Monster/5am (dercept)

ONE THING'S CERTAIN W/ SHIKI XO [+love, matt x pekarot]

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headphones on my head like every night
i dont have friends ive got me to fight
welcome to my life, ill help you see them, see them
i have a strange feeling that its the end, the end.

im addicted to my death and im addicted to this pattern
i realized every choice boils down to the same kind of people
and same kind of morals
and same kind of morals, so what do you believe in?
do you really think that this life has a meaning?
did you really think that id let you off easily?
oh hell fucking no ill come down on you like you did in my dreams
i know hes confused but i dont think i care
night time comes and once again you are a disgrace baby
you look entirely defaced lets rewind baby
to first base
when your place wasnt my place
ive always had shit to say but now im fucking say it 
cause ive spent too long putting up with it 
woah
 woah
  yeah i bet you got a death wish
see me in my room tied up by my necklace
you scandalously walk thru all my halls for an answer
but theres no answer
i float thru these walls as a ghost 
i see you in my grasp, getting close
imma pull you in
imma make you regret every single thing you did
no one will ever know..
what i did to you, cause i always kept my mouth closed
like you should have done about me 
keep it quiet and i wont ever fuck you up
dont worry bout it man the season calls for it
dont worry bout my plan youll know when it hits
this shit is really how i feel and theres only one
person that i wouldnt lie to
its my microphone
dont call your home
your soul will always be bound to my tomb
our stories in stone 
you took over my throne 
and now were just bones 
drink poison and enjoy it
basically my point is 
our puny love was disjointed
by you
by you
i float thru these walls as a ghost
i see you in my grasp getting close
imma pull you in
imma make you regret every single thing you did
no one will ever know 
what i did to you cause i always kept my mouth close
this is a story about all my demons 
welcome to my head, ill help you see them
when i hit 19 might as well be the end
i dont wanna die but im really not living
so stay a little longer just to make it funner
when i go under, please dont suffer

white lies lead to murder (domesticsoul)

prod. @nate2timezz
Photo taken by: https://www.instagram.com/signed_ch/

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4J6Kn6onleb3ZmW1W2wkLJ?si=eeb8bb19e1c44304
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=alA8OHWlt8w

plsplsplsplspls
ｄｏｎｔ ｌｅａｖｅ ｍｅ ｏｎ ｒｅａｄ
📖🚫😭

Lyrics:
Saul Good wanna leave me on read
That's a easy way to get stuck in my head
I know im fucked up
Now im spillin red
Your just like the drugs
Put my feet on the edge

I check my phone over and over
Cause im a loner
Used to that tone
Your just a ghoster
Sucks being sober

Mixing prescription with the cocaine
Is this the drugs or heartache
Another hoe in my brain
Got me here feeling insane

Saul Good wanna leave me on read
That's a easy way to get stuck in my head
I know im fucked up
Now im spillin red
Your just like the drugs
Put my feet on the edge

I check my phone over and over
Cause im a loner
Used to that tone
Your just a ghoster
Sucks being sober

Saul Good (Prod. nate2timez)

prod me./
-
tonight
hold me
inside
its fine
your alright
you don't like when i tell you the truth sometimes
WE FIGHT!

I DONT LIKE IT ALL
im blind
CAN YOU TELL ME WHATS UP IN YOUR MIND 
TRYNA FEND FOR MYSELF WHEN YOU DIED
but i promise to god, that i tried  

good luck, im gone, and i ran away
its your time, its not worth, and the pain i see
its all luck
im wasted, oh drugs
can take you so far
cant make me, a star

good luck, i wish you, the best i guess
its not THE WAY!
I MISS YOU AGAIN!
IM TIRED, IM BLED
i tried
i tried!
Wonder why you lied!

Make
a mess
again
i
wait 

a master, holds 
his heart
away
and keeps it tucked away safe
I'm not
like I want to be
my life, is a wreck
ill apologize, when I can

make me feel something

prod. irby & jolst

i got fuckin' turned around 
and i had no option but..
to love it,
ｔｏ　ｌｏｖｅ　ｉｔ
i got shot down,
all of my ideas are in the ground now
( take my soul out.. )
we always had eachother,
we were never undercover.

have you ever felt it all at the same time?
well, i did; and i think this will be the last time
you said "i hope we're okay.." 
well, "i hope we are too."
and i never meant all the hurtful shit i did 2 uuu ;(

i think that we should just say "fuck this shit" and run away
( i mean like, )
i mean, what more can we gain from this if we stay the same?
( i dont mean no. . )
i dont mean harm, i just dont know how to spit it out..
and i dont want death, but my mind cant see it-
GOIN' ANY OTHER WAY!!!
( this is destiny )
WAY!!!
IM SORRY!!!

