SMOKE (prod. Gemstone)

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and all the things u said
it lingers in my head
i close my eyes and 
i wish tht i was dead
but now is not my time
they gotta see me shyne
i pray to the sky 
let my angel wings fly
i shed a tear once
then i never been the same
i need to let it go
but u drive me insane
u play me like a game 
i love it either way 
my heart felt something 
tht i miss till this day 

i don’t want to feel this way 
i admit it 
those nights we spent 
i truly do miss it 
i wish u would just pay me a lil visit

i hate tht ur such apart of me
tell me what u really want from me
and we smoking gas pack
we hit the mall
and we fuckin cashed out
since back then
all we did was stand out 
they gave me side eyes 
now they ask me for a shout out 
i’m doing shows with my bros
but u stay stuck on my mind
on the road

and all the things u said
it lingers in my head
i close my eyes and 
i wish tht i was dead
but now is not my time
they gotta see me shyne
i pray to the sky 
let my angel wings fly
i shed a tear once
then i never been the same
i need to let it go
but u drive me insane
u play me like a game 
i love it either way 
my heart felt something 
tht i miss till this day

u still lingerr.. (gauge)

https://open.spotify.com/track/4EEJXZKrhPcc8iB1St5E9G?si=4fc279154f7e46f4

prod @neohnq
ft @ilymay <3

lyrics:

@bakasheap:
i wish i couldve healed
memories too real
this time ill forget
but it all feels surreal

feel like i could cry my heart out in tears 
never knew that seeing you is what id fear
told u its hard for me but u dont rly care
bby ur the only one for u i can bear

sorry tht i felt that
not sure why i felt bad
i dont rly care for ur love anyway
thts what i been telling myself everyday
telling myself everyday

@ilymay:
tell myself everyday ima be fine
nothings been the same since that one night
i cant see thru all the tears that i cry 
dont wna say goodbye 
your who i rely 
im crying i dont wna think ab u at all 
im trying but u know its taking its toll 
so tell me why’d u hav to do me like that 
all the time that we spent i cannot get it back nooo

@bakasheap:
feel like i could cry my heart out in tears 
never knew that seeing you is what id fear
told u its hard for me but u dont rly care
bby ur the only one for u i can bear

sorry tht i felt that
not sure why i felt bad
i dont rly care for ur love anyway
thts what i been telling myself everyday
telling myself everyday

forget u +may (neohn)

diegointhedark - remember (snippet)

guts

if i could right it…

if i could right it
den u kno i say wat i wanna say bb
fear deez moments dey been passing by me lately
i feel lost in it :/
i was down i was trapped
i was crossing it ☦
nd i just kno u want it close

aye yuh
i jus wanna kno
bb i jus wanna..
eat me up inside idon feel right
do u wann glo?
bb i cnt keep dis frm u like..
bb we can glo!
nvr cannot do it cnt decide
youll makeup ur mind

itz not the face tht i remember tht it was
watch the days go by nd it hurts
i wanna tell the truth but all i say is lies
ik u hate me bb
jus kno i hate me 2 ..
jus kno i hate me 2 :(

cant u see i just wanna make u proud :*
cant u see i dont wanna let u down

Spotify

lost in it

when i find the words to say it hurts
and draw lines in the dirt and stand up for my worth
u got a lot of nerve to sit back and hurt me
know its all on purpose try again its not working

and its a lot of time id have in my hands
if i didnt give in to u doing damage
and i stumble i fall never had any chance
and now u look back at me failing like ur perfect
i tried to hold an arm out
but u wanna pry act like its not normal
u wonder what happened to all the friends you would tell off
never looking in the mirror 
ur reflections not getting cleaner

i was tryna change to something ud want
i cant breathe when ur hands around my neck im trying
told u i would be the one u would call
dont communicate just take off
when i try all i can dos stall
trying to make myself useful
every chance u break away 
how much can i endure in a day
talk to other people tryna save face
try all i can ur not putting in work

ur not putting in work
wish u woulda told me at first

and its a lot of time id have in my hands
if i didnt give in to u doing damage
and i stumble i fall never had any chance
and now u look back at me failing like ur perfect
and its a lot of time uve had left to call
and if u wanted to try u wouldnt drop the ball
and i stumble i fall never had any chance
and now u look back at me failing like ur perfect

and when i see u i cant help it 
i feel bitter than ever
wish u woulda broke it off a year ago 
id be doing so much better
if i had that time i would spend it
on something that woulda served me much better
say u wont break it off like that never
u say were on this journey together

diegointhedark - remember (snippet)

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