Yah just reach out to the one u think about or your gonna be stuck forever at lease 4 u

this song is like cheese with holes in it... i really like it :D

prod by xona<3 this beat sucks im sorry(,:

thank you to all the ppl that help me make this ily (all in order)
@reesoo
@heylog
@hovis
@moodyriley
@quannnic
@cometesh
@1vil
@uglysneaker
@valerii

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the moment felt familiar when we walked to that lake
had my hand grasped to yours tight, in spite of your dismay
the leaves started falling, you averted your gaze
why the face?

why the face

and i'm losing my hair over someone who don't care about me
hiding frustration the emotions fall out of me and i can barely take it
signs clear can't mistake it
it comes to a barrier that i couldn't even break if i tried

just lay down and hide
you never gave a fuck about my health in the first place, the first place
so fuck off with your standards, get outta my face and just
take your
hands off my neck and you'll
learn a bit of some fucking respect, i'm so
nervous, an emotional wreck
not again
not again, not again

if you
say so
i'd just
lay low
take time
die slow
take time
die slow

running round in circles, such a fucking hypocrite, a little liquor, never hurts me as long as i forget about, youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

as long as i forget about you

1st Place

1st Place (prod. Pekarot)

@rouri404 - vocals
@vaeo-music - vocals
@samthraxx - guitar
https://www.instagram.com/polboii_otto - art
<3 <3 <3
(rouri404)
 Notice every time i called you were never there (ever there)
If there are broken promises still know i was not prepared
Dreamed the world burned I'm flipping in my bed
Holding back the same tears years I've been fighting
Just want a place of comfort yeah you know I've been trying
Still I know that it all means nothing in the end
(vaeo)
Cat had my tongue so I can't speak your name
Every time that i hear it the blood in my veins
Turns to acid and burns all the ashes away
Turn away from my gaze ‘for i finally disintegrate 
(rouri404)
Know that I've been locked in a tool shed
Mind is empty always and my body is feeling useless 
Sick of cycles and moving just drained my body of fluid
Don't think its ever improving 
though either way I'm gonna lose it can't pretend
(vaeo)
Showing love no reciprocation 
I can't sleep here while you are lying in the bed adjacent
I've been waiting for a lifetime running out of patience 
Now i see your last breath before you take it
(rouri 404)
Knife in the back I've been falling watching me stumble down
In this empty room crawling been screaming don't think they hear a sound
And I know there's not a difference when I'm not around
Lately just been feeling lost and found
(vaeo)
Still lost, still hurts
It always costs more than what its worth
Wrong directions and broken spines
Crooked edges intertwine
Still lost, still hurts
It always costs more than what it's worth
I thought I told you I'm doing fine
But its all torture by design
(rouri404)
???
???
Haven't slept in weeks and you know I'm shedding pounds
Wont see the sun up I'm hoping that you wont come around
Jumping from the top of a bridge I'll just watch my body drown

Lost And Found (feat rouri404 + vaeo)

yesterday (31sentinel x goodbyex2002)

lyrics:
you can never see the difference
all in my head there's no respect
or did you lose your interest
you can't admit can't face the facts
everybody has opinions
sorry i had to change
i already replaced
if you ever wanna listen
im so sorry that you feel indifferent

i don't wanna be an issue
wipe the blood off my nose with a tissue
sorry love i don't think this should continue
whole world starts to slow when i miss you
and this worlds no fair i dont wanna be alone
smoke filled air feel the pressure leave my lungs
in my head its so clear leaves as quickly as it comes
really not sure if i even wanna end it

you can never see the difference
all in my head there's no respect
or did you lose your interest
you can't admit can't face the facts
everybody has opinions
sorry i had to change
i already replaced
if you ever wanna listen
im so sorry that you feel indifferent

you think i'm just like you, you think i'm bullet proof
what was i supposed to do, i've seen your every move
wonder how we got here in the first place
you're still stuck in my head in the worst way
cut me down carve your name in the asphalt
you're to blame but i'll say that its my fault

you can never see the difference
all in my head there's no respect
or did you lose your interest
you can't admit can't face the facts
everybody has opinions
sorry i had to change
i already replaced
if you ever wanna listen
im so sorry that you feel indifferent

but did you want it all, tell me did you want it all
why do you never call, tell me is it all my fault
live with the things that i did, feels like i never win
oh i feel like shit, i don't like who i am

