Mixed and mastered by @southhum
Produced by Lilidentitycrisis 
Artwork by @33life

when you met me

non-profit, shoutout idealism

this song helped start the process of closure for a lot of things for me, I hope you all enjoy it

thanks for listening <3

cacophony [prod. idealism]

You said I'm your main source of happiness
But we're not together so are you okay ?
I worry about you cuz i know your pain 
Baby , you know we're both feeling drained 

Without you a day feels like a week 
I hope that sometimes you think about me
And fuck I barely wanna eat
I swear I barely wanna do shit 

I don't wanna spam u 
It's just that i miss u
I'm just a lil sad
Why is it that bad ?

Inside i feel like you're getting bored of me 
And  it's okay if u do like everybody
I could be thinking bout a false scenario
Or maybe you will leave me on my own

Usually I get you but now I don't understand u 
You could break me i would never hate u
Say it to me if u love me too
For u there's hella shit that i would do

You said I'm your main source of happiness
But we're not together so are you okay ?
I worry about you cuz i know your pain 
Baby , you know we're both feeling drained 

How many lines will I have to write to feel better ?
I think that maybe I'll just need to talk to you later

En elle j'peux lire les espoirs, les peurs
J'ai qu'une seule vie j'peux pas me louper
J'vais vite j'ai pas le temps pour douter
Et cette souffrance elle commence à dater

J'sais même plus où j'aimerais aller
Sur la route du bonheur j'ai calé
J'peux dévier mais j'peux pas reculer
J'ai failli lâcher, putain j'ai collé

Usually I get you but now I don't understand u 
You could break me i would never hate u
Say it to me if u love me too
For u there's hella shit that i would do

You said I'm your main source of happiness
But we're not together so are you okay ?
I worry about you cuz i know your pain 
Baby , you know we're both feeling drained

are you okay ?

are you okay ? (noxiousnights)

I'm looking at my reflection asking "who it is"
It's hard to answer when they ask me how i feel
I'm scared to make em scared saying how i've been
i've seen death and i stared right in her eyes

I'd point it to my head if you passed me the ak
I'm moving too fast you don't wanna stay on my way
I live life to it's fullest cuz it could be my last day
Life taught me you have to fall in love with the pain

Make sacrifices or you're sacrificing success
I worked more than anyone and they'd talk about coincidence

You will always end up getting what you really want
It's gotta be mine if against my head there's a gun
Most of these people bore me yeah i'm not having fun
Traumas looking for me, i've been on the run

You will always end up getting what you really want
It's gotta be mine if against my head there's a gun
Most of these people bore me, I'm not having fun
My traumas looking for me yeah i've been on the run

Heart's racing with everything you say
I still remember your lyrics about me
But everything is so hard to understand
I know you the best but i still don't get it

I might just ghost em all they won't hear of me again
Stay where you are, i don't really care

You will always end up getting what you really want
It's gotta be mine if against my head there's a gun
Most of these people bore me, i'm not having fun
All my traumas are looking for me, i've been on the run

I didn't hear your voice for so long
So i hope you will hear mine in this song
But i know i'm a lost cause, because

You will always end up getting what you really want
It's gotta be mine if against my head there's a gun
Most of these people bore me, i'm not having fun
All my traumas are looking for me, i've been on the run

On The Run

obnoxious + lilidentitycrisis prod. prozmadethis

Disaster

I’m so sick of drugs 
It’s like what you do to me
I’m so sick of love 
This shit not cut out for me 
If you want my line 
Then it cost a fee
I’m so antisocial I don’t know if you could see
I be swimming in Mexico aye you know that’s how I be 
Up up left left right right down down 
Aye you know I got the cheats 
If I let you down
Hit me up I don’t think I’m in town
Shooting up a couple thousand rounds
Run it up I get the check and bounce 
Wish I never have taken the drugs 
I could never sober up 
I feel like they chasing me but I run 
Taking a dab and I’m over it
See you in real time then I dip
I’m not sure I think this is it 
Hop in the whip and I’m smoking a zip 
High in the clouds and I’m thinking it’s over 
High in the clouds and I’m thinking it’s over
Spending the money I think I’m a donor 
She tell me she love me I think that it’s over 
She tell me she love me I think that it’s over
Spending the money I think I’m a donor 
High in the clouds and I’m thinking it’s over
Taking a dab yeah I feel like a stoner 
How can I tell her I love her who knows her 
Feeling so evil you know it’s October
Feeling so evil you know it’s October 
How can I tell her I love her who knows her
Taking a dab yeah I feel like a stoner 

I’m so sick of drugs 
It’s like what you do to me
I’m so sick of love 
This shit not cut out for me 
If you want my line 
Then it cost a fee
I’m so antisocial I don’t know if you could see x2

I’m so sick of drugs 
It’s like what you do to me
I’m so sick of love 
This shit not cut out for me 
If you want my line 
Then it cost a fee
I’m so antisocial I don’t know if you could see(BITCURSHEDDEEDEDD)

Love Drip

to everyone i left behind [prod. black tears]

two months(douskii).wav

lyrics - 

Snow falls down as this weight crushes my mind
I hear every night replay softly in my head
So let me smoke this up till I'm feeling alright
Feeling every word as it leaves me half dead
u can’t heal from pain that u can’t forget
so I learned to smile at the doors of regret
I would write to feel something when there was nothing left
now I feel nothing as I take my last breath
To think our love was great when we first met
With every all-nighters I fall into the same abyss
hoping one day this constant pain can make any sense
maybe I’ll grab her beautiful cutlery that she left
I’ve done worse to myself baby, don't u fret
What if I make it permanent?
Maybe then I'll finally be in my own element 
I'll still bleed when my head hits the pavement
I'll still hide my pain in the form of a statement
Record another song and put on my preset
Whats my next project I'll try to make while I neglect it 
Use to thrive when decemb3r rolled around
Once shit hit the fan hiza and I shut that shit down 
Hurts to think we were comet hopping all around on those comets for a while
But in my heart of hearts I dont fuck with no pedophiles
Snow falls down as this weight crushes my mind
I hear every night replay softly in my head
So let me smoke this up till I'm feeling alright
feeling every word as it leaves me half dead
u can’t heal from pain that u can’t forget
so I learned to smile at the doors of regret
I would write to feel something when there was nothing left