Hikikomori

Sad hours

H I R A E T H

Trials Of Tribulations

Retribution

Girl lets go for a ride
We can talk tonight
This one last time
This one last time

Girl you were mine
(Now your not)

Now your not
Yeah i know
Ive been fucked up
But i can show
That i still love this
You still love that
I cant trust you
I cant go back

We cant go back to the start again
All alone again

You were on me
Now you just dont want me

I held your hand, i felt your pain
i felt your skin
But you chose him
X2

Girl lets go for a ride
We can talk tonight
This one last time
This one last time

Girl you were mine
(Now your not)

Now your not
Yeah i know
Ive been fucked up
But i can show
That i still love this
You still love that
I cant trust you
I cant go back

We cant go back to the start again
All alone again

Ill be known for this
Drink away my sins
Demons seeping in
Are you looking in
To my heart
I fall apart

You Were Mine, Now You're Not (prod. sketchmyname)

This was one of my first songs. Back when I recorded on my phone. Didn’t know a thing about music, didn’t use a metronome. I leave this up to serve as a reminder to myself to stay humble and stay inspired.

Practically Home

[PROD. IOF]
https://soundcloud.com/prodiof

SUISAI
https://soundcloud.com/sushisai

ERISU:

You don’t know what it means to me..
'Cause I’ve been hurt more than you can see!
What lies beneath my skin is something unreal...
Behind your face shows a thousand ways to heal!

It’s okay, it didn’t really hurt for me!
My BLACK HEART captures all the pain numbing!
AND ALL MY EFFORTS BURNED DOWN InTO the Ashtray..
All I wanted is to feel at least something...

And Would you even care if I sent my soul to die for you?
IT’S ALL I WANTED was to see you goddamn smile!
Smile for me beneath the pale moonlight!
Because the darkness gets lonely sometimes..

And I believe you can save me somehow!
The way you look at me gets me through this HELL!
And maybe one day I will see the light!
But for now can you bring me through the night?!

Save me, Lover!
Savor me!

Tell my pretty lies..
It’s all I need!


I don’t need the truth,
I wanted fantasies!

So cut my eyes out!

And feed them to me!

SUISAI:

'Cause its been way too long!
I'm beat up the least you could do
Is just see through those promises you made a waste of space in us
What used to be beautifully
Crafted now rusted
Just blown to the edge of the cliff
It mustve been to late
Wish that you could relate
Wish all of the signs that you show
Wouldnt Lead to 
unfinished roads
Lucky i havent hit that dead end yet
Cause ive been through too much shit to be let down
again~ again~~
Painting pictures in my head
Of where everything worked out
Of where all this shit worked out

A THOUSAND WAYS TO HEAL - ERISU X SUISAI [PROD. IOF]

(prod. by discent)

You Are Eternal..


LYRICS:

Fill my lungs, I don’t wanna breath!
The man in my reflection just isn’t me!
I wanna come clean, bitch you changed me!
The blood on my hands just can't come clean!

You stabbed me soft with broken glass so I could feel!
I wanna thank you for all of the blood you helped spill!
'Cause knowing what you are underneath all my sweetest dreams!
You’re nothing but the whore who ruined FUCKING EVERYTHING!!

'CAUSE YOU WERE HURTING ME JUST TO FEEL!
AND I WAS WISHING THIS JUST WASN’T REAL!!

I SHOULD’VE KNOWN THAT NOBODY COULD EVER LOVE ME!!
I JUST DIDN’T THINK THAT YOU WOULD EVER HURT ME!

'CAUSE YOU WERE BREAKING ME JUST TO KILL!!
TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME JUST FOR A CHEAP THRILL!

YOU WERE ADDICTION IN THE DARK, 
THE LIGHT CAN'T STOP ME!!!
I WONT LET GO, YOU KNOW THAT YOU’RE MY DARKEST FANTASY!

MY DARKEST FANTASY (prod. by discent)

(Prod. by Dead Spyro & Wellfed)
MIX & MASTER: https://soundcloud.com/frvrndalwys

You can never be saved..

LYRICS:

It’s like a dream, I can’t seem to wake the fuck up
I can’t breath but she loves it when I struggle
She can’t see but all the pain she’s caused has fucked us
When I blow up I bet she’ll be running back 'cause..

You’re like a leech, all you want is just my blood, Fuck!
I can’t breath 'Cause she’s spreading her own virus!
I can scream but that won’t break down the silence!
Check my vitals 'cause she’s lost in her own BIAS!

She’s infected by her own fucking Virus,
She’s been gone along time but she can’t fight it!

I can’t do this anymore, 
I can’t save her..

I’ll just pop these pills 
So I can sleep Forever...

Please forgive me,
I’ve been ghosting, I’ve been hiding
I tried to get away So why are you inviting?
I swear that I can’t stand your mouth 'Cause you’ve been lying!
Spreading on your virus,
Fuck,
Why are you crying?!

It’s like a dream, I can’t seem to wake the fuck up
I can’t breath but she loves it when I struggle
She can’t see but all the pain she’s caused has fucked us
When I blow up I bet she’ll be running back 'cause..

Save me, Someone! Please just call the Fucking Sirens!
I’m on the floor bleeding out but no one cares 'Cause!!


All I am is just a boy with all these Problems!
All you are is just a girl that’s filled with Toxin!! 

Who will save me when the dark is calling for me?! 
Who will be there when she snaps back to reality?!!


You’re like a leech, all you want is just my blood, Fuck!
I can’t breath 'Cause she’s spreading her own Virus!
I can scream but that won’t break down the Silence!
Check her vitals cause she’s lost in her own VIRUS!!!

INFECTED BY HER OWN VIRUS (Prod. by Dead Spyro & Wellfed)

(prod. by discent)

It'll all end in the Dark..

Lyrics:

I still hate my life!
No, I’m not alright!
No, it won’t be fine!

If this takes my life,
These pills and flashing lights!
It’ll all be fine!

Cause you were So beautiful!
Like something made of miracles!
Take the breath right out of both my lungs!!
Ripped to pieces; what we were both known to be..

If it hurts then let it end your life!
Let it end tonight!
Let it end tonight!!

If it hurts then let it suck you dry!
Destroy your life! 
Destroy your life!!

I’ve been going crazy
going through some problems
Nothing helps me anymore I can’t solve them
You were all the reason I could find to face them
Now that you’re dead the xannies make me faceless..


Beat me,
Tear me down to pieces,
I’m not worth it!

Let me drown in my own blood 
Until I’m livid!

I can see them Watching, watch me close the curtains!

Say goodbye to all the shit that made me worth shit!


If you say that this is only for the better..
Why the fuck do I feel worse than I have ever?!

If you wanna know how I’ve been,
I’m still BREATHING!!
It’s the ONLY Way To know MY HEART’S Still BEATING!!!

I still hate my life!
No, I’m not alright!
No, it won’t be fine!

If this takes my life,
These pills and flashing lights!
It’ll all be fine!

Cause you were So beautiful!
Like something made of miracles!
Take the breath right out of both my lungs!!
Ripped to pieces; what we were both known to be..

If it hurts then let it end your life!
Let it end tonight!
Let it end tonight!!

If it hurts then let it suck you dry!
Destroy your life! 
Destroy your life!!

I'M STILL BREATHING! (prod. by discent)

Toxic

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Toxic

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