one more song till the dawn

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SadBoi till I'm DeadBoi

[VERSE 1]
When every thought brings so much pain.
It's hard to explain.
I don't wanna feel anything.
It's hard to explain.
I don't wanna change.
Something in my brain,
Telling me to hate.
All I ever say,
I don't wanna change.
Something In my brain,
Won't go away.

[CHORUS]
Far from home, where you'll find me,
made my bed and i'll finally lay in it.
Lay in it.
Far from home, where you'll find me,
made my deathbed and ill finally lay in it.
Ill lay in it.

[VERSE 2]
Backpacked on my own,
rather be fucked up all alone,
Airplane mode on my iPhone,
Running from a careless path I wish I'd never known,
But I know that...
Everyone that I believed in was holding me back,
Matter of fact,
I wasn't leaving because what I needed was space that I lacked,
I got off track,
Don't wanna do it by myself,
But I don't want no help,
The only way's to runaway
and write a story to tell.

[SPOKEN WORD]
Made a promise that I'd love myself
And a promise that I'd break it.
Made a promise that I'd get better 
And a promise that I'd fake it.
Promised myself that I'd give it up,
Give up everything you hated.
Made a promise that I'd enjoy my life, and a promise that I'd take it.

[CHORUS X3]

deathbed

Shout out my brotha @jayeem_music @jayeem_music @jayeem_music🌘✨

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her ghost w/ hidden jayeem

ft: @barrenwaste
prod: @anobodyreally x @cpt_sad

where the fuck are my friends at?
dont bother hitting me up, im busy anyway
where the fuck is my girl at?
100 miles away exploring every frat

getting dubbed like its payback
for all the fucked up shit
that i cant even admit
i dont care im just anxious
we got some plans to be famous
i dont know if i can take this
money good, but the paper faceless
im so useless, didnt choose this
feeling clueless, send me cute pics
like you used to
got a new life
that im getting used to
drunk in my room
like im Free Throw
in the back row
with my hopes up
and my head down low
man im stressed out
getting aquainted with all of my thoughts
hoping ill turn out to be who im not
grabbing a knife just to cut out the coms
my heart in the fridge where i ice out my head
my brain is a mess, id be better off dead
cant fight up the courge to end my own life
but find out the futures got reasons to live
i cannot go, but i wanna bail
burried in woes, to sorrow i hail
i drink from the veil just to swallow my tongue
maybe ill join up the 27 club

where the fuck are my friends at?
dont bother hitting me up, im busy anyway
where the fuck is my girl at?
100 miles away exploring every frat
getting dubbed like its payback
for all the fucked up shit
that i cant even admit
i dont know if i can take this
all my life ive been faceless

yeah i did some things
i don’t want to say
same as for you
so it goes both ways
don’t need this high horse 
you rode on in
its been too fucking long
since you sang the same old song
to try to get my sing along
but don’t you ever try again
im sick of all this patience
that I’ve been always fading
and try to get back
but its never helping that
i can’t understand the relations
between you and i
theres nothing left
but there always something else
that I’m wondering 
why do you always come back
to try to get me in
inside my own head
to try to trick myself
to think i love you again
it always works somehow
until i realize 
its nothing that i want now
its nothing that i need
but you always try to 
convince me

Follow me <3

faceless (ft. barren) [prod. ʎpoqou x yesterday]

ft. 
https://soundcloud.com/lilzubin
 https://twitter.com/lilzubin

prod. 
https://soundcloud.com/nedarbnagrom
https://twitter.com/NEDARBNAGROM

art.
https://soundcloud.com/wolf_drawn
https://twitter.com/WOLFDRAWN

just a memory ft. lil zubin (prod. nedarb)

proud of me ft. shinigami

Official Video: https://youtu.be/n8XmlBr60Fc

round the valleys we roll
TV blasting out the static 
making peace with my soul
calabash was way too far
so i skate smoking a bone
the hazy sun blessed me with wind
and now the ocean's my home
lately all i do is drift
collect the bag and phone home
hit my pops up, know he's sad
cuz life always takes its toll
but I'm certain all the pieces 
that i need will still fall
from the sky and i smile
been a while since we talked

flushed my xannies down the sink
about like four months ago
im so grateful waking up
times ticking over my dome
never know where I'll end up
keep my pockets lined with gold
no one's ever told me wrong
i blame myself for the most
got a shot up on my ass
cuz she stayed sleeping around
now my wallet doesn't fold
shoes dirty working till close

flushed my xannies down the sink 
about like four months ago
im so grateful waking up
times ticking over my dome

guitars/prod/mix/master by @93feetofsmoke

this song is the antithesis of "if my dad saw he'd me mad at me" which explored the consequences of poor decision making and the overall negativity that used to completely encapsulate my life. Hope it means something to you. Take care <3 love ya pops

if my dad saw he'd be proud of me (video in desc)

