Seperatio an EP by DJ Dont Panic

Credits
Production : DJ Dont Panic
Album artwork : https://twitter.com/krezrg_1
Mixing & Mastering : DJ Dont Panic
https://www.instagram.com/dontpanic3k/
https://soundcloud.com/dontpanic3k

--------------------Note from Panic ----------------------------
I walk through the tall grass back to that place, sun berates my skin, I wish I could just stop this.
My mind races, fears stretch across the horizon as I think of those who will be there.
Why must I kneel in my grave whilst living, tears and dirt from the ones close to me will rain upon my head. My life is over now.

I pray for forgiveness, knowing I’m already in purgatory, it’s my fault for it all. Can a dead man still pray?
I don my mask, that requited outfit, carrying a silver bell high above my head, they shall hear me and stay away.
They will never see me, no one should ever see me, besides you.

Years go by like grains through my hands but my shame remains, no matter how I pray, no matter I live. I remember how the dew felt on the grass, I remember holding you as you cried in my arms, i reminisce about the little bugs and creatures of the field crawling up onto my legs. 

I still wonder, I think of koans I know by heart 
“White clouds hold lonely rocks in their embrace”
As my soul drifts I am pulled back, I see that sword in front of me again, it’s going to start again. I pull this useless mass that I have become, towards it, bell gently ringing, nothing seems to work anymore. Using the final fragments of my strength I lay the sword on the ground, one side of the blade in the earth the other in the sky. I place my hands upon the blade and drive it deeper into the soft damp ground. My gloves turn a sickly black as the blood drains. I position my body such that my neck rests upon the blade, and I wait.
I hear the sound as you finally awake, no voice just heavy breathing just as if you were still asleep. The footsteps near and I feel that boot gently placed upon my head. Already I know how you feel, it feels like all the love you showed to me, and the pain from the distance. Slowly stones begin to fall from the sky’s above, seemingly god knows I am over with this cycle. The last thing I remember is feeling the rain from your face, warm and heartfelt as you finally shifted the weight upon my head and started again.

Seperatio

Day dream at night
thoughts of you inside my dreams
listless confidence
struggle through my adaptive fear
unclear what to say
you cloud my rainy days
unclear what to say
you cloud my rainy days

i dont know why i feel like this everyday
crows hang over my head like messages you never sent
simple times turned into nothing
Wasted breath and emptiness

hide my fears behind vodka liquor and my tears
mask my pain fabric cloth designer always made
hide my fears behind vodka liquor and my tears
mask my pain fabric cloth designer always made
hide my fears behind vodka liquor and my tears
mask my pain fabric cloth designer always made
hide my fears behind vodka liquor and my tears
mask my pain fabric cloth designer always made
hide my fears behind vodka liquor and my tears
mask my pain fabric cloth designer always made

Day dream at night
thoughts of you inside my dreams
listless confidence
struggle through my adaptive fear

Day dream at night
thoughts of you inside my dreams
listless confidence
struggle through my adaptive fear

Listless Confidence

take my shield and sword and go alone
pack my bag with books and silver stones
carve your name into my bevor 
heart above my soul I let go

hands shaking too much
im paranoid
cotton covers my face
and my rotten skull
my pain is mine and mine alone
a lepers a dream is die not alone
funniest joke I was ever told 
a lepers a dream is die and not die alone
funniest joke I was ever told 
a lepers a dream is die and not die alone
a lepers a dream is die and not die alone
funniest joke I was ever told 
a lepers a dream is die and not die alone
funniest joke I was ever told 
a lepers a dream is die and not die alone
funniest joke I was ever told 
a lepers a dream is die and not die alone
funniest joke I was ever told 

take my shield and sword and go alone
pack my bag with books and silver stones
carve your name into my bevor 
heart above the soul I let go

Separation Ritual

I lay awake
i spy my sword on the dirt
i crawl ahead
my legs are broke and i am week
a shallow trench is made
my weapon now half buried
i position my neck upon the blade
i feel your boot
firm and warm
gently placed onto my head
i wait in haste
gently reminded my self 
gently reminded myself of grace
cobblestone rain gently from the skies
clouds are broken
i think i heard you 
i know its caught up in your throat
caught up in your throat
gently i wait
feel your warm and your whole love through your boot 
know you did the right thing
i lie there it feels like years it feels love it feels like everything
it feels like days have gone by
it feels like everything
i fear 
i feel the pain in my legs
i feel the pain in my back

"put me down" the last words i said 
"put me down" the last words i said

over quickly 
she shifts her weight
fully onto her leg
my neck is sliced all the way

wetness falls from her face
last thing ill see

Finally Met Again

Callous

Wake up and see the mist covered floors
go to the still mirrored lake alone
examine my body in the cold
feel the warmth of the sun

thus the bandage wraps they must go on
next a mask to hide the shame away
lastly my padded jacket and leggings go on

fragrances helps to hide the rot
they say that silver helps to stop the clots
gold is a fool's errand so I stopped
think i saw a glimpse of you but for not

i know we shall meet again
crimson armor and my leper skin
painted paranoia 
words for protection

i know that we shall meet again
crimson armor and my leper skin
painted paranoia 
words for protection
painted in that paranoia 
words for your protection

i know this worlds a balance 
bandages already wet with my flith
hope its worth it
you took and took and took 
i forgave forgave forgave
bloody night with spans of time i forget
people tell me to stop 
i believe them but my flesh will not
it remembers it recalls 
touches turned into a panic
scared i hide into myself

thus the bandages wraps they must go on 
next a mask to hide the shame away
thus the bandages wraps they must go on

Living Purgatory

Before Mass

Just call me Panic, i make beauty music 
Member of @chao-gardem 
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