why am i only seeing this now!? its so good

produced by nextime

lyrics

u dont let me talk abt it
u steal off my colour palette
im still havin dreams abt it
re routed my brain so i dont see ur palette

huh
im over u
ive got nothing left tht i owe to u

its over me its over u
dont bend our truth 2 favour u

saw u in colour i aint seen b4
3 tabs in this is too much more
dont ignore my open door
my muscles seize my eyes r sore

plug load me up b4 im out the door
im remaining calm cant last 4 long
all i see is white when i sleep
ya dmts ruined me
who wants 2 dream when their psyched up
talk big
dont let em know the real u
everyone use who they know
only friends w you when they know ur worth
hey man thats not even bad ive meetin worse

palette p. nextime

ft @ploua <3
mix by me and ploua, master by me 
coverart from @claudesdiary shoutout percy and ginny <3

vocals 4 sillyness vvvv
https://soundcloud.com/tunatunatunatuna/im-a-bad-person-but-so-r-u-145-ebmaj-vocals/s-GkPGqorc88k?si=14dae48fd8b949e8a358d1fb43275fef&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

lyrics ~

and i know you dont wanna see me
hate for myself and its stacked to the cieling
the love u had for me was so unappealing 
that being said i still kinda miss having someone by my side
even if its not u thats with me for the ride
cuz i just miss the dopamine with being in love 
and Im one shot away from saying that i love u 
I dont really love anything that u had to bring for me  
u can say anything ill hate anything that u have
best interest at heart did not mean to make u mad
im sorry i shattered every feeling that u had

i know sometimes i wont be there for you
just hit me back i only need a day i swear
your loves too much and know that it just dont feel fair
just say the word and know that ill be out of your hair

so ill hold my breathe till i get a text from u
waiting this whole time to get the best of u
after all you said still cant think any less of u 
hold my head up this isnt anything new
this whole time know im  feeling bad
i wipe my tears and pull back my hair
ive been tryna move on w/o u life aint fair
i was so damn wrong bout u back to square 1

my mind is already lost again
but ill tell u twice
ill find my way back home
dont need to tell me ur lies
ur tryna get in my mind
dont need to tell u twice
all i need to do is get u out of my life

im a bad person but so r u feat ploua prod iof x used beats

got the whole gangy on dis song <33

dudley got his first cover art awwww

holy shit that girl hurt me but hey it results in good music :P

lil message to the homies in this (scroll down 4 lyrics):
had such a fun new year's weekend with u all, and i rly enjoyed the time we spent tg. take a sec to read the lil letters i wrote u :) luv u guys

@kryst3n holy shit i alr known u for literal YEARS thats insane. it's hard to believe we were like 14 when we first played brawlhalla and now we literally linked twice and got super close. had so much fun chillin wit u and makin this song. our voices together is such a beautiful thing and i wanna make sm more with u. thanks for bein a rly good friend despite how shitty i cld be sometimes. ly bro, cheers to more memories <333 cheesy OUT.

@claudesdiary no clue where to even start with u. i. always. looked. up. to. you. best cousin ever to say the least. i always felt like that annoying lil brother to you, but i hope you see through that. i know im out of control a lot and say sum rly out of pocket stuff, but the fact u love me for being myself and keeping me company means the absolute world. words cannot describe how much of an impact u had on my life, would not be makin music if it wasn't for u cuzzo, and tbh i feel a lot less alone when we hang at family gatherings. so thankful for every moment we spend together fr, u been my boy since day 0 jay ilysm < 3

