Control

lyrics:

am i feeling alright?
'you feeling alright?'
maybe, i don't know?
maybe i should care

they told me at times
that its not right
although im comfortable...
sometimes i do get scared

and id lay down sometimes
complain about songs i didnt write
and i don't want to go back….

i only said i was alright one time
so now i pray that you please come back
i never said i was alright all times
and now i pray that you come home

i never say it cause
i should assume that its ok
it should be ok

but never mind that though
you could say these things to me
i swear its ok

but i shouldn't i have to relay to every single person i meet on the street
it'd remind me of all those times


sports

recorded july 2nd 2025

It’s a beautiful picture 
To be away for a summer 
Missing the sound of your voice as the days drag on
Oh darling, it hurts

All the things that I’d do 
I wasn’t like you 
I wasted my time 
Trying to be what wasn’t me 

No one to hold on to 
I wish I could see you 
And we’re older now 
But it didn’t get better 

This hurts more than ever
i just can't forget you
i spent all my time
chasing things that were never meant for me 

https://youtu.be/sed16lZoVvw

eighteen (prod downtownsuicide)

slowed let the world burn chris grey

Beach Moon/Peach Moon - Party In The Backseat

Making Out

123 Wagon Wheel Way

12pm

My current project is called Dirt Buyer and you can find it on Spotify, Instagram, & Twitter @dirtbuyer


it's so action-packed, catch all the flak
it's been a long, long time since you looked back
you wanna wait some time, i understand
it's gonna take some time to feel it out
i wanna know just how your life turns out
and when your body knows your brain's upset
you're stuck cleanin' up the whole damn mess
you know i'm at your side, shakin' my head
i spent my whole life workin' up the strength 
to accept the fact i'm a fuckin wreck
it ain't that hard to clear your head
just emasculate your entire being
you'll be happier, though it may be fleeting,
but it's one step up from where you're at
you exist in shit, you should know that
no matter how you move, your bones will ache,
it's an eternal pain you just can't shake
you gotta run, run, run your entire life
you gotta keep your mind from blowin out
just accept the fact that it's all a lie
i swear to god, it'll save you time
you gotta work real hard to avert your gaze
from the meaninglessness that'll come your way
and she said

Jotay - She Said

produced by dillon mee-lee
https://linktr.ee/egodeathpcola

still functional

Lyrics:

I don’t wanna follow myself

I just wanna follow you wherever you go 

but these uneasy feelings linger over my head 

like theres something watching me from under my bed

oh I wonder what she's up to 

please just tell me what you're doing over there 

cuz you’re too good to 

you’re too good to be true 

yeah you’re too good to be true


I don’t wanna lose myself in you 

don’t wanna find myself stuck in your arms 

but the way you speak lure's me in 

I can tell you know you have control

oh don't tell me what you’re up to cuz I already know girl
don’t wanna open doors just for you to close them
please let’s not go through this again baby just don’t go
cuz I am tired of waiting for you 

Baby just don't go X3

I don't wanna change myself for you 

I don't wanna case myself in fear 

don't wanna tell you Im here 

don't wanna look you in the eyes 

leave me feeling paralyzed

unable to escape my own mind

tell me was it all a lie

cuz you're too good to be true

Yeah you're too good to be true

Control

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