[Verse 1]
That neon paints a different pane
I know the sound of city rain
On alley floors where there's no light
You trade her world for endless night
You see a future in her eyes
I see the place where wonder dies
This city's built on hearts that break
I know that price, for goodness sake.

[Chorus]
You take that sparkle, full of glee
And drag her where the shadows flee
You call it sunshine, fresh and new
I know what this grey sky will do
You think this city is a brand new world
But she gets tossed and hurled
Your little sparkle, a burning wick
This city's patient, cold, and sick.

[Verse 2]
No forts of sheets, just concrete stairs
That lead to cold and vacant stares
You'll kill her giggles, one by one
Beneath an artificial sun
You'll take the drawings from her hand
And teach her shame she'll understand
She'll learn new stories from the grime
And lose herself there, given time.

[Chorus]
You take that sparkle, full of glee
And drag her where the shadows flee
You call it sunshine, fresh and new
I know what this grey sky will do
You think this city is a brand new world
But she gets tossed and hurled
Your little sparkle, a burning wick
This city's patient, cold, and sick.

[Bridge]
And as she grows, day by broken day
You'll watch her colors drain away
You promised her you'd hold her tight
You'll lose her to the U-Bahn light
This place reminded me how to bleed
And plant a bitter, broken seed
You see a gift, a precious thing
I hear the lonely dirge she'll sing.

[Chorus]
You take that sparkle, full of glee
And drag her where I used to be
You call it sunshine, fresh and new
I know what this grey sky will do
You think this city is a brand new world
But she gets tossed and hurled
Your little sparkle, a burning wick
God, this city's cold and sick.

[Outro]
Yeah, you'll pretend that it's all right
Another star in a sea of night.
You say you love her, through and through...
But this City will love her suffering, too.

Still me, but different

You take that sparkle

[Verse 1]
Yeah…
We drew the blueprints on a napkin, sketched a city in the stars
Bought the hype and sold the future, never showed 'em all the scars
Promised them a golden era, built on circuits and on trust
Didn't see the wires fraying, didn't see the coming rust
Now the rain that falls is digital, the sky's a glitching screen
And the kingdom that we fought for is the coldest place I've seen
I walk through empty avenues we swore would teem with life
Cutting through the silence with a cold and quiet knife.

[Pre-Chorus]
I see the ghosts of what we planned in every pixelated light
I hear the echo of a promise fading in the endless night
This perfect world is breaking, I can feel the system crash…

[Chorus]
We're living in a Neon Wasteland, a paradise undone!
I'm deleting all the memories, erasing every one!
This beautiful illusion was a lie we couldn't keep
So I'll set this dream on fire while the architects all sleep!

[Verse 2]
You still patrol the borders of this dream we overran
Pointing at the schematics, saying "stick to the damn plan"
You polish all the chrome until it shines just like a tear
Ignoring all the warning signs, pretending not to hear
The core is in meltdown, but you're fixing up the fence
And none of this utopia is making any sense
You're ruling over ashes, calling everything just fine
But your revolution is no longer mine.

[Pre-Chorus]
I see the cracks inside your code, the flaws you can't disguise
I'm tired of the fiction I can see behind your eyes
This perfect world is breaking, I can feel the system crash…

[Chorus]
We're living in a Neon Wasteland, a paradise undone!
I'm deleting all the memories, erasing every one!
This beautiful illusion was a lie we couldn't keep
So I'll set this dream on fire while the architects all sleep!

[Bridge]
We built it all so high just to watch it all fall…
Was any of it real? Was any of it real at all?

[Chorus]
WE'RE LIVING IN A NEON WASTELAND, A PARADISE UNDONE!
I'M DELETING ALL THE MEMORIES, ERASING EVERY ONE!
THIS BEAUTIFUL ILLUSION WAS A LIE WE COULDN'T KEEP
SO I'LL SET THIS DREAM ON FIRE WHILE THE ARCHITECTS ALL SLEEP!

[Outro]
System failure.
Reboot required.
Logging out.
…offline.

Soul Siblings

Neon Wasteland (Nu Mix)

[Verse 1]
Yeah...
A silhouette in a crowded room, just a face without a name
I paint a smile on, play the part, but the feeling stays the same
Every word I try to speak gets swallowed by the sound
Like I'm screaming underwater, watching everyone else drown
In the noise, in the static of a world that moves too fast
Try to hold on to the present, but I'm haunted by the past
Another crack in the foundation, another chip off the stone
Stuck inside this echo chamber, talking to myself alone.

