𝙁𝙍𝙀𝙀/𝙎𝙏𝙔𝙇𝙀 prod. Impala Drummerz

Guitar/Vocals: DIV/DED


Everytime that I lost my self control-
My heart fell black and I was on my own
Look in my eyes, you can tell I'm gone inside-
If you wanna bet my life, go on
If you really knew me, you'd know I'm trynna save me-
Get out of my head and get out on my own.
I'm destined to be lonely-
Please don't fucking show me
Used to slipping through the cracks and coming up on my own 

And if we lost it all-
No, I wouldn't take the fall
No, I'd bare that shit all on my own
And if I called no you wouldn't care at all
If you picked up- 
If you picked up I wouldn't talk at all.


Everytime you speak I swear we lost it
Everytime you've crossed my mind I've dodged it
Set fire to my eyes, I made a locket-
To remind myself this was all gonna cost me
Broken, I'm selfish, and I don't know how to love
I'm silent, misspoken my words can't say enough
Why the fuck am I like this?
Why the fuck am I like this... 

No, I wouldn't take the fall
No, I'd bare this shit all on my own
And if I called no you wouldn't care at all-
If you picked up I wouldn't talk at all. 

Everytime that I lost my self control-
My heart fell black and I was on my own
Look in my eyes, you can tell I'm gone inside-
If you wanna bet my life, go on


𝙊𝙣 𝙈𝙮 𝙊𝙬𝙣 /Raw Acoustic/

𝐅𝐥𝐞𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 /Raw Acoustic/

𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐄 // Prod. Malloy

/𝘎𝘖𝘕𝘌/ (prod. Heath Stone)

Lyrics:
I fall hard with emotion
I don't care if you notice
Every time acting like you don't know
You're in line with these motives-
Hoping that you can control us
Every time acting like I don't know

Broken down so much
Everytime I leave the house feeling like I've lost touch
Oh-
Thinking that I've messed it up-
This life that I'm living doesn't seem so vivid uh uh

No lie-
I'm just wasting my time feeling like I'm dead inside
Missing your touch like I've missed so much
Blacking out all the time where do these visions hide?
Losing matches-
Burning bridges-
Can't calm down with all these voices loud in my head
oh, I need it-
Dependent-
If I can't think what do I say when things go wrong in the end?

I've got nothing left to believe in
So my heart starts with leaving
These thoughts you don't see them
Just emptiness alone in the end

FALL [prod. DIV/DED]

Stranger (live performance demo) [prod. subro]

I will never be officially dropping this song so feel free to freestyle in the open part. 😎

K/Y/P (prod. theo)

/make you mine/
/thats what you said
what you said, what you said, yeah/

what were your intentions?
i think you forgot to mention that
am I overthinking?
im stressed so much that my conscience turned black
/uh/
why was this the answer?
for you to run and never look back
were these your worst intentions?
and were my efforts not enough to keep your attention?

always wanted what you wanted
what i always bought that shit was never flaunted-
never flaunted 
/oh/
everything I need pushed to the side-
now the thoughts in my head leave me haunted
was trapped_ felt attacked_ got attached
my heart slowed, now it's beating fast
my head always clouded,
ill drag myself down to the grave like you wanted, uh

you said you would make me yours
but you broke me down, left me unsure
i miss who we were thats for sure
i would call but_ 
fuck it

Ｔ／Ｗ／Ｙ／Ｓ

ＳＵＢＬ／ＭＩＮＡＬ

ＳＯＵＬＳ

get me out of my head
i cant take it, I cant take it
all I do is wait it out
i cant fake it, I cant fake it anymore
you all walked out the door
now Im sitting here frustrated
wondering why you don't come around no more

if communication holds the key_
ive lost i like i always do-
in their mind they up and tossed it
im walking the wrong path searching,
hoping I might cross it
/i might/

all I do is strike my feelings up-
and watch myself burn to the ground
cant put it out, cant put it out
theres no one 'round to help,
my eyes can't drown out the sounds-
my flesh it burns like hell
cant distract myself, cant distract myself

what do i do except wait patiently?
pace around the room accepting what I_ll never be
motivation has no concept,
just moving through with caution
/moving through with caution because/

its easy to tell when you dont care
its easy to tell when you're not there
i know too much.
/i know too much/
i know too much.

