honestly Im really struggling to finish music bc i cant get rid of feeling that it just sounds not good enough.

so i created this demo with only one purpose in mind: to get it done in one day and just post it.

rn my ears r too defeated to say if its even mixed well????????//////// really want to stop caring about it so here u go hope ull like it

holy shit feels like i got a fucking stroke when i switched "private" to "public". i shouldnt be that nervous

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im fine just gotta see the light inside 
raise hands n w8 till the lighting strikes 
condense the parts till it breaks the line 
im fine just ve never really seen her eyes  
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screws up its tight 
cant fake my lies 
chins up u r blind 
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i never catch a sight  
in a way 
u do  ･ﾟ｡
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feels like its cry 
cant change our sides 
search useless finds  
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can u see  
the way  
i do･ﾟ｡
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DEMO-626-XXX-NOT-L00

4 of 9
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don't do this again
and I won't run away
can I be a friend?
since you want me to stay
go down to the pasture
and get what you need
could you go any faster?
you're all I can see
all I want is you
don't know about it anymore
maybe it's just the shadow of being with you that I really want
but all I know is you
all I know is you
all I know is you
all I know is you

a walk to the pasture is my only friend
and I know I can never be with you again
a walk to the pasture is my only friend
and I know I can never be with you again


where is the end? where is the line?
I get it now I think I do
if it's just a dream then I'm a contortion
I get it now I think I do
where is the end? where is the line?
I get it now I think I do
if it's just a dream then I'm a contortion
I get it now I think I do

gggggrrrraaaaaahhhhhhh

Contortion dream (album version)

entry four of six

live bass in intro by @americalovesme

you ate me alive—
devoured each inch 
like you thought i was yours
i thought that you said 
that you’d treat me like an angel 
but angels all fall
and it’s always so painful

you cried when i didn’t taste just how you wanted
you craved it like fruit
but i guess it was rotten
a pig at the trough 
but the trough was a coffin

take what
you can get
to avoid to be alone
feel regret
and now i look in the mirror
and i want to turn to dust
how does anyone do this
and not feel disgust

i never wanted it to be this way
i belong to myself 
and that’s how it should stay 
you can cremate my body
no one can have it anymore
i don’t want it to exist
cause i don’t want it to be yours

coffin

when i was five and eighteen weeks, peat mud on my knees
my father climbed the maple tree and hung me up a swing
and i flew so high that i could almost touch the infant leaves
cause i could do anything, i could do anything at all

i'm not the man i thought i'd be when i was seventeen
the ground's a little further now, the tree is still a tree
and i fumble on the swing, i'm a samara in the breeze
not knowing anything, no i don't know anything at all

we'll have a house in Alberta
or at least far away from the shore
with a tree swing out in the garden
and somebody to hang it for
oh i tried hard to find where you were hurting
cause i wanted to give you the world
but i've learned you're no map and i'm no Atlas
and i can't do anything, cause i'm not anything at all

you took me by surprise when you convinced me to concede
i thought you were a forest but i missed you for the trees
how foolish to assume that you would never burn the leaves
oh you can't keep anything
we can't be anything at all

we'll have a house in the mountains
somewhere far far away from the shore
and the tree swing out in the garden
will be somebody's open door
oh i thought i was right for a moment
cause the blood in my eyes was the world
but in the morning we'll be a day older
and it won't mean anything, cause i'm not anything at all

anything

goodnight lavender — Moonlight Requiem

Stare at the moon, you follow through
Razors pain you, your dream comes true

She said "Hold my hand", scraping me off the floor
Leave the ghosts outside, don't let them kill the light
She said "Don't let go", what are you hiding for?
Are we just young and dumb, fading into a lie

A darkened room, your time is due
In endless gloom, it ends with you

She said "Hold my hand", scraping me off the floor
Leave the ghosts outside, don't let them kill the light
And she said "Don't let go", what are you fighting for?
Are we just young and dumb, fading into a lie

So fire at will
But you'll never kill
What lingers inside
Believe me, I've tried
I'm drowning in pills
This room makes me ill
But you'll never kill
Yeah, you'll never