[Pre-Chorus]
I see the fire in your eyes is fading out to grey
I hear the whispers of the words you're too afraid to say
The air is getting heavy, I can feel the coming storm...

[Chorus]
I'm breaking through the silence that you hide behind!
Shattering the mirrors you left in my mind!
This quiet desperation is a war you'll never win
I won't let the static pull you in!

[Verse 2]
I trace the battle lines on maps that only I can read
Planting promises like flowers, but they suffocate like weeds
You reach for me, but all you feel is a ghost inside the shell
A prisoner in a paradise I built to be my hell
I know you're on the outside, trying to break the lock and key
But the architect of this whole prison, yeah, the architect is me.
So I turn the volume louder, let the feedback fill the space
Anything to just erase the look that's on your face.

[Pre-Chorus]
I see the fortress that you've built is about to fall
I'm screaming back to answer every single silent call
The air is getting heavy, I can feel the coming storm...

[Chorus]
I'm breaking through the silence that you hide behind!
Shattering the mirrors you left in my mind!
This quiet desperation is a war you'll never win
I won't let the static pull you in!

[Bridge]
Can you hear me now?
Through all the noise...
Can you hear me now?

[Chorus]
I'M BREAKING THROUGH THE SILENCE THAT YOU HIDE BEHIND!
SHATTERING THE MIRRORS YOU LEFT IN MY MIND!
THIS QUIET DESPERATION IS A WAR YOU'LL NEVER WIN
I WON'T LET THE STATIC PULL YOU IN!

[Outro]
...the static pulls you in...
...pulls you in...
...gone...

The static pulls you in

In concrete veins, the poison flows
The city breathes, a dying rose
We sold the sky for a little more light
Now a rusting sun bleeds into the night
The children play with bones and wire
Setting their plastic dreams on fire
Yeah, we built our heaven on a fault line crack
And we all know there's no turning back

I wear my skin like a porcelain tear
A pretty shell for all the fear
We are the glass-eyed dolls on display
Winding down at the end of the day
Our lullabies are the static's hiss
Sealed with a sterile, digital kiss
We traded our souls for a silicon dream
And nobody hears you when the future screams

This is the eulogy for the unborn
The anthem for the beautifully torn
So let's dance on the ashes of our last desire
And feed our hearts to the growing fire
Welcome, welcome to the final show
We are the afterglow
The future is a cancer in a sugar-coat
The last prayer stuck in a dying throat

God is a glitch in the mainframe's hum
A broken promise for the deaf and dumb
The angels are choking on acid rain
Selling salvation for a little more pain
We crucify ourselves on screens of blue
For a 'like', a 'share', a "we love you"
It's the new religion, the sacred lie
A perfect world where we all can die

Love is a code we forgot how to write
A ghost that flickers in the pale moonlight
I trace the scars on your vacant face
Another product I can't replace
We whisper secrets in algorithms deep
While our hollow bodies are fast asleep
This empty stage is our only home
Under a broken, holographic dome

This is the eulogy for the unborn
The anthem for the beautifully torn
So let's dance on the ashes of our last desire
And feed our hearts to the growing fire
Welcome, welcome to the final show
We are the afterglow
The future is a cancer in a sugar-coat
The last prayer stuck in a dying throat

Countdown to zero!
We are the beautiful ruin!
Inhale the fallout!
Exhale the human!
We are the virus and the cure, so pure, so pure!

This is the eulogy for the unborn
The anthem for the beautifully torn
So let's dance on the ashes of our last desire
And feed our hearts to the growing fire
Welcome, welcome to the final show
We are the afterglow
The future is a cancer in a sugar-coat
The last prayer stuck in a dying throat

The afterglow...
We are the afterglow...
fade to nothing... (nothing)

The afterglow

Streetlights are painting gold on your face
We're sitting here, leaving so much space
And every joke you tell, every time you laugh
It's like you're tearing my composure in half
You tuck your hair behind your ear
And suddenly the air in here
Is thick with words we're too afraid to say
I watch your lips and I just have to pray