Ｉ ＫＮ_Ｗ

composure, it flows over me,
my conscience at its weakest 
but i sit and hope that,
i think i can hope that,
im not always fading alone in gray
seems like im always in the wrong place
i slip in and out, black and white,
watch them decay
im standing on my own stuck at my own pace
ill walk my own path,
know no better way
somehow deep down i dont think i can change
i know what ive lost and there's nothing to take its place

you dont need closure until its gone
the hardest part of life is that you cant move on
broken, youre bleeding, forget who you were
swear it all feels like a god damn curse
cause all i do is feel like im the worst
project these thoughts and feelings into every word

i know the world is broken
but this time its my own throat im choking

ＣＨＯＫＩＮＧ




you took my heart away from me
why'd you have to leave

ɴ_ᴛʜɪɴɢ １１／１

I think it's 8 months flew by now, the clock don't look right
I've lost all my sight still can't sleep through the night
I wake up, you're gone- I know that I was wrong this time

Force myself to go outside, but I struggle to fight
When I leave the house I'm reminded of what I left
We'd fight then make up- we decide to go walking
I miss you beside me, when we were talking

Rolling up in my car and your head on my shoulder,
Problems never mattered when you'd pull my arm closer
Now the heart on my sleeve it just stays getting colder

I think it's 8 months flew by now, the clock don't look right
I've lost all my sight still can't sleep through the night
I wake up, you're gone- I know that I was wrong this time

I miss this
and I miss you
I miss this
but I miss you too

８?

*UNRELEASED*
prod. silo x capsctrl

Lyrics:
You're dead to me- yet I can't breathe.
our destiny torn from our sleeve
Yeah, I know we went and fucked it up
Yeah, I know now that I've said too much

You said you were sorry then, but now what's the purpose?
You went back on your words- that's fucked up and useless.
You said some shit and now you can't reverse it.
I gave it back and now you say I'm worthless.

/Eyes so red- you're so dead to me/
/I can't see if I can believe/

👻:
Drownin'
Drownin' in this water I've been drownin'
You say that you with me, you ain't with me
Lost a couple homies-
They're still with me.
They're still with me.

DIVIDED:
You said you were with me
I was doing fine until you missed me
Ripped my fucking heart right out my damn chest-
Then you thought you'd wish the best?
Slither your way right out this mess.
Imma still withdraw the rest- choke up my vest.

[Chorus]

👻:
You said that you did your best-
you just left me on my own.
Please don't call my phone
Bitch you know I ain't home.
Got it by myself-
Got it on my own-
I cannot sit back and watch this shit keep going on.

I cannot sit back and watch this shit keep going-


RED:m̶i̶x̶1̶ [2020]

prod. Heath Stone

Lyrics:

👻:
Tell me is that really how you feel?
(Know imma keep it real)
Tell me is that really how you feel?
(You got me fucked up)

Fuck- I just poured lean in my cup
Fuck- Now it's time to go and double up
They sayin- That I don't know how to trust
Lust- I'm sayin what about us?

I know that sometimes I tend to forget
I know that you on my mind just a bit
Keep it real, cause I won't ever fucking quit
No, I know that you won't ever give a shit

DIV/DED:
But I hurt you and no, you won't let me forget
Was it worth it or tell me are you over it?
Can you forgive the shit that I've fucked up with?
Or are you gonna leave- leave me to deal with it?
(Awh, damn)
Thought we were onto something
And then you left me nothing 
I've been lost here in the dark while I fall apart
Making lists all of my dreams- fend off your broken heart, yeah. 
Uh, I guess it wasn't all for nothing?
I learned not to wear my heart on my sleeve
Yeah, Uh, Now I wish that you'd believe me.
So tell me is this really how you feel?



FEEL:m̶i̶x̶1̶ ft. 👻 [2021]

lyrics:

I'm the worst-
That's what they've heard
Believe their morals that fit pictures of my worth
I said, "That's unheard. Karma knows all of it I've got no problem, so why not just be all of it?"
30 bucks in my gas tank-
speeding off, take it all the way
all my fears-
throw them all away
I'm losing focus I won't stop to see another day

stop red lights there's too much traffic
broke my heart and time can't pass it

ᴋᴀʀᴍᴀ

lyrics:

I swear that all my life I've been feeling like shit
Never knew that I'd be 30 still feeling like it
Too much pressure in my head and I think I might quit
When I turned 19 I should've made the shot click
Instead of pulling on my chain, I should've pulled on the trigger
If I wasn't in my head it would've made it all quicker
Which is like they say- never say never
If it wasn't for the weather wouldn't have made it all better

Go back to the start
Wherever you are
It's not that hard
To reach for the stars

If you wanna get to know me, get to know me and forget the old me
Yeah
Everything before me, 'cause you'll only get off the old team, yeah  

/im tired 'cause i know im your favorite,
you feel it cause with me you're weightless
you see it even when I'm complaining that/

I swear that all my life I've been feeling like shit
Never knew that I'll be 30 still feeling like it
Too much pressure in my head and I think I might quit
When I turned 19 I should've made the shot click
Instead of pulling on my chain, I should've pulled on the trigger
If I wasn't in my head it would've made it all quicker
Which is like they say- never say never
If it wasn't for the weather wouldn't have made it all better

Go back to the start
Wherever you are
It's not that hard

ʀᴇᴀᴄʜ

lyrics//

I'm burdening to you
a burning like before
I run straight to you
when I'm needing more

I come back to myself,
I feel nothing at all
I come back to myself,
I feel nothing at all

ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴛᴏ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ

Produced by: DIV/DED
Recorded by: PROD. JOMAR & DIV/DED
Mix/Master: PROD. JOMAR

lyrics:

chorus:
Tell me what to do-
because I've been laid up thinking bout you and I didn't wanna choose-
but it felt so wrong letting me get to you.

