Thank you to everyone for listening <3 this is a special one.

Lust ft. Nova Jwest (prod. Sins City)

prod me :)

lyrics:

i could tell you what i've seen 
know you've heard it all before
wouldn't change a thing baby
nothing to report
treat me like i'm dirt
i guess that i am nothing more
my mind is in your bed
but i'm passed out on the porch

aching in my gut, it won't go away
there's a sickness in my blood i can't alleviate
every time we touch i feel myself decay
bearer of a curse i don't wanna break

break
break
break
break

should've left it in the past love
i don't wanna feel this way another day
you said that you wanna see me, should've never came
every time we touch i feel myself decay
bearer of a curse i don't wanna break


leave me in the gutter 
leave it all behind
i see you in the mirror
see you all the time
you say i'll never make it
say i never try
maybe i'm the one to blame
don't have a lucky side

bearer of the curse

Wait For Me

sometimes my bedroom feels like my grave (prod. splashgvng)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83Bd5PWLwBA

[prod. jpjp & deadfish]

i'm geist:
a broken design
step aside and rewind
but time doesn't seem to heal
the body's inside
and the blood is on your hands
so don't tell me that this isn't real

it's not the same, no
tell me where did my mind go?
cause i seem to have lost control
why won't the pain go?
i swear i've waited the time love
but i can't seem to take anymore

so say can i save myself now?
(envy) i think it's far too late you'll drown
but i need them to hear me out
(envy) don't make a sound just shut your mouth

notenvy:
my frame is fractured like kaleidoscope
the only sense of matters left my brain
i swear i'm losing hope
i’m doing fine, oh you don't want to know
the shit that i've been going through
i'm gripping on, i've lost control
another day intoxicated
do you ever think of me
my structure’s slowly breaking
another breath is wasted
screaming from my chest
i fucking wish someone would save me

kais:
i hate it when you talk to me, but talk to me some more
hands to my ears and my face to the floor
love it when they lie to me, so lie to me some more
you fucked me up and put me through the ground
scream for help, but it never makes a sound
you took it wrong, I didnt mean it that way
silent with the pressure, but I let it stay
imma let it till it breaks me
down, I know you want me here but I never come around
im sorry and I owe you that. that’s what this shits about
I walk slow with my teeth glued to my mouth
I don’t talk cus the rooms always too loud
loud
loud

deadfish:
and i'm waking up
heart's fucking numb
it's only 7am
but I can't seem to lay down

anxious bout the day
what's gonna happen today
I just can't get a break
everything's still the same

mind is racing if today you're gon reply to me
nothing points to that but I'll wait just in case

if u had a change of mind
blood is pouring out my eyes
phone is charged all the time
cause I'm waiting for

for you to reply
please stop wasting my time
it just wasn't enough
and I can't make up my mind

you said that nothing has changed
but I don't feel the same
but I am keen to believe cause I'm
just hopeless

funeral:
i get so deep in this shit and i'll never get out
now i'm stuck and i'm waiting
i never think i just act and i ask if i'll make it
or maybe i'm wasting
my time right here, right now
blood leak, blood flow, lights low, lights out

it's way too obvious to me
the way the bodies dust, i bleed
i need one second alone now
one shot, now i'm dead, body goes down

sewerperson:
rust gives way to the chains that hold me
for yesterday could not control me
toxins permeate
the armoured skin that covers me
u poor man ur final day
is ended here from under me
woah bring out the big guns
im in the mood to erase something
huh just try to say something
u getting face fucked
blunt getting laced up
put u in swamp water face up
no matter the chaos faced
i wouldn’t give up
for time will tell
of better days
from here I smell
the autumn rainfall
it helps me stay strong

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time will tell w/ i'm geist, notenvy, kais, deadfish, funeral, sewerperson

lyrics : 

you’re right im smokin 
n starvin 
it makes the pain go away regardless 
cuz in my mind i’m a fuckin goddess 
you can’t bring me down i’m flawless 

everyone round me don’t say nothing 
they say blah blah blah 
stop the frontin 
i say whatever i want 
cuz it’s bullshit 
at the end of the day they ignorin

they ignorin 
ignorin 

it makes the pain go away 
i wish i died yesterday 
i don’t wanna see my face
it makes me sick 
makes me think bout you 


i choke it up i throw it up i pour it up  light the blunt smoke it up fuck it up eh 


& they don’t say nothin 
& they don’t say nothin

dead girl walking (prod.branwen)

1/5.
"I don’t know how you really feel, but I know that I still care"
@sorrow_bringer

