doodooshart in his feels with this one !!

(prod. drmabeats)

[lyrics]
I feel left out and left distorted
And I’ve been left here sittin, mournin’
Someone who ain’t even dead
I should just lay it to rest

I feel left out and left distorted
You’ve been messin my mind up
And I just cant keep it sorted
every word you said is important
I just keep it in my pocket and
hold onto it till morning
I feel left out and left distorted
You’ve been messin my mind up
And girl I just cant keep it sorted
every word you said is important
Ill just keep it in my pocket and
hold onto it till morning

Then I’ll regain myself
I’ll put my head on tight
Yet I’ll just keep fucking up
And just keep losing my mind
I’ll try to fix myself
Do this shit every night
But everything’s so hard
Without you by my side
Why cant you see?
That you’re the one I love
Dont tell me to move on
This shit is just too tough
I dont want no one else
And if I had to choose
Than Id rather die
Than live a life without you

I feel left out and left distorted
And I’ve been left here sittin, mournin’
Someone who ain’t even dead
I should just lay it to rest

I feel left out and left distorted
You’ve been messin my mind up
And I just cant keep it sorted
every word you said is important
Ill just keep it in my pocket and
hold onto it till morning
I feel left out and left distorted
You’ve been messin my mind up
And girl I just cant keep it sorted
every word you said is important
Ill just keep it in my pocket and
Ill hold onto it till morning

distorted

beautifully made composition is all thanks to @elujjin everyone say thank you elujjin for making the song 100x better!
it will release on plats within the next few days :D please stream it and share with your friends! ^_^ 
https://open.spotify.com/track/1JDTbZvm4fp8GI8jcjPM17
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Baby, why you lying
Why you playin' in my face

You go playin' with my feelings
Then I pull myself away

Tell me, is it all in my head
Tell me what did I do wrong

Maybe at the very least 
Could I get a heads up

When's it my turn 
To be selfish

When's it my turn 
To be selfish

Baby, why you lying
Why you playin' in my face

You go playin with my feelings
then i pull myself away


i don’t need to worry ‘bout the future 
i know that its nothing to you
i can think about right now and make a song 
its nothing new

you know its true
you fucking do
playing dumb like you don’t know it hurts
like you don’t got a clue

whats the point of saying it to your face
when you make me sick
you only make me wa-aste

waste my time on lies
on jokes.. its fine
i need someone to stay here 
to call my line
to call my li-ine

“you seem upset?”
sorry i cant hide it
sorry that i’m like this
jealousy’s a sickness
gets inside my skin

its insidious 
like an idiot, 
i sit and wait
as if you would give me a kiss

i know i’m secondary
in your life, i know its true
id write your obituary
would you write one for me too

i know i’m not dead yet
i promise one day soon though
you will finally get to know 
what it’s like, to be alone


if i kill myself maybe everyone would remember who i was
who i was
who i was
who i was
who i was
who i was

if i kill myself maybe everyone would remember
who i was
who i was
who i was
who i was

see me as who i could have been if i never loved anyone. 

you can go and say you’re sorry for the past, that’s dead and gone
you can do the common courtesy and then get to move on
you can act and play the part so you can still feel go—od
you can do whatever that you think you fucking sho—uld

you can go and say you’re sorry for the past, that’s dead and gone
you can do the common courtesy and then get to move on
you can go and play the part so you can still feel go—od
you can do whatever that you think you fucking sho—uld

you can go and say you’re sorry for the past, that’s dead and gone
there is no forgiveness, why am i even making this song?
you can act and play the part so you can still feel go—od
you can do whatever that you think you fucking sho—uld

you can go and say you’re sorry for the past, that’s dead and gone
there is no forgiveness, why am i even making this song?
bound to make hist’ry repeat itself, rewriting the same hook
you can do whatever, except think ‘bout if you sho—uld!

whatever you want. (symphony) (prod. Elujjin)

mixed and redone by @elujjin (elujjin lmk if you want me to take it down or not i can't remember if you were happy with it or not i'm just uploading stuff.. sorry!)
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[Chorus]
I'll never be a kid again
You can’t keep saying, “Next year”
All I ever did was try to love, keep living through my tears
I can’t become an adult, I know I'm emotionally stunted
I feel apathetic, sometimes think I'm on a watchlist

[Verse 1]
I keep looking at the people ‘round me, wonder what they think
Picturing my head smashed into brick, your faces make me sick
You’re all liars, fucking fake
You’re living lost, not knowing
Blind, and never seeing
I’m invisible, don’t know me
It’s hard to even go outside, resentment building every day
"Unconditional" has conditions, no matter what they say
There’s no good that you could do to ever
Change somebody's mind
You are fucking worthless, give it up
Chasing, why won’t you die?

[Verse 2]
So desperate for attention that you believe every lie
Blowing up in anger ‘cuz you’re naive, knew they’d say goodbye
It’s the only thing that makes you feel like you’re even alive
So pathetic, fucking weak
I hate you, someone, tell me why
I live life waiting for the moment
Everything will turn black
How much more time do I have to wait
Until I finally can go back?
You know I’m not human, really
When I peel off all my skin
You could never love me fully, loving everything within
It’s been this way every day, long as I can remember
Am I just hallucinating, why can't you all see it?
You can't love me as I am, so you all try to reason
You can’t even hide your hatred for all of my being

[Hook]
Do you hear this all the same?
I keep listening to my own music
Every song in the same day
I got my life on replay
I got my life on replay
On replay, on replay
On replay, on replay
On replay, on re—

[Chorus]
I'll never be a kid again
You can’t keep saying, “Next year”
All I ever did was try to love, keep living through my tears
I can’t become an adult, I know I'm emotionally stunted
I feel apathetic, sometimes think I'm on a watch list
I'll never be a kid again
You can’t keep saying, “Next year”
All I ever did was try to love, keep living through my tears
I can’t become an adult, I know I'm emotionally stunted
I feel apathetic, sometimes think I'm on a watchlist

[Hook]
Do you hear this all the same?
I keep listening to my own music
Every song in the same day
I got my life on replay
I got my life on replay
I got my life on replay
On replay, on replay
On replay, on replay
On replay, on re—

stepping stone - remix (prod pupsies & elujjin)

pRoд&mixд me

so why u feel that?
i cant heal that
u keep crying
while u lying
i know i been distant for too long 

but u still call me
u want answers
i want quiet
but u still call me
im not hiding
im just tired of holding on

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doodooshart

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