you can never see the difference
all in my head there's no respect
or did you lose your interest
you can't admit can't face the facts
everybody has opinions
sorry i had to change
i already replaced
if you ever wanna listen
im so sorry that you feel indifferent

opinions

moment

https://open.spotify.com/track/0bqdZ25dWQ6LgEV3G8J9fu?si=0c6142c1cf9e46a0

biteki vid vvvvvv
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmOMzIdftbo

lov u fern <33 @x1fern

mix and master by me

Vocals
https://soundcloud.com/kryst4n/lovely-ft-fern-p-king-theta-184-bm-vocals/s-5c5ywlaA5qq?si=ba41921996cf453f851b8906a4d4068a&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

lyrics ~

(me)
paint me darling
make me important
cuz id do anything just for a glimpse of ur attention
tell me ur sorry said don't even worry
u couldnt mess up anything if u tried tried
my dear ur perfect
ur so lovely
I was drowning in hurt until u came beside me
cuz u lighten my mood and there's stars all around me
cuz u make it so bright when its raining and cloudy

(fern)
tell me a secret 
cuz i cant believe it
i've been thinking bout you at my 9 to 5
and how i wanna spend my whole life
shawty in my head got me kinda fucked up
sitting in my room wanna say i love you
tryna be cool but im burning up inside
baby if u have me im here for the ride
im here for the ride

(me)
paint me darling
make me important
cuz id do anything just for a glimpse of ur attention
tell me ur sorry said don't even worry
u couldnt mess up anything if u tried tried
my dear ur perfect
ur so lovely
I was drowning in hurt until u came beside me
cuz u lighten my mood and there's stars all around me
cuz u make it so bright when its raining and cloudy

lovely feat 1fern prod king theta

art by phixel

i am such an asshole
all alone in the middle of a castle
trying hard to redirect my mental
i am just an asshole yea

i am such an asshole yea thats what u told me
fade into the background rip 2 the old me
now im in the foreground, lights flashing on me
love me for a night, get an uber in the morning
i cant move i dont wanna keep living
only way 2 go is drugged up, wrist dripping
 and i wanna call u back but my phone keeps tripping
hope she not mad when she find me in the kitchen

find me in the kitchen and i'm doing something bad 
hope they leave me here cause i don’t wanna make nobody mad
really can’t control things im doing when im sad
they don’t know the whole story, how you stabbed me in the back
its such a hassle
try to crawl out, but i think i'm trapped though 
wake up early, fix my problems with a capsule 
medication turning me into an asshole 
build walls but i'm still not fortified 
smoke all day can't even enjoy the high
these withdrawals and the pain has got mortified 
your absence made itself immortalized 
hate looking through these tired eyes 
cant keep up this disguise 
took too long to realize 
it's no one's fault but mine

i am such an asshole
all alone in the middle of a castle
trying hard to redirect my mental
i am just an asshole yea

asshole w/ dylan longworth (anem0s)

so this is off of my old PC which broke and i lost all the files :p so if mix sounds weird that why,,..hoppeeee u enjoy(:
presave fisheye !!! ffm.to/fisheye

(shoutout @youngburial @dead4cf for gettin on <3)

codependent w/fatse & 4cf (xmichaelwarren)

𝘪𝘮𝘢 𝘳𝘶𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦
additional production by me
https://open.spotify.com/album/1Q2ggA8q5zizowN7b2AJat?si=_dkJHWDjSz6JXoDPz9XwNw
visualizer: https://youtu.be/ELC3oCwdewU

(I’ma say sorry then I do again)
(I’ma burn every bridge, till’ I’m stuck in the ends)
(Now you live in my head, now I play pretend)
(I don’t wanna die, but I think about it)
(Swear I wanna die when I think about it)
(Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded)
(And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded)

You’ve been outta touch for a minute, I know
You been outta reach, you’ve been trying to grow
And it’s hard to breathe when you think about it
Hard to say sorry when it don’t mean shit

I’ma ruin my life, I’ma fuck up my friends
I’ma say sorry, then I’ll do it again
I’ma burn every bridge, till’ I’m stuck in the ends
Now you live in my head, now I play pretend

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

I’ma ruin my life, I’ma fuck up my friends
I’ma say sorry, then I’ll do it again
I’ma burn every bridge, till’ I’m stuck in the ends
Now you live in my head, now I play pretend

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

I don’t wanna die, but I think about it
Swear I wanna die when I think about it
Hard to see the light when your thoughts clouded
And I only feel alive when the room’s crowded

ends (simon m)

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