I do not own this beat, check out ThatKidGoran on YouTube for the beat!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFcUIeKxEp4

I heard this beat in a video by the legendary freestyle rapper Harry Mack on YouTube, and Mack basically made a song about the grieving process in specific relation to a stranger he just met on Omegle's backstory. If you haven't seen the video, I highly recommend it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VBBMfHGMs7I

Anyways, the beat was not only so perfect for that moment, but it felt like exactly how I have been feeling lately. The beat just HIT me like that. Upon finding the beat on YouTube, suddenly truthful and honest and necessary lyrics just came flooding to me and I couldn't turn it off. So I realized that I needed to just do it...make a song and video for this just to get it off my chest, and just so people can see a little of where I'm at right now. Now is just the beginning of a lifelong journey for me.

Myself, Landen Batenchuk and Mason Cassidy have formed a little conglomerate called Gross Dirty Misfits, and we have been creating stuff together/helping each other with projects. Be sure to see more from us as well!

The day the concept for this song came to me I was wearing a poppy outside of the month of November, sometime around June I think. A relative asked me why I was wearing it, they said that other people were going to think I was stupid. I said, "So, I'm not allowed to acknowledge and mourn fallen soldiers at any other point in the year?" This conversation triggered a variety of other examples in my head, of days and times designated to acknowledge, mourn, and celebrate, only to be swept back under a rug for a year. These designated days DO serve a purpose and DO have value, but what does limiting ourselves to one day a year really accomplish? Do they appease the infringed upon oppressed peoples for a brief moment to keep them dormant and unrebellious? Does this spark a flame of change in one's heart that lasts a lifetime? That's up to each of us to choose, I suppose.

Movements such as BLM and LGBTQ2S+ are born out of real pain, real struggle, and real desperation for change. They are so much more than the simple recognition of equality of human lives and the value of our differences. However, movements can simultaneously create division. These movements feel necessary for change, and (subjectively positive) change is always the objective of these movements, but as our voices grow louder, so too do those of the opposition, and in many cases, the hateful and ignorant. Additionally, their emergence can spawn/breed disingenuous snakes who aim to capitalize off of, divert, or sabotage the movements. It's difficult to know the best way to make the positive changes kind and innocent humans seek in this world. How to we form these bridges between duality? I am always open and seeking these answers. I know that it requires an understanding of both sides.

I know wearing a poppy outside of November feels controversial to some. I know some people may get upset seeing a poppy worn outside the designated time period. I recognize both sides of this, and I think intention is key. I think it should be ok to wear a poppy with the intention of acknowledging its symbolism. I think it should be ok to acknowledge, mourn, and celebrate EVERY day of the year. I understand the fear and concern that if it were to be something that is worn frivolously, it may lose its meaning and impact altogether. For me, it doesn't.

These days and time periods that exist to acknowledge their respective subject matters as a nation are AND to GIVE meaning to these symbols are both necessary and valuable. They are important to ensure that the meaning doesn't become lost.

My father told me that he saw former Avalanche goalie and NHL legend Tommy Salo wearing a poppy on his suit on the bench sometime in April or May, and this made me very happy. Up until that point, I thought I was the only one that I have seen performing such an action. His reasons for doing so may be personal, or may be related to making a statement similar to mine.

I want to shoutout and thank JayDontae aka ICARUS for the continuous support and the help on a perfect, deep, and beautiful cover art.

I want to shoutout and thank Tariiiq for the continuous support and the help on the epic mix.

I am blessed to have the people in my life that I do.

A Day To Remember

i wanna fuck u to lofi

rebirth

lost the original vocal files so had to re record them for a Performance version

the beat is not mine nor do I have a lease

It is "It's ok to Cry" by Sarcastic Sounds.

life sucks then you die v2 (ish)

Chest Out Like Hitomi early rough demo

god hates us all demo

lost pages pg.2/A Tribute to Nipsey early demo

Hey Monsoon, I made this song just for you and not necessarily to share to the world.

