thousand miles.. ft. sace6 + kennedyxoxo

i heard he want that dead girl luv
i just want that hell hot lava
bby come pick me up
we can ride around in yr mazda
u kno i stay in the cut
just like alcohol and gauze does
my whole beings givin up
but my body doesnt wanna
wanna come and clean me up
in the morning when im gone?
ill b gone b4 u kno it 
ive already moved along
in heaven no 1 writes a song
we just sing our words as 1
its the harmony u notice 
when the process is 4got
ive been tryin hard 2 focus
i been out my head a lot
idk the voice im throwin
in my throat there lives a knot
if im not the 1 u notice
do i even have a shot
idk just how to show it
but i think of u a lot
lets make it hot in here
i wanna feel it out
after a couple beers
youll kiss me on the couch
i wanna face my fears
dont wanna talk about
how the last couple years
instilled my chronic doubt
b still my beating heart
i have no self esteem
maybe ill fall apart
maybe youll fall for me
maybe it isnt worth
all of the effort weve
already put into this so
maybe ill leave
maybe ill get out
imma get the the fuck out

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by cassie
recorded @ the gloss temple 05/22/2023
art by bedhead

ALL PLATFORMS

alcohol and gauze (+ cassie)

prod. by me https://soundcloud.com/luv_armor

sometimes you get under my skin
sunlight, piercin’ through your iris
bloodstains, on my sleeve & my wrist
(bloodstains remind me that i exist)

i’ve done shit i just can’t defend
in time, you learn you never really win
god damn, when will it fuckin’ end?
(i just want all this shit to end)

i know i said it, but i never meant it
and i’m startin’ to regret it
someone tell me where my head is
before i die to my own weapon

i need anesthetics or a medic
i won’t ever get to heaven
it’ll take time to accept it
i need to learn my fuckin’ lesson

i don’t wanna go back home tonight
just hold me tight, ohh
..i don’t wanna go home tonight

the stars shine bright on your skin
should’ve never let you get in
‘cause now i think that i just can’t win
i’m used to feelin’ like shit

i’ve said it, i’ll say it again
i wish this shit would just end
so sick of playin’ pretend
i scream your name to the wind

just put me outta my misery
yeah, she brought the artillery
when she told me we’re history
(just put me outta my misery)

yeah, she told me she loved me
but i knew it was lies
it wasn’t the right place or time
still can’t get you off my mind

sometimes you get under my skin
sunlight, piercin’ through your iris
bloodstains, on my sleeve & my wrist
(bloodstains remind me that i exist)

i’ve done shit i just can’t defend
in time, you learn you never really win
god damn, when will it fuckin’ end?
(i just want all this shit to end)

i know i said it, but i never meant it
and i’m startin’ to regret it
someone tell me where my head is
before i die to my own weapon

i need anesthetics or a medic
i won’t ever get to heaven
it’ll take time to accept it
i need to learn my fuckin’ lesson

under my skin

Poor thing, thought it went missing 
Darling yeah caught up on a listening 
For why could it end up this way 
Can’t lie yeah I thought they would miss me 
Poor thing, thought it went missing 
Darling yeah caught up on a listening 
For why could it end up this way 
Can’t lie yeah I thought they would miss me 

Hope you got your lenses I'm tough to read like
Like a poem there's meaning that you just can't see oh
And whether it's meant to be or whether it was left to me ah
Yeah I've gotten this way without forcing keys don't force the bleed no
Would you really resent me if I let go of these maladies in my head
Leaving me lessening my pain in such a way that leaves me dead

Poor thing, thought it went missing 
Darling yeah caught up on a listening 
For why could it end up this way 
Can’t lie yeah I thought they would miss me 
Poor thing, thought it went missing 
Darling yeah caught up on a listening 
For why could it end up this way 
Can’t lie yeah I thought they would miss me 

She placed her hand on my collar bone 
Said I wasn’t even going home alone  
Try to keep it alive even though we were doubtful 
Keep telling lies yeah I’m sure it's a mouth full 
Yeah I’m sure it’s a mouthful 
And I’m sure it feels good to believe 
In each and every thing you say 
But it won’t but it won’t be my way

poor thing (dead spyro)

sadd bihh

prod. by me https://soundcloud.com/luv_armor

fate

prod. @pekarot_161

suddenly the light inside your eyes started to dim
terrified of knowing all too well what happens next

hear the buzzing of fluorescence
the thoughts avalanche and cover all the silence
the place where cuts and bruises are mended
let me use these final moments here with you as leverage
to sway away the reaper
begging and pleading to please let us keep them
but like a statue and stone face
carried those parts of me into a new fate

I miss you waiting for you but you're one with the clouds
see you soon we'll be reunited when i'm in the ground

hear the buzzing of fluorescence
the thoughts avalanche and cover all the silence
the place where cuts and bruises are mended
let me use these final moments here with you as leverage
to sway away the reaper
begging and pleading to please let us keep them
but like a statue and stone face
carried those parts of me into a new fate

leverage

meh

blood stained shirt yeah you know how it goes
i only get violent if they push me ‘till i blow
if you run now i’ll be better when youre home
if you leave now, itll be safer when youre home
at 23 will u still remember me
ill be gone evenmtually
for now i gotta fix this on my own
promise it’s better if you go
dont watch the blood drip from my nose

say my mistakes dont define me
until they cause me pain and i start sprilaling out 
got these new ways to hide it
bury me with secrets, they’ll be safe no doubt
my bones are starting to rust
wipe away the dirt before i turn into dust
consuming my lungs
this place i won’t leave
all the bugs in my flesh
i’m rotting with leaves

there’s no place for me here
im fading out of your memories its clear
i got no one left to listen
i got no one left who will miss me

sadd bihh

dev0 ☆