Gear involved:
Sterling Audio SP50
ESP LTD M-330R
Silvertone PSSN2
Blackstar DIST-X
Behringer Digital Delay
Peavey Delta Blues 115
Sennheiser e609 Silver (Cone almost-center)
Audio Technica ATM-650 (Cone edge)
Washburn XB-102 (direct, through Amplitube 3, Fender Bassman 300 PRO)
Toontrack Drumkit from Hell
Miroslav Philharmonik Steinberg piano
Sonar X1


Lyrics:
Fear, like a flea in my eye
Peelin' back the cornea inside
Like any overlay,
Never let me
be, hypnotized,
I don't mind, yeah,

Because the after image is what I want
I never can let it go
You're gonna let me watch it a million times

I know that it's my time,
Gonna leave it on my mind

Near and so far, in my arms
Even through the filter, I'm aware
One gives it what it needs, 
Never let me
be, agonized,
I don't mind, I DON'T!

Because the after image is what I want
I never can let it go
You're gonna let me watch it a million times

I know that you don't mind
Gonna leave it on my mind

Afterimage

Deliver Me

A deliberately loose sort of rock-folk-acoustic-gypsy-latin mashup. Includes a shed-door "bass drum," spiral notebook guiros, and other improvisations.

Bittersweet moment

Oh, it's a bittersweet moment
of things I have to leave behind
My only choice, proceed with caution
When eminence is undefined

Tell me, I don't really care

True it's a bittersweet comment (That it's a better way)
To lead myself and carry on (On an aimless journey)
To take the scissors, squeeze them softly
Cut the umbilical divide

It's fast, it's strange
This black depression, it reigns
Pocked with holes of optimism
Yet satisfied all the same

Oh, it's a bittersweet thought, I
admit that I was often wrong
So odd to overstep my bounds now
To let the awkward feelings go

Tell me, I don't really care

To taste that bittersweet karma (Sickening my soul)
That once I was too blind to feel (As it nailed me up there)
The empathy is not a weakness
It is a strength, something to fear!

Tell me, I don't really care

It's fast, it's strange
This black depression, it reigns
Pocked with holes of optimism
Yet satisfied all the same

It's fast, it's strange
It cannot be contained
Balance faith and understanding
Our side has its way

Bittersweet Moment

Gear involved:
Sterling Audio SP50
Focusrite Scarlett 2i4
ESP LTD M-330R
Silvertone PSSN2
Squier Bullet Tele, neck pickup
Blackstar DIST-X
Peavey Delta Blues 115
Sennheiser e609 Silver (Cone almost-center)
Audio Technica ATM-650 (Cone edge)
Washburn XB-102 (direct, through Amplitube 3, Fender Bassman 300 PRO)
Toontrack Metal! Expansion
Sonar X1

One time, got a hand in the gutter
Another one is locked on freedom's keys
Time is hopped up on artificial dopamine,

Life's done, hand it off to another
Take a puff, and down chain it goes
After all, we're just searching for what it means to be free

We've got nothing to fear anymore
We've got everything to live for  

Ten miles, drivin off of the rails now
To grab the things we love, they run us through
Movin' fast, with half of the top down, can you breathe?

Don't look, at least not from the outside
It's looking like we're outta control
These knuckles, white, holdin' tighter than it takes to bleed

We've got nothing to fear anymore
We've got everything to live for 
When all of the world just won't last  
We're just takin' a different.. 
 
track.

We've got nothing to fear anymore
We've got everything to live for
When all of the world just won't last
We're just takin' a different.. 

Past that, gotta move for the next one
Squeeze the life out just before it dies
Take a long sip of artificial dopamine

Break off, gotta chase for another
The energy and lust, it dissipates
Temporary and discretionary, be wary, Yes, we see

We've got nothing to fear anymore
We've got everything to live for
We've got no one to fear anymore
We've got everything...

Nothing To Fear

Doing some veeeery basic experimentation with Ohmicide. No automation or anything quite yet- one step at a time.