I hope it's ok that I upload it, if it's not let me know. I just have been feeling like I want certain messages out there for the world to hear.

OLDSOON

sleepywood sauna super early demo

grocery stores trip me out extendo metronic super epic mega mix part 4 BEST HITS ft. AK ratata TRASH MIX

Smooth

1 Instrumental

Nubby Freestyle

I heard this beat listening to a lofi mix while working at home. I instantly started writing to it...sometimes you just feel it. Wrote it up, rapped it first take and uploading it to soundcloud because it ain't my beat. It's "It's Ok To Cry" by Sarcastic Sounds.

The title of this track is a quote from one of my best friend's science teacher in junior high. Neither of us have ever forgotten the quote, and it just seems suitable for how I feel sometimes. SOMETIMES. Life is beautiful and I know it. But I'm not all sunflowers and daisies, I have a darkness within me, and it just needs to come out sometimes.

life sucks then you die

Front Runnaz

This year has been really insane for me. It started with the most I've ever felt like myself since I can remember, followed by what felt like an eternally longer period of feeling the least like myself that I've ever felt. I've never felt so disconnected from myself, my community, my surroundings, nature, and the universe. 

This EP's concept was thought up following my previous EP, 'no one is alone'. 'VISION' is the second installment of a trilogy I am creating, and I intend for the last installment to be called 'rebirth'. This trilogy is about what it's like to be insanely depressed with crippling anxiety (for me), the tools and steps and thought process required to get out of that state, and then finally what it is like to be reborn as one who has a healthier relationship with all emotions. 

It was very hard to create art at a time like this in my life, but I knew that I must do it, I must follow my vision. I have a bigger purpose on this world, and the most important part of this EP is that it will serve as a reminder to me for my purpose, and reminders are integrated into the lyrics. It took me a lot of energy and quite literally risk of sanity to make this and get it out in 2020 while being satisfied with the outcome. But I truthfully am extremely satisfied and proud of my growth from my last project to this one, and I'm going to keep doing my best in all future endeavours. Any love is welcome and appreciated, I will now take more time to restore some sanity, and until we meet again, thank you for being here.

vision (feat. J. Canti)

in the blink of an eye

This year has been really insane for me. It started with the most I've ever felt like myself since I can remember, followed by what felt like an eternally longer period of feeling the least like myself that I've ever felt. I've never felt so disconnected from myself, my community, my surroundings, nature, and the universe. 

This EP's concept was thought up following my previous EP, 'no one is alone'. 'VISION' is the second installment of a trilogy I am creating, and I intend for the last installment to be called 'rebirth'. This trilogy is about what it's like to be insanely depressed with crippling anxiety (for me), the tools and steps and thought process required to get out of that state, and then finally what it is like to be reborn as one who has a healthier relationship with all emotions. 

It was very hard to create art at a time like this in my life, but I knew that I must do it, I must follow my vision. I have a bigger purpose in this world, and the most important part of this EP is that it will serve as a reminder to me for my purpose, and reminders are integrated into the lyrics. It took me a lot of energy and quite literally risk of sanity to make this and get it out in 2020 while being satisfied with the outcome. But truthfully, I am extremely satisfied and proud of my growth from my last project to this one, and I'm going to keep doing my best in all future endeavors. Thank you to all those who helped and supported me on this project, and a BIG thank you to Mitchell Lawler and Foam Mountain Studio for helping me create, my girlfriend Crystal Lee for the amazing love and support which gave me needed motivation, and the BIGGEST thanks to my dear friend and legendary producer, Mason Cassidy aka Monsoon. Without him, this project would not be what it is now. Any love is welcome and appreciated, I will now take more time to restore some sanity, and until we meet again, thank you for being here.

I love you.

a song for ma

everyday life

maui noka oi

blowing bubbles

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