So don't look back, letting go of the fear
Lost in your starless eyes, bring me into the light
No, don't let go, trapped in a web of lies
And when your eyes have dried, tell them you'll win this time

Moonlight Requiem

A little DnB flip I made for yall of my currently most listend to artist of the last year 2hollis

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2hollis - Gold [Diskrypt Remix]

How could I ever forget?
I will kill all
I will kill all
I will kill all

What could I ever regret?
I condemn all
I condemn all
I condemn all

All I despise
Yeah, all I despise
All I despise
I despise all
A-all

Oh, so funny
Such irony
You in agony
Uh uh uh

Who could I be?
Who else would I be?
No one but me
Huh

Bloodrust underneath
Toxic fumes I breathe
No more will I seethe
Act out upon thee

Since you all beneath
Get down on your knees
Now’s your turn to bleed
That’s all you get from me

That’s all you get from me
Yeah, what can I say
Uh

Bloodrust

when you have oneshot in the binding of isaac repentance plus as tainted lost w/ parker

IM DOWN

prod. me
mixed/mastered by me + jedwill
soprano vox lead : rosesleeves
verses : rosesleeves + jedwill + button maker
editors notes: this beat had a lot of renovation done to it over a while, i made almost all of these sounds myself including that cool bass :) the melody was mainly inspired by a segment in an old melodic fuckery thing i found on newgrounds i dont remember the name of, and the ending epic pad section was inspired by fka by underscores and i think the riser into it may sample it as well

lyrics:
[phixel]
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace

[rosesleeves]
i’m so damn gone babe
take a pill to the brain
can’t help feeling lost i
guess i was made this way
it always feels the same
can’t make it go away
it-it-it hurts so bad
and i can’t make it change

[phixel]
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace

[jedwill]
Ah

You know that I miss you when I call you lately
I can never talk, I’m confusing, hate me
Why do I avoid your time
Just like I avoid your eyes
But did you catch that you just might miss it
I think about you a lot but I’ve been distant
I’m sorry guess it’s just my loss
You’re precious I should count your cost
I’ve waited long
It’s all so soft
My heart was locked
You make me calm

[button maker]
Ooh I'm lost in my own headspace
(Can't help but feel like I'm losing control) 
Ooh, Always last in the race
(I've waited so many, so many lifetimes)
And I know it may never be my time
(It's so confusing, like, headache inducing)
Ooh,  even though it's always the same
(I wouldn't have it any other way)

[phixel]
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace

[rosesleeves]
i’m so damn gone babe
take a pill to the brain
can’t help feeling lost i
guess i was made this way
it always feels the same
can’t make it go away
it-it-it hurts so bad
and i can’t make it change

[phixel]
ouch you're intruding, dont make me lose it
wish i could erase you from my headspace
ouch you're confusing, you're so elusive
wish i could erase you from my headspace

headspace w/ rosesleeves + jedwill + button maker

prod. Lizdek

(lyrics)

7 shots in my head
7 shots you're in bed
alcohol & credit cards was all that you could love
7 shots in my head 
7 shots you're in be
held by you so tight but i felt lonely as it's night

wish i was in a different life
wish i could say something right
wish i could tell if they cared only
but it;s alright, i'll just stay lonely by your side

7 shots in my head
7 shots you're in bed
kept me all alone in isolation it got worse
7 shots in my head
7 shots you're in bed
day dreamin' or sleepin' of the moment it felt right

fuck you for not letting me enjoy the rain
scent of mint carved in the side of my brain

write it on my collarbone to make it real once more
7 shots go through my head and onto the floor
told me once again how i make you feel so poor
all you say you want is my love but don't give yours

7 shots at the wall
7 shots till they call
pounding on my door 
won't leave me lone
since you've been gone

7 shots not enough
7 shots dare to bluff
gets better they say 
but damage done
what have i become

7 shots in my head
7 shots you're in be
alcohol & credit cards was all that you could love
7 shots in my head
7 shots you're in bed
held by you so tight but i felt lonely as it's night

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