Erudite

This is what happens when you haven't touched the trumpet in months. And haven't really played in years. Thank goodness for editing and a little bit of Melodyne.

Misty- basic Trumpet cover

Time for something with a bit of a slow burn.

Sometimes
I think about you and how you're empty
At least your heart is
In the right place, just not at the right time

But what I mean is
I wish you weren't so friendly
And what I mean is
I wish you would just care

The image
Is that so much more than the answer?
To live as monuments 
To passing standards, edicts of those long dead

To old tradition, Look again
Things I respect, but don't hold anymore
Break the window, Let in, 
The cold that I love

This coat of black ice
Collar of conceit, 
The dollar of belief,

What do I buy? Worthless, am I?
Because of how I'm seen?

And what I believe
Has taken over me
The negativity
Suppressed by the madness
Of living in a sacred malady

You know that old man
The one that lived there, beneath your callow skin
You may have shunned him,
But still he stands there, weathering through tides
You are a changed man, 
Sympathetic, Empathetic, and yet alone
You are a chained man,
The expectation of delectation

And what I believe
Has taken over me
The negativity
Suppressed by the madness
Of living in a sacred malady

Sacred

Linked together 
To feel as one
Cross the line, 
and you're fucking up the system

Everybody's not gonna blink, sink
Not gonna waste all this
Life I hold

Just listen to the same victims
Is it good, is it safe? Can you stand for what you say?
Do you believe?
Let me hear!

The fearsome black is coming
Cherish standing shadowed while you can
After all you've gotta kill the boy to make the man and show me that you own this

I want to sabotage the system
I want to bastardize the status quo

Fine, it's on your dime
This special and exquisite poison, 

you will taste fear
For doom comes for us all

Fine, it's all fair
When odds are on your side and favour
What happens then, 
When the player runs the house?

When the ehtereal masses rise

Isotheral
To burn as one
Stand aside
'Cause we're fucking up the system

Everybody's not gonna stop
Until the mask is off
vocally heard

Just listen to the same victims
Is it good, is it safe? Can you stand for what you say?
Do you believe?
Let me hear!

The fearsome black is coming
Cherish standing shadowed while you can
After all you've gotta kill the boy to make the man and show me that you own this

I want to sabotage the system
I want to bastardize the status quo  

Isotheral

Midnight doodle: Fountains

AFTER THE LIGHTS HAVE TURNED DOWN
I'M JUST AS COMMON AS YOU

I cast it off like an effervescent attitude
Amidst your company, I've got something to show, to do
Acquiesce the mingling and the small talk, Just watch this grin
Cause tonight 
It exists only for you

After the lights have turned down
I'm just as common as you
After the lights have turned down
You might say I'm afraid of the dark

Pray to myself
That everything will be okay
Please don't condemn me 
For those things I don't say

Rise to occasion
And tell me
No, I don't want to believe.
You aren't amazing,
you're just like me

The show goes on
To juggle life and fantasy
Walk without bracing, it's hair-raising, terrifying
I push away, not out of hate, but out of balancing 
You bet I wanna be somewhere friendly
Instead of watching me burn

After the lights have turned down
I'm just as helpless as you 
After the lights have turned down
Hold me tight, I've got nothing to lose

Pray to myself
That everything will be okay
Please don't condemn me 
For everything that I say

Rise to occasion
And tell me
No, I don't want to believe
You are amazing,
you're just like me

Subsurface

Echo

Progeny

We are creators
Imitators of a perfect world
Sculpt pretty people
Demons evil, in static flight

And when the clay is in
The real show begins
We turn the fires into life

We have the vision
skill based fission
then we recombine
Inflection to invention
build it, to reach the sky

For planets in our reach
Cheat death temporary
Until the supernova lights

And we all have our own
That we pour from our souls
Hope that begins to breathe
Else we bleed

sets us apart from the machine

And the oils of our lamps
Burn at both ends of our hands
Paint with fire, build with blood
Will you remember me?

