ways - breaking my bones (dreamnote) *bonus*

(LAST OLD SONG I PROMISE) 
i gotta lock in 
i aint falling 
ion fw niggas yea im fucking racist 
talking allat shit get u in my basement 
aja 
heroz 
im finna lock in 
niggas cannot lock in wit me 
typin on they keyboard #########

i gotta lock in 
i aint falling 
ion fw niggas yea im fucking racist 
talking allat shit get u in my basement 
aja 
heroz 
im finna lock in 
niggas cannot lock in wit me 
typin on they keyboard #########

lock in (heroz 2aja) jan_17 #NIGHTMARERADIO

produced by @chewy
mixed by me

lyrics:

all black g.i. joe
they can't do the things I do
everyday I focus on my goals
everything I touch turns straight to gold
know they don't like the fact that
I'm on my shit don't really know why
know I do this all alone my own shit
know they don't know my (life)

I took all the time I could to find my footing
I know I've been gone awhile
and it hurts my heart to think about
I can't find no peace when you're around
can't throw my life away I find each day
a reason here to smile
grown up, I know today I'd wipe my tears
I wept out as a child

walk in my shoes, it's been miles

yeah
weight I hold it weighs a ton
I think that my heart's been stunted
I treat love just like a gun
I don't wanna hurt nobody

right my wrongs
I got problems
yes I know
and they can't solve them
that's my job
and while I'm better
I still fall

walk around keep my head up
'cause I know I just can't settle
I've tried everything I can but
why can't I simply get better?
toss and turn, can't sleep at night
each day it keeps fucking my head up

but I know, better
sometimes I never let up
I try to keep my head up
everyday I'm getting better
everyday I'm working on myself
everyday I'm getting better
I can't go back and fix the past
it hurts my heart I can't go back
I right my wrongs as best I can

I can,I can, I can, I can
I'm so much more than what I present
I'm so much more than the things you've said
yet somehow, know that I love you still

I hope you heal
because I know I've healed

know when I lost myself
know I ain't got no help

and that shit ain't healthy
and know I've been through hell
and all of the things you'd tell me
are all things I tell myself
know I've grown so much
and I can't go back
know I lost myself
just to find myself again
I know it's hard to let go of the past
but I smile that it's happened

I look back with happiness

Health Is Wealth

w/ @chewy @prodelxnce @gr0lth @gmodravemix @faintthearted @earthlydesireisbeyondme @ovk5555555 @beenherebefore (sampled him) @bbyazul4k @dreamno7e @popilization @epictina @ticoxxx @vampiremutual


0:00-2:43 (solo)
2:43-3:35 (w/ heroine)
3:35-5:52 (solo)
5:52-6:43 (w/ heroine)
6:43-7:30 (solo)
7:30-8:42 (w/ grolth)
8:42-9:39 (w/ og)
9:39-10:25 (w/ elxnce)
10:25-11:11 (w/ popilization and dull)
11:11-11:52 (w/ dull)
11:52-13:02 (w/ prettylovebites)
13:02-14:01 (solo)
14:01-14:38 (w/ heroine)
14:38-15:30 (w/ scribe)
15:30-16:26 (solo)
16:26-17:42 (w/ heroine)
17:42-21:35 (w/ sys)
21:35-23:02 (solo)
23:02-24:03 (w/ heroine)
24:03-25:05 (w/ grolth)
25:06-26:19 (w/ been - sample: https://soundcloud.com/beenherebefore/youre-so-lucky)
26:19-27:33 (w/ heroine)
27:33-30:21 (w/ bbyazul)
30:21-31:03 (solo)
31:03-32:00 (w/ dreamnote)
32:00-32:58 (w/ popilization)
32:58-34:00 (w/ tina/inspyite)
34:00-34:55 (solo)
34:55-35:50 (w/ ticox)
35:50-36:51 (w/ sydney runner)
36:51-38:47 (solo)
[end of beats]

38:47-40:47 (solo epilogue i played this entire thing in one take)
*inspired by ricky eat acid and blithe field*

[#playground] clips w/ buddies

https://soundcloud.com/chawlk

my soul lives up in delusion
i'm stuck with some dumb confusion
there's been truth up in my chest
but they tend to misconstrue it
i've been repeating mistakes so i kinda think i'm stupid
i've been tryna burn my mask left my ego all uprooted

there's been blood up on some thrones
palantir it checks my phone 
empty vessels i see clones
think i rlly miss my home

see the spark I've been cold
it's so lost wanna fold
despise the lies i've been told
spells, lead to gold

all the signs are there it's evident 
pray i can be relevant 
spirts round me malevolent
don't know why i'm elegant  

i'm terrified of the ether 
think i'm doomed i saw the reaper
i've been anxious asf think that i just need a breather
i'm a dumb attention seeker

i can hear heaven's harmonics
she tends to weep thru the cracks in the sonics
tune my being with the lost ergonomics
my flesh a cage the codes up in electronics

my soul lives up in delusion
i'm stuck with some dumb confusion
there's been truth up in my chest
but they tend to misconstrue it
i've been repeating mistakes so i kinda think i'm stupid
i've been tryna burn my mask left my ego all uprooted

delusional (chalk)

costume prod. okmax & 34n

noraware - money, morals [prod. heroz & luanne]

produced by @imnotrydxr + @sleepcravings
mixed by me

lyrics:

(i've told you-)

hook:

wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up
(i've told you-)
wake 'em up, wa-wake 'em up, wake 'em up
wa- wa- wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up
(i- i- i've told you-)
wake 'em up, wake 'em up, i pray to god
pray to god, im pretty shaken up
its hard to say a lot
made a way, paved it all alone
wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up
(i've told you- i- i- i- i- i-)

verse 1:

people lame as fuck so why i give 'em love
pe-people want me gone but I ain't giving up
(turn it up joie)
pe-people want me gone but I ain't giving up-up
everything i've ever wanted i got it all
everything i've ever wanted i got it all
lotta money fallin out my pockets i rlly ball-ball
eugh
fifty ball my whip to big can't park it, whatchu know
pointers on me ball just like its harden, way2cold-cold

Finlince:
man you're fucking with the one and only man
real REM shit right here, real REM material man
turn it up joie

verse 2:

yuh
got a whole lot in my dome
it gets hard 2 focus
i talk ab things that they dont
these lame bitches know shit
i rlly wake up and get dough
pls stop stealing my motion
mfs hate me cus i rlly be me
i know it, i know it
diamonds cold like ocean, frozen
wintertime, frozen
color of a lotus, pink inside the soda
percocet pill in my system 
it ain't hard to throw up
been a couple years know that
i been here on my lonesome
(huh)
i take these pills no diagnosis huh
concerta 30ball keep me focused
hopeless, you're fucking hopeless
you fuckin dopehead
imma dopehead, fucked up and folded
fucked up my loved ones
this shit's just a cycle i can't get out of
this a part of me that i ain't really proud-proud of
(sound)
everyday feels like an uphill battle, ain't proud of it
oxycontin, xanax bars and downers, i drown in em
(why)
promise i'm doing better, i get up
gotta do things that i can that they can't so
gathering up myself so i'm better
back home, kick the door right in, just like beckham-

hook:
wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up
wake 'em up, wa-wake 'em up, wake 'em up
wa- wa- wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up
wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up
(i- i- i- i- i love it here!)
wake 'em up, wake 'em up, i pray to god
pray to god, im pretty shaken up
its hard to say a lot
made a way, paved it all alone
wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up

(wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up)
(wake 'em up, wake 'em up, wake 'em up)