i am crying in a corner, i gave in and started yet another wip

and you love (love love)
can you love? (love love)

and you love, love, love
can you love, love, love?

love, la-la-love, la-la-love, and love and and
I love you, I love you,
I love you, I love you

yet repeated "and"s and "love"s and "you"s. quite wonderous and peculiar don't you think. love is nice

N U Love

i have decided to allow direct downloads for all of my tracks on all 3 of my accounts.

feel free to use my tracks in animations, videos, remixes and etc. if you want to as long as you credit me (and in case of remixes, mashups, etc, the original artist as well) properly.

to download you should be able to just click the "...More" button and get the option to download the track.

unfortunately sc seems to be downloading the file with the original name it had before i gave it a proper one when uploading it so you might have to manually rename some of the downloaded tracks, especially when it comes to wips.

ANNOUNCEMENT: downloads have been enabled for all my uploads! (read track description)

when you-wh-when the diy lobotomy was a success (wip or smthn idk)

uhm don’t mind the photo (for the third time so far by now)

LYRICS >:) (may be triggering as it contains mild sexual references and mentions of religious trauma)


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A SLEEPLESS SUNDAY MORNING IS NOTHING NEW TO ME
THERE'S SOMETHING ABOUT THAT DAY THAT MAKES MY BODY WEAK
THE ITCHY TIGHTS AND DRESSES, THE WALLS THAT MAKE YOU BURN
THE PAIN IS NECESSARY FOR A GODLESS CHILD TO LEARN

WHEN I WAS 8 THEY BATHED ME, THEIR WATER MADE ME PURE
WHAT DID AN 8-YEAR OLD HAVE TO ASK FOR FORGIVENESS FOR?
THAT PAINTING MADE BY MAN, THE DEPICTED DIVINE...
IF MY LIFE IS SPENT IN WORSHIP, THEN IS IT REALLY MINE?

"HOW STUPID COULD SOMEONE BE TO BELIEVE THEM?"
"HOW STUPID WOULD YOU HAVE TO BE TO BELIEVE THEM?"
I WAS THAT STUPID. I AM THE ONE YOU DEMONIZE.
I WAS THE ONE WHO SUFFERED, AND STILL STUPID, IN YOUR EYES.

HEAVENLY FATHER, PLEASE ALTER THIS BODY
IT'S IMPURE AND SINFUL, I DON'T WANT IT ON ME
MY SKIN IS BURNING UP, TEMPTATION IS TOO MUCH
CAN'T SEEM TO KEEP MY LEGS TOGETHER
MAKE ME BLESSED, MAKE ME BETTER

A SLEEPLESS SATURDAY NIGHT IS NOTHING NEW TO ME
BECAUSE, SOMEWHERE IN MY BRAIN, I KNOW THE NEXT DAY'S COMING
A PAVLOVIAN RESPONSE TO MEN CARRYING TRAYS
THE DEAFENING SILENCE AS ALL THE KIDS PRETEND TO PRAY

THEY SAID THE MAN IN THE SKY WHO'S ALWAYS WATCHING ME,
WITH WHITER CLOTHS AND PALER SKIN THAN YOU HAVE EVER SEEN,
A MAN THAT I HAVE NEVER MET AND MAYBE NEVER WILL,
THEY SAID THAT I MUST BEG AND WEEP FOR HIS FORGIVENESS STILL

THEY PUT ME IN THEIR TANK OF WATER, IT WAS WONDERFUL.
ONE OF THE FISH THAT JESUS FED THEM, STILL INSIDE THE BOWL
I CRIED INSIDE THE BATHROOM, MY WHITE DRESS GOT ALL WET
IF JESUS LOVES ME NOW, THEN WHY DO I FEEL SO UPSET?

