The fog descends, the path is lost, I know
But fear is cheap, and doubt is but a glass.
My compass spins to where the deep things grow,
Ignoring all the visions that must pass.
I’m carving stone to find the form inside,
The shape of grace beneath the unformed clay,
A child's old dream upon a restless tide,
And every shade unveils a lighter day.

Ambiguity Tolerance, deep and free!
Tolerance for the silence – living can be found.
The light barely touches the ocean floor…
Ambiguity Tolerance, I demand no more!

My mind, a fern in a forgotten wall,
Unfurls to seek the light where shadows creep.
I hold the threads, preventing them to fall,
A tapestry woven from the dark and deep.
A worn-out path, a landscape I embrace,
The tightrope walk with balance as my shield.
No hurried steps to reach the final place,
For in the not-yet-known is truth revealed.

Ambiguity Tolerance, deep and free!
Tolerance for the silence – living can be found.
The light barely touches the ocean floor…
Ambiguity Tolerance, I demand no more!

Come like a weary traveler to my door,
The inn is open, no demand for answers now.
The unresolved is what I wait here for,
Beneath the ever-changing, clouded brow.
It’s like the chameleon’s delicate skin,
Adjusting to the doubt, the fuzzy shade.
The inner ocean where new life begins,
Where all my fears and longings are allayed.

Oh, Ambiguity Tolerance, deep and free!
The hidden rhythm of a world unbound.
Tolerance for the silence under the sea,
Ambiguity where living can be found.
The light barely touches the ocean floor…
Ambiguity Tolerance, I demand no more!

I am the Master of the Gut. 
I am the Rhythm in the Rain. 
The Unknown is my only Art. 
Tolerance – this is my Game!

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Arrangement and vocals: Volker Redder, Udio, GarageBand
Loops and samples: Volker Redder, GarageBand
Editing and sound design: Volker Redder, Ozone 11, Sound Studio, GarageBand
Lyrics: Volker Redder, translated with the help of Google Translate
Cover design: Volker Redder, Photoshop, FLUXpro

Ambiguity Tolerance

"Redder" is a palindrome. Like "racecar" or "level". These pieces of music ain't.

My name is Volker Redder, online I go by "docredder." It all came about because I studied biology and computer science for a long time and received my doctorate as the crowning achievement of my academic career.
As a child, I sang Bach in the church's „Knabenchor Unser Lieben Frauen“ because my mother thought it was good for my soul. And it was, until, thanks to an excellent teacher, I realized that music is like mathematics. After that, I loved not only music but also mathematics and all sciences based on mathematics: physics, biology, chemistry, computer science. So, I went straight into the natural sciences and engineering. Yes, I studied a lot. However, a university career wasn't for me. I wanted to monetize the findings of the various sciences (you can't live on air and love alone) and founded over a dozen companies. Because who wants life to follow a clear formula? I certainly didn't. In addition to adventurous entrepreneurship, the subsequent career in politics (German Bundestag), and a growing family, I was constantly picking up the guitar or keyboard, which is what you do when you want to escape the chaos of everyday life.
Should I say I'm a virtuoso? No. That would be a lie. I'm just too lazy for that. Laziness, or in modern parlance, "efficiency," is a principle for me. And so I founded my "own studio," consisting of a lot of electronics and software. The hipsters call it DIY. I call it "not wanting to act like a big shot and book expensive recording studios." I'm a one-man orchestra, a chef-d'oeuvre who spends all day producing pop, rock, indie, and ambient mishmash until he finally finds it he likes. My menu? Pink Floyd, Genesis, Supertramp, Muse, Zappa, Miles Davis, and many more. Yes, all at once. I told you: mishmash.
There are guys who write music to become famous. Then there's me. I write music to keep myself from going crazy. Sometimes it's funny, sometimes there's melancholy in it, sometimes it's stories from literature or something sci-fi. Or from Tinder dates my daughters have told me. I mean, who hasn't wondered what "being in Tinder light" is? Exactly. I wrote it down. I use everything I can get my hands on: GarageBand, samples, my voice, AI voices, Udio, VirtualDJ, everything! I don't care if purists say it's no longer art. It doesn't matter, the main thing is that my music feels like a window you can look out of and discover something new again and again.
Every song becomes a little adventure. Sometimes I start with a line, sometimes with a feeling I can't shake. It's like an escape from reality, except in the end, there's no escape. And that's a good thing. This is how I stay grounded. Okay, grounded isn't the right word either. Let me put it this way: I've stayed true to myself. And I'm grateful for everyone who listens, shares, or comments.
It makes me feel like I'm not completely alone in this madness. So if you also like songs that don't follow the rules, I'd be happy if you joined in. After all, the world is crazy enough.
You have to fight that with music. I mean, that's logical, right?