Put two fingers on the pulse
Turn volume up to ten
Save emotion for the climax
Feed your expectations once
twice, only then it starves
Makes things a little interesting

Dodge perfection with respect
Hold your values to your chest
Watch me do it my own way

Put your idols on the fire
Melt them down into wire
Sew it into everything

And we all have our own
That we pour from our souls
Hope that begins to breathe
Else we bleed

And the oils of our lamps
Burn at both ends of our hands
Paint with fire, build with blood
Will you remember me?

Will you cherish me? 



Creators

Swan Song

Descent and delirium
The fever dream grips us so hard
Can't awake...

The world abandoned us for the others
Feel like everything's dead
Again

Forty leagues beneath the graves of brothers
 
Once more
I spit in your eye, 
to clean away the soil 

Look at the iron son
Amplifying terror of the terrible ones
Raining fire and hell
On your children (Think of the children!)

Look at the iron gun
Aiming at the innocent, or at the flood?
Will you give in to fear, or
Lay your arms down?

Define a field with a single blossom
Is it a flower or a weed? Nobody knows...
And do they care?

With open arms, the maiden beckons
Oceans of fire, rabid mistrust,
Secrets laid out so bare
What's there to hide?

Shadows of the altars have tainted all your lives

Once more
You spit in our eyes
And bury us in soil

Is it an unfamiliar face,
Do you see murder in those eyes?

Chased by vitriol
Douse them in burning oil
They can't feel it anyway

Look at the iron son
Amplifying terror of the terrible ones
Raining fire and hell
On your children (Think of the children)

Look at the iron gun
Aiming at the innocent, or at the flood?
Will you give in to fear, or
Lay your arms down? 

Fever Dream

CarmineAngel

Velvet Leaves

Beneath the cowl of a wide brimmed hat, it stares into the sun

A great desire to satiate its needs, it can't until the shadows
Until the shadows fall

"I offer my hand to you
You're gonna fight it
I offer my hand to you
And take you for my own
And break you in my arms!"

"Eyes always open
Mind always twistin'
Lives always glistenin'
Consumed in me"

It never dies, it's only passed along, between reflective tongues

A broken legend of a broken man, it's now a solitary
A solitary beast

"I offer my hand to you
You're gonna fight it
I offer my hand to you
And take you for my own
And break you in my arms!"

"Eyes always open
Mind always twistin'
Lives always glistenin'
Consumed in me!
"
What's this plague beset on me?
Bitterness I taste...

(Let me in your head, I want your mind, your flesh, your soul
Belong to me, it's all i ask, subserviate yourself and let me have your world
You won't regret it, won't believe it, what i have immortal essence
Now I germinate and watch your world)

Fall away,
Fall away,
Fall away...

I feel like I'm losing nothing
To put my hands in front of it and hold
Its superficial lies

Get the help It really needs,
Take it to the place it doesn't care
It doesn't care to die in...

The Consumer

This song's about the Christmas shopping season!

Thanks to Corinne Newbegin for contributing on violin!

HEY YOU HEY ME HEY EVERYONE
Am I not familiar, at all?  
Say it every day, you want it,
Say you want it, please, give it to me!

DONT GIVE UP PLEASING EVERYONE
I need my marionette, just one
Beneath this skin a fire burns,
Say you want it, please, give it to me! 

These strings are strong against my whole
Catch me now, leash me in again, before I lose my self to you
And madness brought about,
The tarts are down, I gotta take you out, before I look into my heart

I KNOW YOU BETTER THAN YOU KNOW
I dictate what is beautiful
Teeth of diamond, fists of gold,
Say you want it, please, give it to me!

LAY DOWN AND BREAK THE OTHERS' BONES
Beneath the ashes of conclusion
Defeat the means, define your gain,
Say you want it, please, give it to me! 


These strings are strong against my whole
Catch me now, leash me in again, before I lose my self to you
And madness brought about,
This madness burned my heart!


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