HEAVENLY FATHER, PLEASE ALTER THIS BODY
IT'S IMPURE AND SINFUL, I DON'T WANT IT ON ME
MY SKIN IS BURNING UP, TEMPTATION IS TOO MUCH
CAN'T SEEM TO KEEP MY STORY STRAIGHT
THE GOD I LOVE'S A MAN I HATE

A BUILDING OF WORSHIP WITH CAMERAS FOR SAFETY
A GOD THAT WILL LOVE ME WILL ALSO BERATE ME
EVEN IF YOU DON'T WANT TO GET TO KNOW HIM,
WE'RE GONNA MAKE SURE THAT YOU GET TO KNOW HIM.
EVEN IF YOU DON'T WANT TO GET TO KNOW HIM,
WE'RE GONNA MAKE SURE THAT YOU GET TO KNOW HIM.

HEAVENLY FATHER, PLEASE ALTER THIS BODY
IT'S IMPURE AND SINFUL, I DON'T WANT IT ON ME
MY SKIN IS BURNING UP, EXPECTATION IS TOO MUCH
YOU'VE BROKEN MY HEART INTO PIECES
MAYBE I NO LONGER NEED IT.

HEAVENLY FATHER, PLEASE ALTER THIS BODY
IT'S IMPURE AND SINFUL, I DON'T WANT IT ON ME
MY SKIN IS BURNING UP, TEMPTATION IS TOO MUCH
CAN'T SEEM TO KEEP MY LEGS TOGETHER
MAKE ME BLESSED, MAKE ME BETTER

HEAVENLY FATHER, PLEASE ALTER THIS BODY
IT'S IMPURE AND SINFUL, I DON'T WANT IT ON ME
MY SKIN IS BURNING UP, TEMPTATION IS TOO MUCH
CAN'T SEEM TO KEEP MY LEGS TOGETHER
MAKE ME BLESSED, MAKE ME BETTER

HEAVENLY FATHER, PLEASE ALTER THIS BODY
SAVE YOURSELF. SAVE YOURSELF. SAVE YOURSELF. PLEASE.
IT'S IMPURE AND SINFUL, I DON'T WANT IT ON ME
BE YOUR OWN GOD. YOU ARE FREE.
MY SKIN IS BURNING UP, TEMPTATION IS TOO MUCH
CAN'T SEEM TO KEEP MY LEGS TOGETHER
MAKE ME BLESSED, MAKE ME BETTER

I STILL GET LETTERS FROM THEM
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO
I WANNA BE FRUSTRATED
BUT I KNOW THEY'RE VICTIMS TOO

THAT PART OF MY LIFE IS GONE,
LET THE SCREEN FADE TO BLACK
"AND SO IT CAME TO PASS,"
THAT I AM NEVER LOOKING BACK.

Irreverent Girl - weevildoing (sped up)

I made this track for a very great roblox game that you should check out: https://www.roblox.com/games/11645956561/the-single-scarlet-poppy-in-a-field-of-stars

Cake Boss Phase 3

so yeah like the title says, i finally set up a ko-fi page so anyone who wants to can support me by throwing some coins my way:
https://ko-fi.com/diminishedmind

for clarity, this likely won't motivate me to finish and post tracks quicker or more often bc that's not something my brain is capable of even if someone held a gun to it lmao (chronically low motivation and energy are fun), i'll probably still be uploading and finishing things at my usual pace, so only donate if you're content with that

audio is an original i started ages ago and haven't found the motivation to pick up again yet lol

hi i made a ko-fi page for anyone wishing to support me :3 (read description)

waiting for you

Axel ist auch dabei

This original is quite old.

Lyrics: 

What should i think, i don't know, oh help me so 
i can stop the vile mess, that exists in my head.

So tell me why did you do what you've done 
so i can understand and i can move on. 

Tell me how i should feel 
who i can trust and who isn't real.

So tell me how i should feel, i should think, i should live
'cus i don't know, i'm a mess, so i put my mind in your hands. 
 
So tell me why did you do what you've done 
so i can understand 'cus i can't move on. 

Tell me why i feel what i feel
i think i'd rather not feel anything.

Tell Me ft. Eleanor Forte [SynthV Original Song]

yet another wip. let's be honest, i probably won't finish this one either

You're free to use my tracks in videos, animations, etc. as long as credit is provided.
If you have questions or just want to say hi, my discord is: diminished_mind (Diminished Mind#2060) (i might take a few days to respond tho)
I don't really reply to comments, sorry.
My 2 other SC accounts are linked below.