@assperrr I FUCKIN LUV U SWOOZ. i cant make this shit up bro, some of the things u say got me laughin for so long i gotta mute my mic on calls, n when we linked i was DEAD. never change, u got a rly good vibe and can positively affect the ppl around u. hope we can continue to get closer cuz u honestly one of my closest homies in the community. keep doin yo thing, lets make more music soon and link again much luv dawg

if u aint swooz jesse or jay WHY DID U READ THIS SHIT OMG

lyrics:

all my bones are so dismantled
all these feelings i can’t handle
make these plans you always cancel
just my soul; it’s all i gambled

i would give more just to share the same feelings
no you can’t feel it, no you can’t feel it
i’m so far gone you’re the only one to heal me
no you can’t hear me, no you can’t hear me

break my bones and ur pulling away
i could hardly hold on to anything
you say now
so pull me close
and say were not done
ive been tryna write songs but its hard
when the cats got ur tongue
hit my head on the wall 
till im banged up and bruised
make a song cuz its easier
than talking to you (about it)

you’re stabbing my back when i never would
it’s easy to say that i never could
lead you on, lead you on
theres nothing left
you can’t prove me wrong

i would give more just to share the same feelings
no you can’t feel it, no you can’t feel it
i’m so far gone you’re the only one to heal me
no you can’t hear me, no you can’t hear me

all plats

lead u on w/ kryst3n [prod. king theta x claude x asperr]

𝘪𝘮𝘢 𝘳𝘶𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦
additional production by me
https://open.spotify.com/album/1Q2ggA8q5zizowN7b2AJat?si=_dkJHWDjSz6JXoDPz9XwNw
visualizer: https://youtu.be/ELC3oCwdewU

(I’ma say sorry then I do again)
(I’ma burn every bridge, till’ I’m stuck in the ends)
(Now you live in my head, now I play pretend)
(I don’t wanna die, but I think about it)
(Swear I wanna die when I think about it)
(Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded)
(And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded)

You’ve been outta touch for a minute, I know
You been outta reach, you’ve been trying to grow
And it’s hard to breathe when you think about it
Hard to say sorry when it don’t mean shit

I’ma ruin my life, I’ma fuck up my friends
I’ma say sorry, then I’ll do it again
I’ma burn every bridge, till’ I’m stuck in the ends
Now you live in my head, now I play pretend

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

I’ma ruin my life, I’ma fuck up my friends
I’ma say sorry, then I’ll do it again
I’ma burn every bridge, till’ I’m stuck in the ends
Now you live in my head, now I play pretend

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

spotify

ends (simon m)

everything to me ft. days to waste

feel my world just decay as i'm growing up . . .

huge shoutout to @byekento for carrying tf outta this song, u one of my best friends bro ilysm <33

>lyrics<
i been through too much
tryna do too much
feel my world just decay as im growing up
sprials swirling away; brain is blowing up
tryna hurl all my pain; i been throwing up

i just been too fucked up to remember
the times i gave soul back up for the devil
i take a couple puffs; im not more than a vessel
im thinkin way too much; i'll just go fuckin mental

i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them 
i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them

and i been tryna find my way back
if you really love me 
why the fuck ain’t you just say that 
i know im still caught up in my head 
i can’t escape yet chase a paycheck 
still alive but im looking for my fucking grave damn 

and i know that its still gon be the fucking same 
i know i won’t ever change
i know i’m the bad guy 
so i stay inside my lane
fuck no i ain’t reaching out
but i still wish they heard me now 
i know that i let ‘em down

its all my fault so i stay alone 
never had a place to go 
never had a place like home
always somewhere dosing off
i could never let it show
nothing but a sacrifice 
know its all inside my mind 
all this time to figure me out

i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them 
i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them

impaled w/ byekento [prod. dercept x jolst]

all plats soon!

