i looked outside the bus to the trees and greens just now and listening to this at the same time is vibes

i just relapsed from my 60 day semen retention 💔

w/ @quedronol on guitar!!


prod. nishith x quedronol
mixed. nishith
written by nishith 

lyrics:
hope that i don't crash again
i let myself down again
you found someone better than me
knew it would happen, but it hurts still
and i'm running from my issues on a treadmill
i let myself down again
don't know how i found you then
you found someone better than me
knew it would happen, but it hurts still
and i'm running from my issues on a treadmill

fell right in love, you stole my heart and then you ran away
couldn't care less, was more surprised by how you let me stay
looked in your eyes, it was hypnotizing
man, i saw the light, and yeah, it was blinding
and you gave my heart away but you still stayed inside my mind
sitting under your trance, man, i was way too hypnotized

and you're calling me crazy, no i can't take it
adrenaline rush, my mind's never vacant
you always fill it, and i was just chillin'
when you came along and you paid me a visit
now its hearts broke, months go without a text
imma' chase forever, no i couldn't rest
so it's all a dream that i made up in my head
but would you give me one last chance, no

hope that i don't crash again
i let myself down again
you found someone better than me
knew it would happen, but it hurts still
and i'm running from my issues on a treadmill
i let myself down again
don't know how i found you then
you found someone better than me
knew it would happen, but it hurts still
and i'm running from my issues, issues, issues, issues
hope that i don't crash again
i let myself down again
you found someone better than me
knew it would happen, but it hurts still
and i'm running from my issues on a treadmill
i let myself down again
don't know how i found you then
you found someone better than me
knew it would happen, but it hurts still
and i'm running from my issues on a treadmill

cardiotherapy

10/2
PRESAVE: https://ffm.to/dtre
restart
i know these past few weeks been hard
they kick you fore you even get to start
been achin' for a while
im not sure ill see tomorrow
but ill try
im dotting i's and crossing t's
cause time is a commodity
i know these past few weeks been hard
they kick you fore you even get to start

(re)start

10/6
PRESAVE: https://ffm.to/dtre
one more step
fall over the edge
ill be thankful
for one last breath
our times uncertain
and death's a burden

relapse, replace
he don't wanna lose it all
relapse, replay
over and over again
was it something he said?
relapse, relay
the information to em;
relapse, decay
you'll never see him again
he was all in my head

(re)lapse

10/12
PRESAVE: https://ffm.to/dtre
let me just live 
out my life
i dont wanna
die tonight
theres no reason
to fight anymore
spill my blood
watch it sink to the floor
still dont know
who im fighting for
its not your fault 
quit wasting time
you're fading out
its not your turn to die
its not your fault 
its not your fault
its not your fault
its not your

dont tell me theres no reason to fight
cant stand the fuckin look in your eye
dont tell me theres no reason to fight
cant stand the fuckin look in your eye

i do what you want 
if you ask me 
dont know where to go 
so i follow you
i follow you
i do what you want 
if you ask me 
dont know where to go 
so i follow you 
follow you

(re)ason [ft. jauntsen]

10/18

presave the gosh darn album: https://ffm.to/dramatrial
huge shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/leytonmode for the feature they went insane i originally was going to have vox on this as well but i ended up scrapping them :3

lyrics:
i don’t wanna lose my patience 
but my face is turning blue from waiting 
every toll time is taking 
i don’t know if i can take it 
how do i live 
stayed up three whole nights i feel mindless 
wake up with my face where the sky is 
makeup left stains on my eyelids 

this is the part where i tell you not to go 
don’t leave me alone 
i can’t tell a soul 
you’re just like me 
you don’t wanna just be seen 
now im laying in the road 
staring at my phone 
will i ever grow old 
i know i’m free 
but i just can’t leave

STREAM

patience [ft. leyton]

10/25

kurtains cover :)

LIKE A FUCKIN BALLS!
LIKE A CEO!!

no magician (cover)

[[i can't be bothered to do something for once]]

~track [5/5]
from the EP in one day stream!
all songs were made in two hours ^-^
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\\ featuring //
+vox from
@saoirsedream
+prod from
@prodbyaustyn
+art by
@henryyoder

\\ lyrics //

[intro] ~ @jauntsen
please leave me out
i can't be bothered to do something for once
it's my bad i know you don't even care
but you should!

[verse] ~ @saoirsedream
don't pick up the clothes on my floor
i've got a system for it all
if you catch the sock on my door 
i'm not fuckin it's just supposed to be there
i get that it doesn't make sense 
sorry my bad i inconvenienced your friends 
dress my best doesn't ever make sense
sorry my bad it's just that lately my meds
don't do much
bad at both ends and it cancels out 
and i'm back to where i started
can't ever stop stop making changes 
routines my clothes 
how i arrange them

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
so i'll just sit down
i got 10 half water bottles in my room
i'm a let down 
haven't dusted in weeks 
maybe today's gonna be the day i wash my sheets 
(ew)
j-j-just kidding imma do it next week! 
i'm just rotting in my bed i hope she text me
i'm so fucking gay 
dirty plates around my room when i cuddle with my plushies
this room wouldn't be dirty if i had some money..
(but you won't get that)

you're unemployed jas! 
i got health conditions opps i guess its my bad ;-;
it's an excuse i like to make whenever i'm sad </3
i'm so small and full of coke just like a dime bag (hehe)
lost my motherfucking charger hope i find that >:(

[hook] ~ @saoirsedream
i get that it doesn't make sense 
sorry my bad i inconvenienced your friends 
dress my best doesn't ever make sense
sorry my bad it's just that lately i'm dead!

my bad +saoirse dream (austyn with a y)

original : https://soundcloud.com/janeremover/cage-girl

Jane Remover - Cage Girl (cover)

4/12
ngl ive reworked the middle bit so many times and i hate it but i love the drop so imma drop it anyways fire emoji 

shoutout corefish og song here: https://soundcloud.com/corefish/rot-1

corefish - rot (drama trial flip)

Hello Miss America!

lyrics:
Well hello miss America!
I'm not the prettiest boy you've seen i know
but I been tryna fix it though
ill show 
that it hurts when I stay broke 
in my 
memories when I wanna die
but someone tells me why?
that its hard to cry
in my mind
I never wanna lie
then maybe its my fault
I wanted this way to long
babe I'm tryna be free
but how do in everything
cause maybe I don't want to talk
cause I been up for to damn long
and how I want
it if u got it now
I just wanna know if u will
love miss America
you
love
 miss America do you
love 
miss America you
don't have to love like I do
love
miss America
you love 
miss America do you
love me America do you
love, love
but America 
what you do to her
don't guide her never change
not America
someone different
no your so much
more to me
do it all again
nothing different
but my body feels insane
miss America
do you love the night
are you waited time
just to feel alright
I just wanna see
something in your eyes
don't wanna wait for my breathe
miss America 
are you here tonight
I don't know what do
feel like I'm dying
if its all my fault 
hope that your alright
hope that ill be
loved
miss America
you
love miss america do you
love 
miss america you
don't have to love like i do
love
miss America
you love 
miss America do you
love me America do you
love, love

(re)lapse

drama trial

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