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Nights to weep

gas me up (feat. my twin fr)

ISSUES

Gave you time, gave you space
Held you down when you lost your way
Never judged, never changed
Played it cool when you act strange
Every fight, I take the fall
Even when I know it’s not my fault
You be out, I stay in
You get love, I don’t win

But I kept showin' up, even empty
Still gave you all when it drained me
You want me there when it’s good
But you gone when it’s heavy

This love ain't one way
You take and never give, then say I changed
Girl, I was all in  you played safe
If love’s a give and go, you just stay
No, this ain’t fair play
I held your pain while you looked away
Now you ask why I don’t feel the same
‘Cause love ain’t one way

You need space? I give that fast
I need time? You never ask
You make rules, I adapt
You break ‘em all and still get a pass
It’s always “you,” never “us”
Your mood swing and I adjust
I get quiet, you get loud
I hold peace, you hold crowd

I was down to ride, even solo
You just want the highs, not the low-low
I was yours, no Plan B
But you moved like you fancy

This love ain't one way
You take and never give, then say I changed
Girl, I was all in  you played safe
If love’s a give and go, you just stay
No, this ain’t fair play
I held your pain while you looked away
Now you ask why I don’t feel the same
‘Cause love ain’t one way

I loved you more than I loved me
And that’s where I lost peace
Now I’m done tryna compete
With your ego on repeat
Love don’t mean shit if it’s just mine
You only show up on your time
Don’t ask me why I’m gone cold
You made this bed  now it’s yours alone

This love ain't one way
You take and never give, then say I changed
Girl, I was all in  you played safe
If love’s a give and go, you just stay
No, this ain’t fair play
I held your pain while you looked away
Now you ask why I don’t feel the same
‘Cause love ain’t one way

One Way

Blue Glass

This song is my plea. I am longing to be truly seen and heard by the man I love. Even inside the relationship I feel alone, craving for him to understand my desires. I'm asking what I can do differently because I want us to work.


See Me

gr8 day

Sparks

two over one 
summer the same
as one over eight
when you still young
you lose everything in love 
you get dumb
i let down my guard
so when i fell
i took it too hard
was bleeding my hand
when it came to you i showed you my cards

said id forget
but i never would 
known you since i was a kid
out at bethelem
known it before we got rid of the pendulum 
shit never swinging in favor 
so cumbersome
im losing sleep over this 
never munny-yun
said you tripping
hit yo ass with a honeybun
im never slipping or falling
im steady im polished
ill always be balling

you are the lovers rock 
the rock that i cling to
the one i swim to in a storm
like a lovers rock
you’re the one
you’re the one
you’re the one
the one i swim to in a storm
(like a lovers rock, like a lovers rock)
you are the lovers rock

lately i been so self concious
talking to myself cause with me im honest
saying i need help is always a problem
but when im with you i know we gone solve it
had to take l’s fore i got to the w’s, 
once you up they always just wanna take from you
left my heart with you so keep it safe bunny boo
know you my sasha, my baby, my honey too

you are the lovers rock 
the rock that i cling to
the one i swim to in a storm
like a lovers rock
you’re the one
you’re the one
you’re the one
the one i swim to in a storm
you are the lovers rock

gr8 day

Lilmamabrat