maybe i dont deserve love
i sit like an abandoned dog waiting for its owner
impatient, restless, forever waiting.
you did exactly what you knew i was scared of
i made so many versions of me just to prove that im good enough
i was a child
i dont blame you for using me, im not very good at saying no
i just want to be loved the way i love.
i am homesick for arms that dont even want to hold me
im scared this is all i ever be
i was never supposed to make it this far
"you changed" yeah i gave up.
im drowning
dont you miss me?
why are you happy without me?
you promised that you will never leave me again
i feel like im rotting
i wanna rip my insides out to make the pain go away 


what my mind sounds like

ETHEREAL AMBIENT SOUNDSCAPES INSPIRED BY GAME OF THRONES AND THE  LORD OF THE RINGS AND MANY OTHERS. RELAX, ENJOY AND DRIFT AWAY.

CTHULHU MYTHOS - THE NATURE OF THINGS

J Dove Rush

Fabio Neural & DJ Jock - The Ending (Rudosa Remix)

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BITT152 - Tom Hutt - Helgan

I am excited to present the first full release from Balthazar & JackRock on Terminal M. I am playing all three tracks since a few month and always had a huge response. Also I got some goosebumbs when Adam Beyer played „Nymph“ at his set at Awakenings x Drumcode at the Gashouder. I hope you enjoy this release as much as I do! (Monika Kruse)

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Balthazar & JackRock - Cardinal Law

Landing 10 years after his first concept album, Wehbba’s drops his debut full-length on Drumcode, featuring collaborations with David Caretta, Thomas Gandey and Brazilian vocalist L-cio.

Following a series of globally adored EPs and inclusions within the imprint’s esteemed A-Sides compilation series, the chart-dominating São Paulo native now reflects upon his life as ‘the artist’, offering an immersive montage of stories that echo a tenacious dedication to his craft. Enlisting the talents of multi-instrumentalist Thomas Gandey, Electroclash pioneer David Carretta and fellow Brazilian L-cio, with his unparalleled flute mastery, Wehbba’s synergetic cuts span the breadth of electronic music’s sonic landscape, as he challenges the notion of genres with seasoned voices.

Birthed from the purest inspiration, the album’s 13 cuts represent a myriad of musical references close to Wehbba’s heart, running parallel with the organic sensibilities of his field recordings. An ode to eternal growth, the LP highlights a cycle of perception and projection, as Wehbba studies the morphing of genres through his own musical filter. Discussing the upcoming album, Wehbba commented:

"The musical references on these works trace back to the 90s, when I started listening to electronic music and had no judgement of what was cool - when I was totally free. So they represent, without any filter, what touched me, ranging from braindance to goa trance, from ambient to hard house, and from drum n’ bass through every single mutation of techno and house music."

As a key ambassador for Brazil’s dance music community on a global scale, Wehbba’s long-standing career has seen him affiliate with many of the industry greats on both remix and collaborative projects; testament to his flourishing reputation. Following on from the geometric-led titles of his first two albums, Straight Lines and Sharp Corners alludes to the difficult decisions and blunt shifts he has faced in his career, and their capacity to shape his identity over time. Studying the great Antoni Gaudi, Wehbba’s third LP title takes reference from his perceptive quote: "There are no straight lines or sharp corners in nature, therefore buildings must have no straight lines or sharp corners. Anything created by human beings is already in the great book of nature."

Wehbba — 14th To Grand Central — Drumcode — DC220

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