traveling back to my hometown and remembering all the times I hurt my mother in response to her queerphobia

feat. mothgirl

✱ track 6

https://fanlink.to/jstlkeu

mastered by @dossyx
backing vocals by @t0rr, @daywaiter, & @can-of-bliss
shoutout renner for the audio clips & cooper for the voicemail at the end

~~lyrics~~
to a better half:
(are those the words we used?)
you want a better start
but you know i love to lose
through the bitterness
you know you always win
you want a better part
but it's just like you said -

i wanna be just like you
i wanna be just like you
i wanna dress like you
i wanna act like you do

i see you in my dreams now
but usually you're just hanging around
a couple of times i think we made out
but we've never been in this house

"if it feels good, it doesn't mean that it's good"
is a lesson i learned and then misunderstood
so if it feels good, it doesn't mean that it's good
i heard it, i heard it, i wanna be just like you

i wanna be just like you
i wanna be just like you
i wanna trust like you
i wanna love like you do

i wanna be just like you
i wanna be just like you
i wanna trust like you
i wanna love like you do

i wanna be just like, just like, just like
i wanna be just like, just like, just like
i wanna be just like, just like, just like
i wanna be just like, just like, just like

everything✱

just like you

@janeremover
@kmoethekid

HOMESWITCHER EDIT - OUT NOWWWWW

@blueghostmusic

jane remover & kmoe - homeswitcher (blue ghost edit)

from the winter solstice hymn sing (full mix available here: https://soundcloud.com/underscores/hymnsing )

Winter Solstice Hymn Sing, led by underscores


Loansharks (Primadonna edit) [underscores’ True Colors Are Revealed!]

Avaliable on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5f8wXeQdrJBWStxqVC26KD?si=adcccc72fb194708

me on the guitar


[Verse 1]
You'll say it hurts for me to leave
i dont think thats true at all
the pain that you will feel is less
when u got friends to talk to
i retreat
i guess im beat
i retreat
guess im defeated

youll draw art for him and he'll like it
and i'll take the hint while im crying
i guess its a sin this shit im typing
though im feeling pissed i should 
keep these feelings to myself

[Bridge]
wasnt smart
for me to invest my health
into someone
i dont really want

[Chorus]
am i petty for wanting ur energy
i give it all to u but
this is not reciprocal
ik u care for me but its entropy when
ur not living up

am i petty for wanting ur energy
i give it all to u but
this is not reciprocal
ik u care for me but its entropy when
ur not living up

[Verse 2]
ull say it hurts for me to leave
i dont think thats true at all
the pain that you will feel is less
when u got friends to talk to
i retreat
i guess im beat
i retreat
guess im defeated

[Beat change]
You give me the
backhand of your love
you take me for granted
theres no trust
feeling all my senses
go to shit
now im lost, nothings there
I'm stuck with this

[Chorus]
am i petty for wanting ur energy
i give it all to u but
this is not reciprocal
ik u care for me but its entropy when
ur not living up

am i petty for wanting ur energy
i give it all to u but
this is not reciprocal
ik u care for me but its entropy when
ur not living up

[End]
ull say it hurts for me to leave
i dont think thats true at all
the pain that you will feel is less
when u got friends to talk to
i retreat
i guess im beat
i retreat
guess im defeated

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Petty

45 (feat. mothgirl)

@mothgirl @biichftt



lyrics:
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[zombae]

they call me big dick cause i'm back in town
beat a nigga ass for smoking on that black and mild
they called me funny-looking funny told me gun him down
i got no fucks to give to niggas who be making rounds
STILL DON'T KNOW WHERE MY OPPS AT IT'S A MYSTERY
we walking down his house and knock his door like trick or treat
HE BROUGHT AN INSTRUMENT I BROUGHT A FUCKING SYMPHONY
leave that nigga in abject poverty AND misery
he shit himself like dysentry
you nothing but a lick to me
i ain't fuckin with prison cs
i'm fuckin with no bitches see
you cannot take my dick from me

hook:
nyah nyah you a labrat you get catscratched
kitty cat hit my dance dance on you wack ass
just blew through my last rack you ain't have that
heard yo shit then i went to sleep that's a catnap

[mothgirl]
kitty kitty kitty cat
tell me where the baggie’s at
posted up in heaven with my seraphs
smoking girl pack

kitty in the nose , is it snow ?
i don’t know, i don’t care
imma win bitch i don’t play fair !