I Wish I Was Better Than I Am

---------------------------------- Lyrics---------------------------------------
feeling like im gunna break but
I dont wanna get fucked up tonight
ive got so much to say but
the time is never right
put on another sad song
the feeling never lasts long
the feeling never lasts long
trying hard to be strong
feeling doesn't last long
feeling doesn't last long

I just really wanna feel normal for once
but all my past traumas make it hard to trust
I know you love me
I heard what you said
but its really hard to listen inside of this head
when the demons seem to feast
on keeping me to my bed
I always start to wonder if im better off dead
but ill learn they aint shit
imma live instead
drop a song with Van and try to chase that bread

*Yung Van

one second youre here
and now your gone
I dont wanna believe, its been that long
ive been crying all night, im not so strong
I know you've left, but im not ready to move on

now youre living out your life
just beyond the veil
I wish I could have said I love you, but I never will
I keep a picture of you 
right beside my bed side still
just in case you want to visit
but you never will

I just really wanna feel normal for once
but all my past traumas make it hard to trust
I know you love me
I heard what you said
but its really hard to listen inside of this head
when the demons seem to feast
on keeping me to my bed
I always start to wonder if im better off dead
but ill learn they aint shit
imma live instead
drop a song with Van and try to chase that bread

Thanks for listening :)

If I Told You This Was Killing Me  ft. Yung Van (prod. Sorrow Bringer)

Whos to blame? (feat. familypet) Prod. Freddy Dire

Everyone's gone
Everyone's gone

Circle my lungs
When I'm gone
Leave me with my eyes down
Who'd save me now
Whistle till we're found
We're just waiting for the ground

My mother told me you'll grow old,
And if you need me come back home,
And if I die far and alone,
I'll walk with you until it's gone

Everyone's gone
Everyone's gone
Everyone's gone

BVDLVD:

This ain’t how a family should work
You push me down
You put me down
Fuck me this hurts so bad
I'll chase my dreams till I get too weak
You can’t put me down
No no no

I hate you, you hate me
We're stuck between the same walls
And I 
Wish I could light it up
As you pour it down your throat
And watch you burn
You burn

Take 
All my love
That I've ever showed you
Wrap it up
And burn it with yourself too
You are not
The man that I look up to
You are not
The man that I look up to
Take 
All my love
That I've ever showed you
Wrap it up
And burn it with yourself too
You are not
The man that I look up to
You are not
The man that I look up to

Everyone's gone
Everyone's gone
Everyone's gone
Everyone's gone
Everyone's gone
Everyone's gone
Everyone's gone
Everyone's gone

Mother/Father Ft. BVDLVD(Prod. By Biv & BVDLVD)

Lyrics:
I'm so cold right now, hit a low right now
Hit a bowl while I'm drunk I'm in the flow right now
In the gutter right now, get her number right now
Get the number for the plug cause it's over right now

Gotta cope with the pain, get that shit out my brain
I don't need to explain, gotta run from the blade
Gotta stitch up my veins, shawty stay in your lane
Why you call me insane, I got scars you got the same hoe

I'm boutta pass out, (yeah)
I'm boutta crash out, (yeah)
I'm boutta cash out, (yeah)
See the tunnel with no light, (yeah)

You been on my mind too
Shame that I cant find you
No feeling inside you

But nothing can hide you
I know that you lie too
It's okay dont cry boo

I feel a migraine comin on
Shit too real so I run along
Nothin real when I'm analog
World is gone while I'm in this song

Crashout

crashout

Deposit

All My Little Scars, Vol. 2

All or Nothing

Promise

prod/mix - fats'e

THX 4  20k FOLLOWERS ON HERE <3

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good at being lonely pt II

new track wit me and sethany <3 
expect new songs on the regular! love you

lyrics: i'll post soon i'm waiting for sethany to send me his

don't know why i even f***ing liked you (feat. Smrtdeath)

Dev Gajan music archive. 
Not paying for SC premium whatever so they deleted my songs with plays and allat. 
No longer posting here.  Follow me on Spotify

Whos to blame? (feat. familypet) Prod. Freddy Dire

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