Lyrics:

Verse 1/
Let’s talk around what we really mean
Don’t say goodnight, that’s getting too close for me
I’ll turn into a joke and we can laugh it off
I’ll stay up all night wondering if I should hit send or not
If I don’t tell you how I feel you’ll never know
Every time I open up I always feel uncomfortable
But I don’t want to lose you twice
I can’t bare to see you with another guy again
Just tell me how you feel I can handle it
I’d do anything for you like I’m Anakin
I see your chat bubble and I’m panicking
I should have told you how I felt when we were friends

Chorus/
I don’t wanna say too much and then scare you
I don’t know how you really feel
But I know that I still care
And I hope that you want me there
I don’t wanna say too much and then scare you
I don’t know how you really feel
But I know that I still care
And I hope that you want me there

Verse 2/
I’ve been losing sleep
Staying up all night to think of you
You saw me in your dreams
And I hope it’s cause you think me
We could talk all day about the most randomest things
all I care about is a smile on your face
I know I’m not perfect
I left in the dirt once
But I’m a different person
I’m hoping we can work things out
I just want to feel you my arms again
I shoulda told you how I felt back then

Chorus/
I don’t wanna say too much and then scare you
I don’t know how you really feel
But I know that I still care
And I hope that you want me there
I don’t wanna say too much and then scare you
I don’t know how you really feel
But I know that I still care
And I hope that you want me there

I see you everywhere I go

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I see you everywhere I go (Prod. Sorrow Bringer)

Written/Produced/Mixed/Mastered: Dustin Gill

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Twilight's Eternal Lament

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guitar by me <3

restless in these sheets
the nightmares scare away the dreams
“if i could only have a chance to run away from everything”

but would i take it?
this is everything i know

i stay amongst the thieves
that took my life away from me
if i could only take a second of your time to let me breathe

but i cant save this
i can never feel like home.

practice what you preach
youre taking it
way too far to bring
a fraction of what the
world turned out to be
back to ashes 
avoid my company

chapter III: avoid my company

In 2017 I got addicted to painkillers
In the six weeks before we met
And after that I took them only when I needed
Like the night you called me back
And in the mornings we would walk to class and smoke cheap cigarettes
Because menthols taste healthier, right?
Back then I didn’t sleep and I wrote shitty poetry
About Newark when my grandma died

And i hope you don’t remember at all
You just grab the money and i’ll take the fall
I never moved to New York, but I went there on tour; I’ve got your notes in my drawer
I still remember it all

In 2021 I mixed klonopin and whiskey
In the city where angels go to die
And I made a man a flower crown then passed out on his living room floor
And said “don’t touch me, I’m fine”
See, my ambition was a prison, wanted to carve my name into
The bones of everybody I met
Back then I didn’t see beauty in just about anything
So I guess it turned out just how you said
It would

But I hope you don’t remember at all
Been running away, it’s getting harder to walk
I don’t know what it was for, getting ruined for sport; goddamn victorian whore
I still remember it all

Reading my old journals, double-checking it got better
And my hands still turn purple when it’s cold, so I’ll wait seven years
‘Til there’s nothing left of who i was but melody and fever
I hope next time, when she says she’s too high you’ll stop
And you'll believe her

One day I won’t remember at all
The pictures all faded, now we’re outlines in chalk
I never moved to New York, but I’ll go there on tour; I guess that settles the score
I still remember it all

i still remember it all

sometimes i feel like a ghost in a crowd
its purgatory and i wont make it out
im not alive and i dont really know how
i got no voice youll never hear if i shout

i know im dead to you, but i got unfinished business that i gotta do like
tell you that i love you still,
even if i never made enough to pay the bills

im working hard in death
got so much on my plate i never catch my breath
i swear it helps to know that im already dead

sometimes i feel like im a ghost

like im dead, like my coffin is my bed
i want to finally rest, but your voice is in my head
ive haunted this whole town, but im still left feeling down
youre the only one i want
i cant have you, i cant touch you,
im a ghost

i know you wont look my way
its done this time i know itll stay
each day act my part in the play
i know youre gonna say, that i just need to pray

i need to find something that makes me feel magic
i guess thats weed and alcohol makes me manic
i try to be okay now but its too tragic

sometimes i feel like im a ghost

like im dead, like my coffin is my bed
i want to finally rest, but your voice is in my head
ive haunted this whole town, but im still left feeling down
youre the only one i want
i cant have you, i cant touch you,
im a 
ghost

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