bitch you get car scratched
i don’t give a rats ass
kitty got the claws , silver jaws
drinkin double tap

hit u with the headshot
chelsea got the lip gloss 
angels fly high through the night
watch our feathers drop

fly like a moth but im pretty like a girl
i got a bad mouth that’ll make ur toes curl
sweet like a cherry but i’m bitter like i’m arsenic
my hammer’s pretty heavy we can finish this quick

[biichftt]

catscratch!!! w/ mothgirl, biichftt [cardcaptor]

chrysalis ft. mothgirl

rise up! o mother of all pains

lyrics:

~ verse 1 ~
pressure building spitting steam from the vents
you caught me in the middle of a fix of the lens
the portrait on the wall will show you what you protect
ironically you are the very lord you resent
tell me again about your mountain of men
i heard a little rumor you belittle your friends
i heard that every soul can lose a chance to repent
admonish me again and ill make war for the spent

~ chorus ~
my head is spinning
im moving sideways 
no chance of winning
its just like always 
the sky is all grey 
torment of all days
cant eat cant sleep cant just stop thinking bout it

my heart is lost now
so much for trying
given up hope now
reign on you tyrant
rusted my lifeline
no use in crying 
cant bleed cant sleep cant just stop thinking bout it

~ verse 2 ~
Rise up! 
O mother of all pains 
to the altar of my verses!
no god 
or hell can make up 
the pitiful misery you wrought thee 

[chorus]

~ verse 3 ~

pressure spent look at the mess you created
when all is said and done theyll only groan at your name 
no pride behind a legend full of nothing but shame
100 years of silence broken only in vain 

[chorus x2]

wand of tens

penetanguishene

7AYLOR, ASTRA, BIICHFTT - BODIES DROP

cover art by: @RyanGurry on twitter

i tried to run away but you always come back to haunt me
offbeat oscillations falling in and out of phase left you stuck in my teeth
wherever you are i hope that youre not hurting 
fallen to earth seemingly holy mourning
things you would say echo around my heartbeat
never thought itd end like this 
angels in my head they go

head in my hands i know that you stopped trying
something to hold onto when i feel like dying 
things that you said forever haunt my psyche
always feared itd end like this 
angels in my head they go

been bleeding for a few days
for a few days 
never leave my room i fall up
this was never my intention 
my intention
angels in my head they go

treehome

DAHLIA CROSS X GOTHNORMIE -- RUSSIAN ROULETTE [SPECTRATIO]

something to tide yall over till i finish ****** ******** * *** *** **** ******
ill put it on spotify soon

it burns like fire
i feel like dying
everything is random like not even trying
i feel like im bones
i feel like im water
how the fucking hell could u even describe this

i wish i was pretty (pretty)
like u
i wish i had soft skin (soft skin)
like u
i wish i had self worth (self worth)
but i dont (i dont)
(oh my god thats so depressing)

i love being normal
i love being normal
im so fucking normal
im so fucking normal
i love being normal
i love being normal
im so fucking normal
im so fucking normal

everyday i feel like a loser
everyday I feel like a loser
(gra oh my god bitch)
everyday i feel like a loser
everyday i feel like a loser

tell me that im real
i cannot believe u
all my trust is ruined
i wanna go home
i wish i felt safe
i wish i felt secure
i dont wanna starve
i dont wanna suffer
i wanna b normal

i wish i was pretty (pretty)
like u
i wish i had soft skin (soft skin)
like u
i wish i had self worth (self worth)
but i dont (oh no!)
(too bad no one fucking cares)

i love being normal
i love being normal
im so fucking normal
im so fucking normal
i love being normal
i love being normal
im so fucking normal
im so fucking normal

bandcamp

I LOVE BEING NORMAL

prod @c3ment

btch i knew it was a lie when u said that u would die for me
knew that u would "cry" otp when i answer
wanna be like that then ima lie too
and btch i hope u fuckin die offa cancer

we cant runnit back nah
my money stack up
home alone i gas up
im speakin facts yu
smoke all in my lungs then i pass out
lean inside my cup i dont pass around

red light when they stop but i still go
bitch im riding round ya block u could hear 
something killed my opp ima cheer
cuz aint nobody gaf what he feel

around (prod. bound)

prod @st1cksyea

@can-of-bliss
@nebita
@quickslvr

grindr w/ can of bliss, nebita, & quickslvr (st1cks)

the starlit sisters & debauched daughters mothgirl cardcaptor Dahlia Cross DDJ Dahlia Maude’s Harvest 

Mother Dullahan Hallowed Sister Porcelain Princess Keeper Of The Factory , Resident Seraph Divine Daughter , Holy Gan Ceann

45 (feat. mothgirl)

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