✧･ﾟ: ✧･ﾟ:

i got fuckin' turned around 
and i had no option but..
to love it,
ｔｏ　ｌｏｖｅ　ｉｔ
i got shot down,
all of my ideas are in the ground now..
( take my soul out )
we always had eachother,
we were never under.

oo..~

HAVE YOU EVER FELT IT ALL AT THE SAME TIME?!
WELL, I DID, AND NOW I CANT FEEL ANYTHING AT ALL!
no one else,
no one else,
no one else, no
and i never meant all the hurtful shit i said to uuu.. u-u..

( fuck this shit, and run away )
( i mean like, )
( what more can we gain from this? )
( what more can we gain from this? )
( staaay.. )

i dont mean harm, i just dont know how to spit it out
and i dont want death, but my mind cant see it 
going any other way
・❥・ｗａｙ・❥・

there's nothing more violent than what i felt

See Me

why did you do that, im hurt so i fled
i just wanted to see you again
now the city it hurts, i would try once again
im laying alone, you're the one in my head

i don't want see you to fret
i don't wanna see you dead
i just wanted to be friends now
why are you inside my head?

the pain you left me and stress
keep messing up my days now
ima alone now
you say im silly yeah when i freak out 
its the same

you don't remember my name
im kicking and crying got stories to say
im out late in the night with my friends till its day
im tryna be okay
i want you here to stay
i know apologies will fade now its over

 why'd you break my heart like that
sticking in the knife, now im crying, its the end
pacing back and fourth i had someone to talk again
but your sick inside the head you left me out here in the end

wait a sec
I'm way too gone
i need someone
my heart is alone
*ohh, ohhh ohh*

I don't want see you to fret
I don't wanna see you dead
i just wanted to be friends now
why are you inside my head?

the pain you left me and stress
keep messing up my days now
ima alone now
you say I'm silly yeah when i freak out 
its the same

you don't remember my name
I'm kicking and crying got stories to say
I'm out late in the night with my friends till its day
I'm tryna be okay
I want you here to stay
I know apologies will fade now its over

kicking and crying (prod. AsharpTheOne)

02

just imagine..

lyrics

with a tenderness in my throat

she takes the advantage in a nice tone

she takes off the writings on the wall

she knows my memorys taking its toll

/

in summer of 1917  this choice was proven costly

never forgave but once layed down a poppy, in memry of u 

u were standing with  crying over this severed tomb

a mourning of 51 years, unexpected doom

/

it was u and it was me and it as us x 3

and now its u and now its dust

/

those that fell, all crumbled to nothing 

jus a distant thought and an empty sort of loving 

in this town not many make an impact

held back by the past it just keeps running

/

running and running 

is something funny

take u somewhere fancy where branches die and birds cant fly

to a place thats shaded and never been sunny

i hope that i can make this day just lovely

/

with a tenderness in my throat

she takes the advantage in a nice tone

she takes off the writings on the wall

she knows my memorys taking its toll

/

in the winter of, well many years later 

there was a change of course

a meet ur maker sort of moment for everyone that was there witness it

many lives lost but as many had begun with theirs

/

it was u and it was me and it as us x 3

and now its u and now its dust

/

rubble and bone had been the history for so long

a seemingly ordinary day had made hearts warm

snow falls down, in this grey and white town

but no abyss will the eyes be drawn (to)

/

no pain or suffering 

may b lost but 0 buffering

take u somewhere where the flowers hit potential, somewhere special

where only u and me can create these memories

ik intention wise tho that u were never a friend to me

someplace where things always reach their potential

someplace where things always reach their potential (stillvanishing)

prod me :)

lyrics:

well the rain started falling bout an hour ago
i know that clouds are in the sky
but i promise you'll be dry right
here
i swear that every day away lasts a hundred years
but every moment we're together 
seems to buckle under
pressure
and disappear

oooo

and i could tell you it'll be okay
but i would rather u just see for yourself
don't wait any longer
no don't wait for any help
cuz the rain will stop soon
and i'll greet u
with a smile on my face
please don't turn away
please don't turn away

well the rain started falling bout an hour ago
i know that clouds are in the sky
but i promise you'll be dry right
here
i swear that every day away lasts a hundred years
but every moment we're together 
seems to buckle under
pressure
and disappear

I WISH

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