your side
when i'm with you everything hurts so much fucking more
as our blood drips down on us we fade to nothingness

i love when you enjoy my pain
fucking slash my wrists for you baby
bleeding out, its beautiful
that you don't care about me at all
don't change for me now darling
my disease is my love for you
no drugs could help me get through

take my hand and run away we'll end our lives tonight
death in each others arms sounds like bliss by your side
when i'm with you everything hurts so much fucking more
as our blood drips down on us we fade to nothingness

dying 4 ur luv

(lyrics below) Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3ExGB125JobAjvf5QPLSYo?si=knpZYBv5R6Ox5CdL5nZMAQ

If they all hurt me
Why shouldn't I do the same? 
I keep it all in a bottle 
As I sit around, twirl and waddle

Into walls, smash my body on the concrete 
Put a brick on the gas and leave me in the backseat
I guess you were right all along

It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along
It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along

And I wanted you to suffer 
Just as much as I did 
But now I just want you to watch me,
Yeah, I just want you to watch me

Pour my guts out on your shirt
Self myself ablaze, for you it wouldn't hurt 
But to me, this means everything 
This means everything to me 

It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along
It doesn't hurt as bad in my head
With blood-soaked towels around my bed 
I guess you were right all along

Your eyes, my pain
Your eyes, my pain

Watch Me Hurt Myself (And I'll Be Yours)

with cold skies a new day dawns
embrace my lies, one last time

while we wasted away, watched as it burned
all this false hope makes me sick to my stomach
and i won't ever find a cure

i don't think this is what i'm made for, get me out of this mess
i killed myself for you and still you're just an ungrateful bitch
keep telling those lies and hope it all goes away
but honestly darling i can't fucking cope

the flowers in the bed are starting to die out
bury it all behind, don't care if you're dead or alive
a dull razor wrote my end and left it vacant
ill never feel the same about you anymore

memories forgotten, our bloody stains
cover the trees beside our graves
everything i said to you was exactly what i meant

youcantmakemewritethis

i can't escape this feeling of fear
the flowers bloom, a sea of lunar tears
it's not the same as it once used to be
we forgot what made us whole

the flowers in the bed are starting to die out
bury it all behind, don't care if you're dead or alive
a dull razor wrote my end and left it vacant
ill never feel the same about you anymore

the bitter sweet end to everything i once loved

DethTech - better late than never

This song was made and published by EDGEMASTER42 and not by me. This is simply a repost due to the fact that he doesn't upload his music to soundcloud anymore, like Dethtech. If he'd like me to private this, I'll do so the moment he asks. Here's a link to his channel, the song is there too: https://www.youtube.com/@Edgemaster42_
Lyrics:

(Edgemaster)
Imma bail on you and rot
Just gonna say it
Yeah I must confess
I sold my soul to be comfortable
It's backfiring on me

I assure you that I live like
A 13th century king
Yet I wanna fucking slit my throat
That's the price of not spreading wings

Burnt my brains out playing hooky
Bleed my life out...
Tell everyone that I'm sorry
Fucked my shit up
And got no nookie
Bleed my life out...
Tell everyone that I'm sorry

(Dethtech)
Picking up the pieces
After self destructing
Lost and apathetic I
Wither into nothing
With fuck all I can show
And, debt I'll always owe
I pray one day to save my soul

Burnt my brains out playing hooky
Bleed my life out...
Tell everyone I'm sorry...

(Edgemaster)
Burnt my brains out playing hooky
Bleed my life out...
Tell everyone that I'm sorry
Fucked my shit up
And got no nookie
Bleed my life out...
Tell everyone that I'm sorry

I played hooky and got my shit handed to me
(Turn turn)
Turn it back
No one fucks me like I do
Like I do
South
Bound
To
A brand new
Hell