go dumb

stream<3

Don’t read it because she’s lying (she knows it so she shows it). Don’t think this much at home. If u got platitudes in yo head…..JUST DONT SAY EM.

Feels like a lie like my heart is going to pump out of my chest. A lie about my conventionality to people that don't matter, also a lie about my growth to people that do. A lie about my person to everyone. There is a schism of where I am and where I want to be that can only be achieved by long term investment but I just crave crave crave crave to be instantly gratified. LOL. I should not delete this stupid caption to acknowledge the shame of self-betrayal and the wound it leaves. I write this to depart from the dead skin but not dispose of it. Read and weep at All these dumb platitudes that aren't even funny. Because all these funny insincere words are just me lying to everyone like I used to. To everyone's long-term detriment but to postpone a short-term realization of shame. Because I am literally too guilty all the time to even bear a moderate average amount of shame. I want to be stronger than this but I'm trapped in the cyclical need for strength to handle the shame I feel constantly but lie about to not confront because Ultimately I lack that strength but I need the strength, I need to break the cycle. Sorry for the dumb caption originally. I want to be as funny as I can even when I'm incapable because I don't want to be alone. I need constant validation even though I am self aware of the fact I should try to be strong enough to stand alone with an internal understanding that I am valid. I want this to be temporary, so I am sorry for the time being where I am not where I want to be. I will achieve this growth by the correct and most sustainable means, however long it takes.

FebMar 23

pwm angelic

twilight princess

https://nfract.bandcamp.com/track/syndrome-2008-nightcorereduxx

Syndrome 2008 (NightcoreREDUXX)

pitstop+refuel

Designer Demon 🛍️ #2FAMOUS Presented By:
@occcti @wintercastle001 @1ragebeatz @segamercury

@2famousxo #2FAMOUS #SOS #MONEYTEAM 
#MALLMAFIA #NEEDME
https://open.spotify.com/artist/1P7MGWRAlYwDlZpRY0w8F1?si=lswoaY4DRh6VLhOFrgs8tA 

2famous.live @octi64x

Need Me 🎈✨ @1Ragebeatz + @Octi64x

Pov; Crying_On_The_Toilet_At_A_Party_In_Our_Distopian_Society.mp3

Billy Davis hitting the A#Major9thSusMinorDiminished3rd Chord

@y4ndere @h1yori

i rest my head and sleep pretending
that i am fine and that i never let you down
fall in this cycle of unwanted actions
suicidal an unconscious state of mind x2

thinking back
i realize
i was too blind
now my heart is numb
you were never honest
this time i can tell
you always break your promise
wish i could be indifferent
my brain is in dissonance
  
this burden that i carry
wish you could see thru my eyes
you said that i should grow up but
you could never live my life
and i would never trade it 
i know that ill make it thru
the night, ill be fine

ive been self reflective lately
i know i cant fix everything 
but it feels like im running out of air
every time i wake up and youre not there

fine「prod. yandere + hiyori」

betrayed 「prod. yandere」

Hurt Me

o to a key🪄🗝️🪖(prod. nyli) #korosu #welcometoyourdeath

spot the difference: https://soundcloud.com/discipleroundtable/barely-alive-bring-that-back

barley aive - bring that back remake

prod: yandere
vocals: kerosene + crescent
lyrics written by: yandere + crescent

Stream us on Spotify! https://open.spotify.com/artist/5EyYculuuhEIKCu9IClSV7

Crystal Statues

Lose Control ft. kerosene, crescent (prod.yandere)

original: https://soundcloud.com/sebseb122/bonerr

BONErr (pop punk flip)

prod @januaryyy
vocals by @odel007 and me
mix n master by me

stfu! x_x ft. odel (p. jxlyy)

m4ngO

Just call me Panic, i make beauty music 
Member of @chao-gardem 
Twitter:
https://twitter.com/dontpanic3k
Bandcamp:
https://djdontpanic.bandcamp.com
Youtube:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCubMiAn-FAZUDz5jaBSwzNA

Hurt Me

DJ Dont Panic