lyric amv:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eDCIy4R875c

DEATH IN SPACE! (prod. oladaev)

been holding onto this one for a while, hope u all like it <33

~lyrics~
19 months i'm so detached
dont give me hope cuz girl i know it forever lasts
i know it's bad
emotions go when i feel low, i ain't holdin back

do you ever think you fucked up?
like everything is going fine and then you're lovestruck?
i tend to turn to my anxiety, it's my fault
your coexistence just makes me fall apart

the noises i hear from after dark
it's poison and i can't take it all
annoyance, like fuck i'm bout to jump

i'm soarin; an angel in the sky
i know that you hang with other guys
i'm growin my wings and start to fly

why'd i let it happen?
you would always say we're done; i'm in love
kinda turned into a habit
blame it on the magic
i think i been on the curse that you fuckin casted

every time i talk, ain't nobody hear me
i don't wanna fall in love, i don't want my feelings
cutting deeper than my scars that are never healing
even if i was a ghost in the night, you are never gonna talk to me

the noises i hear from after dark
it's poison and i can't take it all
annoyance, like fuck i'm bout to jump

i'm soarin; an angel in the sky
i know that you hang with other guys
i'm growin my wings and start to fly

after dark [prod. blvnkface x jibaorockin]

shoulda blown my nose before recording lmao
hope u guys like this cuz i had so much fun making it

=lyrics=
smokin it everywhere, light up a blunt
bitches be lyin and say i cant handle it
up in the function we fuckin it up
getting so high all my lungs they be damagin
runnin for pres im the number one candidate
bitch hella bad, im prayin she let me in
if we make plans, im already canceling
yeah you already know

yeah you already know
yeah you already know
smellin like ass, someone get a candle lit
smokin on gas, we smokin on cannabis
brand new pack, lil bitch get the hang of it

2 guns
they say they be rollin up 2 blunts
fucked up, you're a nuissance
run away, find out who it was
don't believe in the karma
they'll be eating your heart up
deck your body in prada
shutting down with no startup

shutting down, no startup
cuz everyone is so toxic
coming back, samsara
now im pullin up to the moshpit
(i suggest you run)

get the fuck away from me before you make it worse
get the fuck away from me
yeah you already know

smokin it everywhere, light up a blunt
bitches be lyin and say i cant handle it
up in the function we fuckin it up
getting so high all my lungs they be damagin
runnin for pres im the number one candidate
bitch hella bad, im prayin she let me in
if we make plans, im already canceling
yeah you already know

smokin it everywhere, light up a blunt
bitches be lyin and say i cant handle it
up in the function we fuckin it up
getting so high all my lungs they be damagin
runnin for pres im the number one candidate
bitch hella bad, im prayin she let me in
if we make plans, im already canceling
yeah you already know

yeah you already know
yeah you already know
smellin like ass, someone get a candle lit
smokin on gas, we smokin on cannabis
brand new pack, lil bitch get the hang of it

already know [prod. branwen]

[LYRICS]
i wanna fall fast asleep 
i think i’ve fallen in deep 
the walls are starting to speak 
my life means nothin to me 
shit faced everyday fuck a weekend 
cant wait for the day that im leaving 
i’ve been living all the shit that im singing 
burnt out i don’t know what im thinking 

don’t wanna remember the end of the night
i was so fucked up i thought i would die 
i guess there’s a reason why im still alive
but i feel like there’s something missing inside
baby im so alone
i party with ghosts
you’ll never see them and you’ll never know
but that’s how it goes
when you’re diagnosed 
i need a drink i need a dose 
so what if i fuck up my life 
so what if im fallin behind 
i don’t think i wanna live 
i couldn’t do this again 
oh no please don’t leave me in here
(im prayin prayin)
sitting in silence 
my tongue i bite it
i been out wilding
getting lit till im dying 
i’m dying

i wanna fall fast asleep 
i think i’ve fallen in deep 
the walls are starting to speak 
my life means nothin to me 
shit faced everyday fuck a weekend 
cant wait for the day that im leaving 
i’ve been living all the shit that im singing 
burnt out i don’t know what im thinking 

thank u to @nokerbforever for mastering this song and thank you to everyone who sticks around to listen :3
this song is about my struggles with alcoholism so its a bit personal but hope u enjoy!

already know [prod. branwen]

dylan lotus

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