'cause this is my promise, this is a vow
I love you forever, and I need you right now
Forget the whole world and the stars above
I'm waited a lifetime for your love
There's only one truth, the only thing I miss
Is the simple, silent, certainty of your kiss
Just finally, finally, give me this

Your shoulder's brushing up against mine
And I feel a shiver run right down my spine
We talk about movies, we talk about bands
While I'm just staring at your hands
And thinking how they'd feel in my hair
A silent question hanging in the air
Are you feeling it too, this magnetic pull?
My heart is aching, my head is full

'cause this is my promise, this is a vow
I love you forever, and I need you right now
Forget the whole world and the stars above
I'm waited a lifetime for your love
There's only one truth, the only thing I miss
Is the simple, silent, certainty of your kiss
Just finally, finally, give me this
Küss mich endlich! 

Maybe I'm a fool to want it so bad
The best, most dangerous friend I've ever had
And maybe I'm breaking all my rules
But I'm tired of playing, tired of being cool
The space between us feels a mile wide
There's nowhere left for my feelings to hide
Ich will nur dich!

'cause this is my promise, this is a vow
I love you forever, and I need you right now
Forget the whole world and the stars above
I'm waited a lifetime for your love
There's only one truth, the only thing I miss
Is the simple, silent, certainty of your kiss
Just finally... would you finally give me this?

Just close the distance.
End the suspense.
It all makes perfect, beautiful sense.
Just lean in slowly...
And kiss me.
...Please, kiss me.
Bitte, küss mich!

Kiss me

J'ai déjà vu le temps s arrêter et vous ?

ZIMMER HANS Time 2_3 (Cover by John IRIDIUM of Hyper Sensitive Perceptions)

Plus nous souffrons plus nous comprenons ?

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In parts of Asia, to lose one’s face is to lose one’s name — a quiet collapse of identity.
Guilt and atonement blur the lines between self and shadow, until the body moves but the name does not return.
This song lives in that space — between recognition and disappearance.

DEUTSCHE BESCHREIBUNG:
In Teilen Asiens bedeutet es, sein Gesicht zu verlieren – und damit auch seinen Namen.
Schuld und Sühne verwischen die Grenzen zwischen Ich und Schatten, bis der Körper weitergeht, aber der Name nicht zurückkehrt.
Dieser Song spielt in genau diesem Zwischenraum – zwischen Erkennen und Verschwinden.

LYRICS (ENGLISH):
Awake
Without a name

I Walk
Through glass
I Fade
Through frame
Remember me
No one came

The Streets
Once again
The Steps
The same
I Never asked
I took the blame

So Close
Can you hear my voice
So Low
Inside the noise

A Name I Lost — It calls me still
A Name I Lost — Against my will
It Moves through glass and skin and rain
A Name I Lost — But I remain

Lost!
Carry me
Lost!
Lost!
Bury me

A Name I Lost — Still calls from far
A Name I Lost — Defines who we are
It Glows in dust and time and pain
A Name I Lost — Yet I remain

Awake
Without a name

Awake
Without a name

LYRICS (DEUTSCH):
Erwacht
Ohne Namen

Ich Gehe
Durch Glas
Ich Verblasse
Durch Rahmen
Erinnere dich an mich
Doch niemand kam

Die Straßen
Wieder einmal
Die Schritte
Die Gleichen
Ich Fragte nie
Ich Trug die Schuld

So Nah
Hörst du meine Stimme
So Tief
Im Geräusch

Ein Name, Den Ich Verlor — Er Ruft Mich Noch
Ein Name, Den Ich Verlor — Gegen Meinen Willen
Er Zieht Durch Glas Und Haut Und Regen
Ein Name, Den Ich Verlor — Doch Ich Bleibe

Verloren!
Trag Mich
Verloren!
Verloren!
Begrab Mich

Ein Name, Den Ich Verlor — Ruft Noch Von Weit
Ein Name, Den Ich Verlor — Bestimmt, Wer Wir Sind
Er Glüht In Staub Und Zeit Und Schmerz
Ein Name, Den Ich Verlor — Und Doch Besteh Ich

Erwacht
Ohne Namen

Erwacht
Ohne Namen

A Name I Lost

I’m dirmardor.
My music lives in the field of Shadow Future Pop — a blend of electronic pulse, dark romantic tension, and the steel edge of Neue Deutsche Härte.
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The sound draws from synth depth, cinematic structure, and the emotion of real voice.

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