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such a mess

bags by clairo ( a cover)

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She's Got Scars

She's Got Scars (Ft. lullabyboy) [Prod.YVNG AX$TN]

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kind of a throwaway but i needed to get it off my chest

produced by @caspr and @irby314 go follow them :) 

lyrics:
i been missing u for months maybe years now
everything was fine until i left but i see clear now
call you hoping that we could go back but i don't think though
its a stupid fucking problem i can't say no

hey, tell me, would u come back?
all the time we spent together would u throw it all away?
hey, maybe, im just upset that
you were the best i ever had and now im living with the pain.

(another text, another call with no reply)
another text another call with no reply
i thought we loved each other guess that was a lie
tell me something that i don't know
your words always feel like a low blow
remember u through our photos
friends asking if im okay, man i don't know.
she was my saving grace
pushing my thoughts away
thinkin of her while she's happy with him
man im such a waste of space
its hard for me to say
the words inside my brain
im happy for her but it shouldn't be him
but i fucked it up again
i fucked it up again

hey [prod. caspr x irby]

hey [caves x irby]

go follow 
lyrics:
striveau chorus:
is this my mental breakdown
i can't wait now
is this my mental breakdown
on a thursday
am i way too late for your sake
baby
times are getting hard life is rough have you had enough
i show you love take you out we can watch the stars
i know life's a cunt but we only need a restart
we can wait it out
i'll finish my mental breakdown

wstdyth:
you don't know me
i'm sorry
only up when the sky gets starry
stay awake guayaki and some coffee
indica smoke got me coughing

the dark worlds told me to come back
i'm stepping down to the deep in my rafs
i met god got a backstage pass
lost mind took another fucking tab

please don't call me
need some time to myself i be waking
please don't call me

striveau verse:
from the start i knew i was a goner
lost my mind at the end of the summer
zip my lips for a little bit longer
a tribute to my life that's right it's an honor

take my soul and rip my heart out
flesh and bones break me down
i need clout
no need to be loud you don't need to shout
take me on a ride i'm living life
on a roundabout

i can't seem to fly solo
please don't be a no show
my feelings are a no go zone for your torture
i can't bare the horror
i only want to love you
so don't leave me here on my own

don't sweet talk to me
unless i need to hear
your cute voice in my ear

mental breakdown ft. wstdyth

big sad

Lyrics:
I've been asking myself where'd the time go,
I've been tryna get up but the blinds closed,
She don't love she just loves the way I get her un clothed,
I'm cold but where the fuck the time go,

Spent to long in my bedroom,
Questioning myself like maybe should I call u?
U deserve the world with out me in it,
Cause I always seem to fuck up from the pain within,
Watch me die,
Summertime,
Wish that u were by my side,
Can't go back,
Back in time, 
When I first made u mine, 
You where shy when I kissed u first time, 
I can't lie think I lost you in the wrong time,

where'd the time go? :( (prod. misery)

a bunch of unfinished / unreleased tracks from my 3 month "hiatus"

scars

prod. @jufie

fly away
to the top of every mountain
where you get to meet the sun and moon
toss away
everything you held so dearly
like the heart that kept you whole and true
pass out on the ride to every moment
that mends your soul
koi begin to spin in circles
learn about the young and old

swim in the depths of the vapor
don't ask me i'll explain later
no one around so it's calm
enter the portal to home

i got horns but i'm glad you have a halo
you have wings i have a tail like an arrow
floating up to the clouds you're an angel
falling down to the core i'm a devil
listen to the sun and moon when they speak
everything will live and die in a blink
of an eye
we will die
fast asleep with blankets 
wrapped around your bed
figure out the balance 
of what's good and bad
inside your head
the light will bend
sleep until the stars align then wake again

swim in the depths of the vapor
don't ask me i'll explain later
no one around so it's calm
enter the portal to home

koi (prod. jufie)

la porte, california

lyrics:

don't mean to cut away
from the things that you need
i've been trapped inside the snow
and you made my heart bleed
i travel around the world
just to call this place home
i love you 
but everything else i don't know
i don't want to talk about me anymore
i could quit this now and finally shut the door
but i'd never cut away
from the things that you need
so you can leave me here
and i'll let it be

i'll it be 
it's easy to see
what could happen to you
could happen to me
when i lost you yesterday
i couldn't see myself another night
but for you i think i might just stay
i'll stay

(chorus)

CEILING

DYING IN THE CUT