"ashes" originally made 2-22-21

im over my fears

I'm gonna start this very simple and with absolute truth - im not a pedophile. I barely knew the person who called me out, I didn't even know their name, I had no interest in pictures, no interest in finding out who they were irl, the conversations were short and I forgot about them barely a year later, like most conversations I had at that time with strangers. the second time around they reached out, I didn't even remember they were the same person let alone how old they were. the biggest mistake I made was putting myself in a space and community where there was no age control or consideration of anybody's background on a daily basis. i was maybe a year right out of high school, I am not perfect.

I've spent almost every week of the last year attending behavioral therapy, pushing myself through some very dark spaces addressing my own past traumas. I refuse to spill every detail about my life and childhood, but the biggest thing I've learned is that I'm not a self hating monster who purposefully seeks out hurting children. I refuse to be that image people think I am, I've worked so fucking hard this last year to figure myself out and I have no regrets about where I am now mentally. I made mistakes, I addressed them, I'm very proud of how far I've come. I don't care if anyone believes me or forgives me or whatever! have your own mindset, thats perfectly great. I think being tossed out of the communities I had been involved in like trash was infinitely for the better, looking back at how fucking nasty and awful some of those people are. I'm glad I didn't hurt myself and to be honest, I never will and it only gets better from here.

I'm not a monster, I'm going to continue making what I love, and I'll keep working to be a better person despite the ashes in my past. I probably won't continue omnipony other than small tidbits, but for those that know my truth, I'm happy to have you along the journey

god bless✌️

ashes 3.1

@northposse
@northposse

from MEMPHISTAN: https://open.spotify.com/album/4vqAOws7TxPHdFenSLHbZB

cover ph inst: @nogoodboy

MOVIN IN DA BLOCK W/ NORTH POSSE

Some crazy breakcore with samples of Markiplier screaming in frustration.  ENJOY!

Markiplier Ragecore

updated master dl:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1lSrDzDVBnIDcB3Rgwf7qzC7jlVPRUeGX/view?usp=sharing

satisfaction bootleg

@aleph_sound

Art: https://www.instagram.com/matt.psd/

Blending classic motifs with modern production ethos, Renraku presents NEXT HYPE, a 4-track ep by ALEPH. Following his debut on Mat Zo’s imprint, MAD ZOO, and several widely successful sample packs on splice, ALEPH brings his self-described “Apocalypse Rave” sound to the next level. Whether it’s the break ridden analog bass music “ULTRAVIOLET”, the subharmonic grooves of the titular “NEXT HYPE”, the deconstructed-then-refined riddim in “CHAMPION SOUND”, or the wall shaking warehouse-on-acid “LA$ER BEAM$”, NEXT HYPE brings a far future sound to electronic music built from the remnants of the past that will keep you moving from now til 20XX.

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ALEPH - ULTRAVIOLET [NEST HQ PREMIERE]

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// https://soundcloud.com/nanode //
// https://soundcloud.com/iamscript //

>Nanode - Distance
>Eprom - 666-ACID
>G Jones - Arbiter’s Theme
>Zaphyre - Redact
>TREKKIE TRAX CREW & なかむらみなみ - Reiwa (NGHTHYP Remix)
>WATGOOD - Textures
>ALEPH - ULTRAVIOLET
>Haywyre - I Am You
>Blake Skowron - The Drum
>B-Dos - Time
>Ascent - The Maw
>SLUMBERJACK - Enigma (feat. GRRL PAL)
>Script - Twisted Souls (VIP)
>Gyrofield - Out Of My Mind (feat. Inkwill)
>Tinyghost - Dou
>TREY FREY - Take Me There
>Graves & ASKA - There Are No Penguins In Alaska
>Yokaze - Thanks God
>KaTT & Blake Skowron - Bloodlust
>G-Jones & EPROM - Daemon Veil
>succducc - me & u (☆the sky☆ edit)
>LEViT∆TE - Pitchblaque (AMF Remix)
>Helvetican - Wipeout
>Flux Pi3 - Shiney
>Isqa - Morison’s Yellow Lighter

// https://twitter.com/nanode //
// https://twitter.com/iamscript //

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Markiplier Ragecore

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