it always ends in pain

@methboiswag

mask how i feel, mask how i feel
whatever you want is right here
walk around the city fake smiling in my grillz
there's too many different girls
i been up way too long, it's getting worse
brought a bag in my purse
failed security search

tried to fit in with the geeks, now i want it for me
can't you see me? i bleed, i bleed, i bleed
found my way, threw out the key
caught lying through my teeth
they trust my word, i deceive
i decay completely

i decay, fade away 
tried to figure out what words to say
had her at hello now she wanna stay
we can fuck all night, geek up all day
i been out the way, time's changed
whatever you want i got it baby
whatever you want i got it baby
whatever you want i got it baby

i'm off these pills girl come and save me
crying for help why can't you see it?
slept all week, turnt up all weekend
let me know when you know how you're feeling
mind can't grow, i'm lost completely
mask my feelings

mask how i feel, mask how i feel
whatever you want is right here
walk around the city fake smiling in my grillz
there's too many different girls
i been up way too long, it's getting worse
brought a bag in my purse
failed security search

tried to fit in with the geeks, now i want it for me
can't you see me? i bleed, i bleed, i bleed
found my way, threw out the key
caught lying through my teeth
they trust my word, i deceive
i decay completely

Security (prod. methboiswag)

Lingo (+Rubbish)

Wow (lewisgoing recyclebin)

Justin Bieber (methboiswag)

@cgullone @silversxo @jacyc @methboiswag @prod-roxa

Movie (silver djacy methboiswag roxa)

Under my breath (lewisgoing proxen)

Dorment (silver methboiswag)

i know u will <3
prod @benjithemachine
art by @kit2dope
i luv u very much

i know you will [benji the machine]

prod. lunaa

Put your hands in the air if you're not sober
Put your hands in the air if you're a stoner
Put a lock: my door, cuz' I'm antisocial
Drop shots: my beer, put the night in motion

Show's not full but the front row's loud
She told me she prefer when my hair's grown out
(Hair's grown out, hair's grown out)
Would've looked clean in my merch but it sold out
I love it when the bass bounce back
I put her in an Uber back to my gaff
I put a submarine: my drink and drink fast
Got money on my mind and shoes and pricetags

I'm watching one single second simply turn into days
I'm watchin life, and appreciate the heartache and pain, okay
Tonight we get so drunk the world starts to spin (spin, let's go)

When I hop on stage I hear screams of my name
But when I step outside they stare at me sideways
And when the weekend comes I'm thanking god it's friday
It's friday 
(thank god it's friday)

Yeah
Thank god for Marlboros
Thank god for bass
Thank god for audio
Thank god for J's
Thank god for Redbull vodka
Thank god the bars close late
Thank god for party rock
I'm thanking god for mary jane

(ooooh)
Tonight we get so drunk the world starts to spin (spin, let's go)

When I hop on stage I hear screams of my name
But when I step outside they stare at me sideways
And when the weekend comes I'm thanking god it's friday
It's friday 
(thank god it's friday)

Yeah
Thank god for Marlboros
Thank god for bass
Thank god for audio
Thank god for J's
And when the weekend comes I'm thanking god it's friday
It's friday

TGIF

prod. https://soundcloud.com/pw4prez

Is it not? Can you tell me: is it not?
In the water when it drops, in the wood when it rots, Is it not?
If it isn’t where’s the harm? If it is I’ll take a chance
If you stood where I stand you’d see never-ending blue
In a world that wants it done, I still wonder what could be
There it is, is it gone? it’s so far away from me
Is it not? Tell me now if it isn’t
Then goodbye and good riddance
But it is, as it always ever was

My heart’s resilient, it can break and still care
Where’s the Crow? I don’t know, somewhere in the blackened air
Where’s a tulip or a rose, do you know or even care?
Does it matter if you did?
I remember what’s forgot, to forget, so someone else can remember
And the cycle goes around from December to December
From the henge back to me, is it not there as I speak?
Is it not there as we breathe, from now to eternity?
Depending? well I think everything depends
To begin there has to be something that never truly ends
Reward is nothing more then what is left when something is endured
Cold hands and warm heart, I’m still carrying the sword

Is it not? Can you tell me: is it not?
In the water when it drops, in the wood when it rots, is it not?
If it isn’t where’s the harm? If it is I’ll take a chance
If you stood where I stand you’d see never-ending blue
In a world that wants it done, I still wonder what could be
There it is, is it gone? it’s so far away from me
Is it not? Tell me now if it isn’t
Then goodbye and good riddance
But it is, as it always ever was

The cruelest second is the first
But the good news is it doesn’t get much better or much worse
Jacaranda purple on the floor, is nothing to be spared?
Is there hope for someone like me who has only ever cared?
I’m not scared, but I think there is something that I will miss
And it’s this, it’s a chance to remember all the beauty of it all
Why let me even have the colours, every scent, and tenderness
Just for the destination to be emptiness?

Is it not? Can you tell me: is it not?
In the water when it drops, in the wood when it rots, is it not?
If it isn’t where’s the harm? If it is I’ll take a chance
If you stood where I stand you’d see never-ending blue
In a world that wants it done, I still wonder what could be
There it is, is it gone? it’s so far away from me
Is it not? Tell me now if it isn’t
Then goodbye and good riddance
But it is, as it always ever was


Is It Not? (prod. sochi)

MAŤRÎX

Aftermath is the second chapter in the emotional narrative that began with Rooms We Never Left.

Where the first album explored attachment, memory, and the quiet weight of unresolved feelings, Aftermath shifts into the phase that comes once everything finally breaks — the moment after the door closes, when the emotional noise fades and reality settles in.

This project captures the psychological landscape that follows a major heartbreak: the exhaustion, the numbness, the loss of patience, and the first sparks of rebuilding. Instead of lingering in sorrow, the album leans into a sharper tone — part rap, part alternative — reflecting a mindset that’s more detached, self-protective, and unfiltered.

Justin Bieber (methboiswag)

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