/just wait/
I'll hesitate-

I push and pull the wrong way
try to fight but you won't stay
I've lost myself and I'm so afraid
can't find my way I lost my compass, aye.

stuck on a path but there's one way out-
the buzz in my chest it won't fade now.
blacking out on my way down.
I can't fake it 'cause it's too loud

ʜᴇꜱɪᴛᴀᴛᴇ

lyrics:

One moment you exist, then the next-
you're hidden
20 years pass, but it's gone in a minute.
Sever my ties, lose control, living instant.
Viciously change my life, growing distant-
I'm distant.
But Imma go the distance this time
Stuck inside, losing solace, I'm not fine
I don't wanna test my luck, but I'm trying-
I've tried
Ideation is in my head saying that I wanna die

Oh, I swear that Imma go the distance this time
Stuck inside, losing solace, I'm not fine
I don't wanna test my luck, but I've tried-
I've tried

I just wanna die

ᴅɪꜱᴛᴀɴᴄᴇ

I've been keeping lowkey
and now nobody knows me
finally feel like I'm at peace
living life at ease

I don't wanna hear, wanna hear what you speak
it's always something else I don't see
sleeping on me- judge my life for entertainment
I've been awake fixing cracks in the pavement

Im on a path back to where I came from
Gonna make it out once I see what I've done
I've been all alone, I believe that I've won
friends all turn their backs to side with randoms
and that's why-

I've been keeping lowkey
and now nobody knows me
Finally feel like I need me
living life like I need

I've been keeping lowkey
and now nobody knows me
I'll always feel like I'm lonely
living life slowly

low_key (demo)

DEMO VERSION [prod. dreadloom]

Lyrics:
Opened up, got a hole in my chest
Weigh down every word, every word that I said
I don't wanna think, wanna think bout my end
It's imminent, I'm expecting the obvious

tear me down to shreds
with my eyes open

I dont wanna think, wanna think like this
but I feel emptiness, running through my chest
wish I could never feel, never feel like this
but I just suffocate, suffocate my breath
It goes straight to my head

I just want to give up, time is wasted here
dont think that I can ever fight my fears
it's every wave after the next,
I'm just stuck inside my head in search for ways that I can make it out

theres too much sound wish I could drown it
I try and try and I can't make a sound
thoughts of hatred keep on screaming out
guess ill just rest until I'm breaking down 

tear me apart at the seams, 
rip me and cut me, I'll bleed
Im just waiting, I'm waiting my turn
just to wade there and lay in the dirt.

SUFFOCATE

TIMELINE

locked in (demo)

(prod. DIV/DED x sketchmyname)
Lyrics:
I don't fight right now.
I don't wanna lie to you.
I don't wanna work this out -
'cause I don't wanna face the truth.
I don't wanna talk right now.

Take my hand don't let it go.
You said we'd make it through high and low -
I guess promises are meant to be broke.
You're breaking down you know that I know.
Falling back to hell I go-
Suffocate in all the smoke.
Cut my circulation, fall in anticipation -
Struggling to rise to the situation.

The Truth [prod. sketchmyname]

(prod. DIV/DED x vaegud & hxrxkiller)
Lyrics:
Tie a noose around your neck just to stand there -
I've been here.
Watch your life flash right before your eyes.
Just to watch yourself suffer - stay alive.

I just wanna take control of myself.
but it seems when I try life turns to hell.
So I'll just isolate myself.

I'll just sit and breathe in the oxygen.
I'll just watch my time come to an end 
I don't wanna know life, but I don't wanna die
so I'm not gonna go where the city don't sleep.

I dream at night - that's enough.
I don't want reality on my side - that's fine.

I'll just sit and breathe in the oxygen.
I'll just watch my time come to an end 
I don't wanna know life, but I don't wanna die
so I'm not gonna go where the city don't sleep.

I'd take control of myself
but when it seems I try life turns to hell.
So I'll just isolate myself.

I'll just sit and breathe in the oxygen.
I'll just watch my time come to an end 
I don't wanna know life, but I don't wanna die
and I'm not gonna go where the city don't sleep.

Breathe.

Clash [prod. vaegud & hxrxkiller]

𝘿𝙄𝙑/𝘿𝙀𝘿 𝙭 𝙂𝙊𝙏𝙃 𝙃𝙄𝙋𝙋𝙄𝙀 - 𝙋𝙇𝙀/𝘼𝙎𝙀 𝘿𝙊𝙉'𝙏 [𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙙. 𝙉𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙖]

𝐖/𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔 [prod. Don't Cry]

𝘌𝘹𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘢𝘭 𝘈𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘴𝘵

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